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fourjgk180
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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 10/24/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: screwwin around, slackin, doing anything not productive =)
Expertise: uh, school?, perhaps swiming
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Member Since:
4/4/2003
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| Question: Why is it that everyone has to get burned love-wise? I mean, off the top of my head I can't think of a single first-try success.
There's got to be a reason somewhere, I have a hell of a time believe it's necessary. Although ... perhaps it is. Maybe the scars teach you something for the next time around. I'd still like to think there's some way across the fire other than right through it.
Being the leftist liberal that I am, I tend to look to upbringing =P. Maybe it's the way we're raised to see relationships? I mean, my own experience and knowledge is awfully shallow, but it seems to me that an awful lot of people expect a relationship to be the be all that ends all of everything. However, (now) I think there ought to be at least SOME level of autonomy and independence in a healthy relationship. Maybe our views are just too naive the first time around?
Or maybe we just need to be a little hard-boiled, and a nice proper flame-out of a failure helps with that. *Shrugs* beats me. Anyways, enough thought for one night. *Goes off to do mindless things like studying* | | |
| College Application Final Status:
Stanford - Rejected
UCI - Regent's
UCSD - Regent's
UCLA - Regent's
UC Berkeley - Regent's
UC Davis - Accept
MIT - Rejected
Caltech - Accept
Duke - Waitlisted
Harvard - Reject
Johns Hopkins - Accept
Princeton - Reject
So that's the way it falls. | | |
| I am 19% evil.
I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
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| Feeling down and out for the usual reason. Dead tired, should probably be sleeping. This journal is turning it an angsty rant-fest -_-. Although, that is pretty much how I feel.
If a certain somebody read this. Yes I'm angry, yes I'm bitter. I don't like it one bit, but I really have no choice. You wouldn't understand. But sorry about it. About everything.
About to crash on top of my Calc homework, but here are some random lyrics to pass the time.
Delerium - A Poem For Byzantium Lyrics
Unbidden shadows of you formed yesterday
I ran away to a room here on the bay
Interrupted life again, another new beginning
Where the silence echoes you're no longer with me
Here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
Even though i may be alone, but that's ok
Through the darkness i would walk in the streets
Confessions never seemed to provide me with a release
Held me down and tried to cure me tried to give me reason
But nothing could separate this burdened mind from me
Here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
Even though i may be alone, but that's ok
And looking out to a different sky will disengage me
Absence is never the answer, i know, but it serves as my shade
I do not seek and do not intend to find
A calmer ocean or a sun that never will rise
My world will never change and time'll bring you to my thoughts,
and
I'll move on and then forget you all over again
Moving on, i can forgive you all over again
Here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
Even though i may be alone, but that's ok
And looking out onto a different sky it seems so easy
Absence is never the answer, i know, but it serves as my shade | | |
| I have to say that tsunami thing really just hit me. Thats over 100,000 people dead. Just knocked over and drowned. No fanfare or theatrics, just snuffed out like a candle. One hundred thousand candles.
I'm one, you're two. Three, four, five, six...
Thats scary. I mean one person dead is bad enough. A hundred is shocking. A thousand is horrifying. This...makes me sick to the stomach.
Thats one hundred thousand souls gone. For no good reason what so ever. Nature didn't ask if they had any unfinished business, any last regrets. It just shoved a wall of water at them. And that was that.
My god.
One hundred thousand people.
*shivers* | | |
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