Ok it's been forever I'm so busy wth life that i haven't really had time to vent...I have sooo much going on right now.  In case you didn't know by now i'm moving to Florida.  I am leaving in 6 days i'm so excited.  I have so much packing to do it's unreal.  I also have so other major stuff going on and all of this combined has me really stressed out.  Work is terrible as usualy..but i only have 5 more days there..so thats' ok..cause i'm out of there...YES!  so anyway ...just wanted to update...in case anyone was keeping up with me that doesn't already know me anyway.  I'm not really sure if there is anything else to add...cause i mean that is pretty major and what could top that..Chris and I are doing good..if i can stop stressing and going crazy on him..He's so sweet its unreal.  Anyway..i guess thats all I will hopefully get a chance to update more once i get settled in.  Take care till next time

I'm going to cry so much when I leave my mom and dad and my niece
"18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loadin' up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talkin'
Puttin' off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
And there's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
and those bills there on the counter
keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I call momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
Hey momma, don't forget

To tell my baby sister
I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-maw that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy
That I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me

Tonight I find myself kneeled by my bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big old place
Yeah I know there's more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me"

I guess i'm updating early this week ..lol..since i seem to be writing only once a week lately..oh well ..anyway life is great..i know i keep having these ups and downs...but i'm on a permanent upswing..  So i settled my drama from the last entry and i told William I couldn't see him anymore...i know some might think i am totatlly insane ..to get rid of a perfectly good guy that lives rght here...for one that lives a 7 hours away...but thats just what i felt i had to do ...I didn't see William and i becoming serious...i mean maybe it could have happened but i guess i'll never know now....cause i have met the most wonderful man in the world...i know this sounds slightly familiar..but ..i promise everyone this guy is great.  Yes Courtney it's the same Chris from myspace..and yes he is totally sweet and soooo cute. it is indeed a small world..lol..I am so happy rght now i can't stand myself..if i were someone walking down the street i would want to slap that silly grin off my face.....its ok though...i have good reason.  I am going to Florida Wednesday to meet him...it's going to be a great time...I am so excited and so is Chris..then after i get back home he will be coming up here to NC 3 days later...it's going to be so much fun...i just can't wait ...life is so good right now..haha..i know i say this over and over and things happen that make my life a little less wonderful..but this time feels like the right one...i don't have the words or the answers to explain how RIGHT this feels..so ..hopefully i won't be writing any sad entries anytime soon.and everything is going to be all happy from now on...keep praying for me...cause i really need it. i have to work this weekend all day both days...so it's not really gonna feel like Easter..but i have an exciting week coming up so i dont mind.  everyone pray for Amber too cause she has been sick the past 4 days or so...and i really want her to get better soon..she had to go to the ER tue night and it was just a rough time...anyway...hope everyone has a wonderful Easter..remember the reason for the season...it's not all about bunnies and eggs...till next time everyone!!

ok so i thought why not throw in a pic


"Baby baby baby baby baby baby
baby baby baby baby baby...

im so glad...

I will never find another lover sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you were
Close to me just like my mother
Close to me just like my father
Close to me just like my sister
Close to me just like my brother
You are the only one in my everything and for you this song I sing

And for all my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
all my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinkin' of...baby...

Said, I promise to never fall in love-with a stranger
You're all I'm thinkin' of, I praise the lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really LOVE YOU

And all my life (baby, baby) I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you,
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

You're all that I ever known
When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow
You turned my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile love is glow
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile love is glow
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way toooooo
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life ..."