wow, i haven't written anything in here in a long time....so many things are happing in my life at the current moment i feel as though it is a whirlwind spinning right by me......
my mom mom (no not my mom, my mom's best friends mom, she is like a grandma to me) has leukemia and they aren't going to do any treatments on her..... she probally will live for like a year.....
so as most of you know the situation with my dad (total asshole and jerkface), i just have a problem with not feeling loved, and other things to do with him my mom is taking me to a therapist....  i mean i don't feel like i have a problem but deep down inside i know i do... i think that if i do go it would help me a lot (both my mom and my sister went to therapy but not for the same reason), i guess i just fool everyone acting happy, but i really am not. i am scared, and i really need support right now guys.....please help me
dance is going well though, its like my escape. i can let my emotions out there with out talking or telling anyone about it...............
all i can do is pray..... hope to god he will help me no be a screw up anymore (lol just playing i had to lighten the mood a little bit  )
love chesso, chels, hey sexy (lol another mood enchancer) or whatever anyone else calls me
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