OCTOBER=BEST

omg this weekend just is like a flood of memories that doesnt even feel like it happened. like it was all a dream. thats how PERFECT it was!

baking and then not, umbc and the worst attempt ive seen to play pool, setting up for hc dance, columbia mall, traffic , shopping w/eric lol, parkin lot pix, umbc again. arundel mills, MASSAGE PICS (sooooo bad now that i really look at it), sunroof, stupid sh*t during the day, rushing to get dressed, colleens house ^_^, the checkers that made my day feel so better, all the cell fone calls, finally leaving, THE DANCE (do we even need to talk bout that lol), cleaning up after, the car rides, the cheesy gordita crunch (completely in luv w/it), bowling, HOME . FLIPPIN CRAZY NITE!

def still in shock about some of the stuff  i did yesterday. stuff i def didnt think i had the guts to do and w/e. o man. sort of weird. dont noe how this is gonna affect me now. eek. ::sigh::

<3s nirvana

Im soooo mad at myself its ridiculous. I cant believe that even if its october and im having mad fun that I let myself slack so much. Time management this month went buhbye.. its cuz SATs ended XD.

but yea i am really mad at myself. its gonna take triple the efforts to get back on track now. its ludicrous. and pretty pathetic. I def wasnt expecting this from myself and like completely disappointed. I think it sort of first hit me when i got 6 wrong in the multiple choice for the econ test. I should have understood the material and have gotten 4 or less wrong.  But my stupid self decided that after having fun to just relax even more instead of doing what was necessary.

The stuff that I should have done a week or 2 ago is now going to be condensed within the next 1 1/2 weeks. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! this stupidity makes me wanna.... god. I think I have my priorities back straight now thou... hopefully. im going to have to accept the consequences of my idiocy unfortunately... ::sigh::

On the flip side spirit week is going great so far. Went all out for mismatch w/teh flamin bart simpson boxers... hell yea. And then yesterday was twins w/khush and ramandeep. Today... western better watch out. its back to old school. lmao. its gonna be great man! Then theres all the activities from thurs (khush bday, class color day, pep rally), friday (baking, hc setup, game) and saturday is the DANCE! yayyyyyyyy!

still disappointed in myself... and plz no one comment saying how i should be proud and im not stupid or w/e. cuz if you think that u dont understand. no pity for me!

gnite nirvana... even thou im really stopping the rambling and gonna study now but w/e
...pix will be up by next week.. PROMISE ^_^
***thx sanka for making my day!

i luv this song! so relevant rite now (?) lol. ^_~

2 AWESOMEST DAYS EVER!!!!

So yesterday was PSAT=No school for seniors. Eric, Faraz, Abhi, Rabia, and I went visit College Park. First we were at Panera and ate/watched. Soooo good.  talked about physics and how i couldnt get a stupid vectors prob and other random stuff. Then jumped a hill and drove to college park w/2 guys talkin bout cars the entire time. Even thou all we really did there was go in their student center and play billiards (not me cuz i hit someone the last time i played)/ddr (rabia n i vs. faraz... we won ^_^)/air hockey. Then joined a tour of the campus for 3 mins until we ran away. Walked around and took in the view. But then left for CHIPOTLE. omgggggggggggggggggggg... its soooooooooooo good.  And i had to have the veggie cuz divali is comin up. what happens when i get to eat the chicken?! omg. hehe. i cant wait. Also got my caramel frap from starbucks... heaven in less than an hr. Then we hit up arundel mills; browsed, walked for no reason, watched into the blue w/PAUL WALKER (soooo hot... rabia and i couldnt stop... staring ^_~) , and then took that lil strip of pix from a booth on the other side of the mall. After dropped rabia home, and then hit up umbc for some table tennis. saw WILLOUGHBY (i miss that boy way too much), andrew white, steve, and rehan. I think ive concluded im bad at practically every sport. Then went home 1 1/2 hr later than expected. but it was all worth it!

