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well today is still a depressing day. and now my arms hurt.(don't ask y, you should be able to guess.) so now i'm still depressed. i want to know why no guy loves me as more than a friend. is there something ugly about me? or my personality? damn. well i was happy for a little while yesterday, cuz i did a pep rally with autumn and catie. and i have lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks. so i was happy. but then i went home and watched moulin rouge.and i started thinking about him. then i got sad. and you can guess the rest. well, g2g.

why does my heart cry feelings i can't fight?

Caitlyn

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still depressed..... i had fun at church with john, but i like almost cried because it's hard to see someone you love and remember they don't love you. but the words to this moulin rouge song come to mind: Why does my heart cry feelings i can't hide? i have been thinking that for the past 2 days. i mean i have no i dea why i feel like this. he doesn't love me and he hasn't really given me a reason to love him, but i do!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!? grr. stupid female hormones. ne wayz, i'm gong to the movies this friday(maybe i'll see you there leanna-just tell me who you're going with) and i have no idea what i'm gonna see. someone suggest a good movie. well off to finish my depressing day. go me.

depressing thoughts of him raid my brain,

Caitlyn

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ok it's only 3rd period and i already know it's gonna be a depressing day. i mean, john said he wants to be friends, but i just can't stop liking him and i don't know why. it's so wierd. and i don't think i just like him. i mean, i feel like i would do anything for him to be with him and make him happy. is that considered love?  my head is so mixed up right now. i mean, isee all my friends aroud me and they all have b/fs or someone that loves them or has loved them and it makes me feel so left out. i feel so depressed. well g2g..i'm in mrs. heath's class, so i got to do an assignment.

love yall,

Caitlyn

ok i'm gonna do the same thing autumn and loren and some other pplz did on theire xangas and give some shout outs.

Autumn, you are my best bud! you have been there for me and taught me stuff that makes me stronger. you're there to help me through my problems, and you know i'm here for you! we've had an amazing year! and we have some funny jokes to tell ppl! I LOVE YOU!

John B., you have been one of my best guy friends. you understand me and what i go through, and you're here for me! and you don't treat me like some immature girl. and you didn't shun me when i told you... well, ya know. thank you! i love ya!

Jenny. girl, i gotta give you some PROPS! you have helped me alot through the past 2 years. guy troubles, home troubles, you are never too busy to help me and i THANK you for it SO much!! I love you to death!

Ashley, i know we haven't been all that tight, but we both feel some of the samr stuff! and i wont mention it all, but really, you have shared stuff with me and helped me too!

Loren you are the coolest clarinet player i know!! GO BAND GEEKS!! you've been there to make me laugh all year!! thanks for not letting me go CRAZY!

Kayla, we aren't that tight, but i'm glad we met! and now we're buds!

Catie, we have been through a lot this year. ups and WAY downs, but we've stuck together through it all!! thank you for being there for me and rock on with your bad self, llama!!

Craig, you've been a great guy to me and i appreciate it! you make me feel special!!

Morgan odom, you have been there for me this year too!! to make me laugh, to cheer me up, to tell me some interesting new sexual thought(hehe), you've been there. i love you!

Kelsey girl... i know you're reading this and i LOVE you girl!! you have been there for me for 3 years!! you've heard about my problems, helped me get over guys, and told me i was being a dumass when i was! thank you so much because you have made me stronger and smarter! i love you girl!!

Trey, you have been there too! you are so funny and you are a GREAT musician. rock on!

Lacey D., you have been an awesome friend too! GO MARCHING BAND!! tell your sis i said hey!

Lacey boone, you're pretty cool girl, for a 6th grader! thanks for being there!

Leanna, i know we aren't really tight but thanks for all your random thoughts!

Rachel b, we have been tight all year, but thanks for being there and sharing all your perverted tought when i needed to be grossed out!

if i left anyone out, slap me next time you see me!!

I LOVE ALL OF YALL!! 

Caitlyn