Oh le sigh. Its been a while since Ive written anything real, I have no time. Aidin(and Im far from complaining, my little cuddle bug) is always wanting MOMMY. I go to shower poor sir always gets a screaming baby the moment I leave the room. He wants to sleep next to MOMMY. So mommy is exhausted, and rarely has a moment to update. Alot of things have been going on but all has been so...emotional. Mostly my emotions, as Im ALWAYS emotional Anyway.Then the lack of sleep is adding on it. So much. Anywhoodles, we got into it last night. Had so much on my mind that I could NOT keep it in for another second. So I blew up and made it clear how I felt about things, and how I felt I should leave. Thankfully all my thoughts(God love understanding souls) were shot out as silly. Like me blaming myself for our financial problems when its the Landlords stupid ass or things of that nature. Or how It felt like we never were really going to get married...I said I was going to leave just to spare him the things he didnt deserve. Like my emotions lol. But we worked it out and thank god. I would never go anywhere, I love him too much, and he's the father of our child. I would do my damnedest to keep our family together. I refuse to become my parents and refuse to let MY family fall apart. I dont want Aidin going through that. Its not fair to him. I love Jason with my whole heart and Thank god for him... Le sigh. Knight in dirty ACUs;)

Aidin is getting BIG; Already a month old. Doesnt fit in his new born cloths anymore. Our little chunky monkey. He weighed ten pounds at his last appointment and is 22''. We bought him a baby swing today, he loooooooves it. Its jungle themed and plays soft music for him. Its adorable. Hes waking up though, Probably hungry.
Im slowly loosing weight. I weigh 148lbs right not. Not bad for weighing 173lbs a month ago before giving birth.

Finish these thoughts later, bubby is waking up. Feeding time for him bed time for me:) Nighty night, more coherent thoughts later...Maybe lol