Today was Abhis 18th BDAY!!!!  Hes freaking legal... so not fair! clubs and everything that comes after... HAHA.  O man ive been around him wayyy too much. Went down on rt 40 to brunswicks lanes to bowl. Played in teh arcade for awhile; air hockey and basketball. I think i scored more points on myself when i played air hockey.  haha. Then got to do teh cosmic bowling where teh lights are out. I hadnt done it in like 2-3 yrs, but i didnt do bad. I won the 2nd game which was pretti cool. Abhi and shady snuck in pizza under his coat instead of the place rippin us off in buying their tasteless food. "its hard. swallow"...  When we were doing random stuff.. I ended up kicking a 12 lb bowling ball ... b/c thats what i thought salman did ?_? How was i supposed to know?! and dont even pull that valedictorian crap on me! Then dropped faraz off home, and went to security to chill. saw some woodlawn ppl but basically just walked around the entire time.

Then got dropped home, arianna did the nhs posters (all nhs ppl better thank her plz!), and then studied for econ. I was gonna go to sleep 1 hr ago but then the sweetest lil guy started talking to me. hes sooooooooo cute (even thou he thinks that is an insult). made my night!  and now im writing this. but now im sleepy so im gone.

Hopefully this wont be the last of the fun times w/spirit week/khush bday/homecoming game/bake sale/ homecoming dance next week!  o man... i cant wait! Yay for october.

<3s nirvana

HAHA. wow. no comment. SAT= evil. aka i give up.

• headache/fever the night before=restless sleep=well u know...
• no glasses=my eyes focusing in and out=no concentration + the passages were hard this time ::sniff::
• proctor cutting time in the first 2 sections= not getting them done=
• messing up on bubbling (shifted)/realizing it w/2-3 mins left= frantic rush= did bad on math section +  i didnt noe how to do a problem
• BUT i did think i wrote an awesome essay... i think...

THE END TO SAT Is... unless my dad makes me take it again.

SATs are tmw... and rite now i could honestly careless. Because I know despite my studying aka taking approx 8 practice tests, I most likely would not have improved much. And that doesn't bother me b/c I became way more disciplined with studying and time management and all.

I expect...
a 20 pt increase in math ::fingers crossed::
a -20-30 pt decrease/increase in Crit Reading
a 10-50 pt increase in Writing b/c my essays are pretty well written

Just higher than a 2000 is all I ask. Some may say o im gonna get higher or w/e, yet i still dont think so. and thats the truth. Those are my expectations, and if I pass them Ill be extremely pleased. If I dont... too bad for me. This is my last chance. And this is my rant the night before the SAT.

I must admit I learned a lot about grammar (ewww) and some words to use for AP essays . Its hopeless in math for me... I can achieve a 5 in calc and cant even receive a 700 in SAT math... tiss tiss. its so pathetic

<3s Nirvana

I would go out or something to distract me tonight (I dont think I need it anymore), but its my daddy's bday ^_^

**********************************11:24 pm**********************************

I LEFT MY GLASSES @ SCHOOL. OMG. OMG. OMG. CUZ RITE BEFORE I WENT FOR SENIOR PORTRAITS I PUT THEM ON MY DESK. NOW I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE THEY WENT CUZ I DONT REMEMBER SEEING THEM BEFORE I LEFT FOR 4TH PERIOD! WHY ME???!!! WHAT DID I DO THAT WAS SOOOOO WRONG??? AND TO MAKE IT WORSE MY EYES HAVE HURT THE PAST 3 DAYS.... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. SO NOW IM FLIPPING... HENCE IM DEF GETTING A 1900... n then wont get accepted into college, rents mad, teachers disappointed, ppl saying are u serious shouldnt you have done better?, etc. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. GO FIGURE.. MY LUCK.

on the + side i played in the rain today!
on the down side... i think i have a fever  ... did i mention im screwed tmw?

"Everything that can go wrong,

WILL."

-Murphy's Law

sort of cant go to sleep... o man...o man... o man... the person I wanted to talk to wasnt even on aim to talk to! and i have a headache... i hate senior yr.