| TornI met someone who I can connect with on every level. She understands my every point of view and sometimes she can read my very thoughts when no words are spoken. We have only known each other for a short time, but it seems we have been together for years. Everything just flows perfectly when we are together, and time seems to fly. As fast as we got to know each other, we had to leave each other. It was one my hardest experiences to leave something you care for so much not knowing what the future holds. We both excepted the outcome but continue to be optimistic as the days pass. I am grateful of every second we got to spend together and every moment we experienced together. I try to look at the cup half full instead of half empty, but a part of me knows she is the one, someone special. I long for the day our lips will touch again, where I can feel the warmth of her skin, the day I can feel true love again... TS |
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| sohere I am kicking myself in the ass b.c once again ive let my feelings
get the most of me...maybe it's just the way i think. i try to be
optimistic in situations that are doomed from the beginning. or maybe
it's just i hate to give it without trying or putting in an
effort...but i like to think those are the reasons to my failures, but
in reality im just blind and hard headed...i cant accept the fact that
somethings are out of reach when they seem so close. but that's life,
you cant have everything. maybe i need to seriously reevaluate my
thinking process and how i act and talk to around certain people.
lately ive been really open to a lot of people which is something new
to me...but in the end i just seem to get burned. i think ill start to
hold back somethings and just let it ride out.
im also turning into the person who i told myself i would never be... |
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| well summer is pretty much half over. but things have seem to be going down hill right now. i just feel that im losing friends left and right every single day. idk what im doing wrong or the reason for them. am i a bad guy or something? worst thing is that i havent gotten a straight answer from anyone. but what i really came on here to get off my chest is an incident that happened today. I was hit hard with this feeling of "emotional pain" straight into my stomach. the wierd reason is that im just merely friends with this person, yet the moment i see her not return my calls and then start hanging out with "this guy" i get this sick feeling. i dont know why i feel this way, but it made me not want to work the rest of the day and just go home. i dont know what to think anymore and who i can count on...
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| summ 2006well I am now going to be a junior in college, half done already. Well I'm now back in hawaii just working, enjoying the food, chilling, and partying. |
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| well it is 6am on a wed. morning and im waiting to leave for the mountains for some snowboarding, and as you can see I am sooooo bored I came onto xanga, and damn it has been a long time since ive been on here. well as you can see Im on spring break, peace out |
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