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| Wow, it's been almost a year since I've reported to my xanga.
I've changed and grown so much. Also been through a lot of shit...shit that i dont even want to bring up again.
Life has been.....twisty and turny, but I've managed to find myself at peace lately. I have someone in my life who i care for...no titles..but the relationship is growing and i think about this person almost all day and it's just relaxing to know, at the end of the day...that they feel the same way..
other then that....I'm kind of confused on certain aspects of my life. I just feel like I want to do so much, but people are doubting me. Bringing me down, etc etc.
I just dont know what i want to do with my life-school, work, travel, disappear...i just dont know.
I dont know what to do. actually..i do.. but it's just a dream, as of right now.hm. well...this is just a quick update..
more elaborate entries to come.
<3
"The point of an argument isn't about victory, it's about progress"
-some european brain that died in the 1800's. | | |
| Gettin lonlier and lonlier....
relationships just don't do anything for me anymore, am I cold-hearted or something?
Working is depriving me of my friendships....I'm lucky that I still have the few that stick around for some reason
Oh, and I can't sleep anymore. No joke...I call random people every morning to see if they're still awake...and if they are...we hang out until I have to go to school usually.
My life is going all in one massive direction pointing downwards towards hell.
*muah*
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| God...
Why am I lactose-intolerant??
Milk sucks
my stomach hurts...
thanks
-Rachel | | |
| SOOOO
New bf, he's the coolest (as he would say) hehe. I've never met anyone that's been so sweet before, I'm happy. : )
Other then that, school is full of fucking retards and I can't wait to get out. I'm ready to get on with my life. I feel like I'm growing apart from everyone, just with my maturity. (yes, I'm mature. Lol) But seriously, I feel like I'm so old now, and I have so many new responsibilities and I'm taking care of myself now, I don't even converse with my parents. AND working, my god, I'm working SOO much. I don't have time to even hang out with my friends anymore. I miss Meghan, the twins, christine and my little crew, and everyone so much. Plus I've lost so much contact with my old friends, I just miss everyone. : ( but I gues that's life. I'm getting old!!!!!
k, I'm done | | |
| WOW
So confused right now, kind of. Not really. That was pointless, huh? haha. But past feelings are popping up again, just don't want them to, but you just can't help it. I don't seem to shut doors too well.
I almost ran over a bicycle..person..guy..today. God...is it bad that I was laughing??
School starts in 2 days........I want just like..another week. Just another week to get tan so I have something to prove that I wasn't inside all summer...which I was cause there's no sun in Stein Mart....gey ass fucking place.
moomoo-an old lady dress or some hawaiian thing...learned that the other day.
: )
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