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| Smoking killsMy lungs are starting to hurt.
Looks like I am not going to Mt. Saint Mary's. One of my school documents, ironically the least important one, ended up getting lost in the mail. I will not qualify for this term and will be pushed for consideration for the following May 2009. Today confirmed it - the admissons officer probably deals with these situations a lot, since she had that customer service ish tone of voice. That sorry, bad luck, but sucks to be you -click, kinda thing.
So Concordia it is. I am trying to get more information about the campus body, yet so far, all I know is that it is a preferred school for homeschool bible students who want that Christian collegiate experience. I am moderately concerned, but what can you do. Still, I am grateful that one out of the two schools worked out. This means that Hong Kong and or Korea is still a ways away. and I still have the chance to be a nurse.
Every obstacle is there to screw you over and keep you from getting what you want.
Every challenge is there to make you stronger and teach you lessons that you have yet to learn.
I keep wavering back and forth between the two. Its like Jekyll and Hyde in here right now. | | |
| Week 11 ? Brain dump.Pass the toilet paper. Weeks of social isolation and accumulated stress can do funny things to your head. I don't know if my inner demons are coming out to roost, or if it's a major case of cabin fever, but the mind is currently a whirlwind of turbulence. Much of what I am discovering is that I have a stubbornly resistant streak to change; adaptation is a survival skill, emotion and habit becomes the enemy, in this case. School is bringing out the worst in me - I find myself regressing into old habits with unnerving ease. Incidentally, another perspective shift occurs when the obvious blatant truths of your life are revealed in full. Nothing too existential - merely an observation in personal quirks, habits, characteristics and such. The discovery that an endless supply of pound cake, ramen and oatmeal is not necessarily sufficient to fuel this excursion into academia. I am looking at the positive side of this ordeal - much suffering has occurred, yes.
But many lessons are following as well. Another subtle tweak of the internal monologue, to hopefully better adapt to the never ending progression of change in this life. It has been a stressful two months, with a few pockets of relief. I am discovering, again, what works and what does not - an invaluable insight if I am to continue in nursing and its accelerated madness. It never ceases to amaze me, just how flexible the human mind can potentially be; at the same time, it boggles me to no end how inconsistent life can be. Then again, when one complains of being in a rut, it should be expected that life will throw out a curve ball to keep you on your toes. Be careful of what you wish for, or rather, be prepared for it if you do. I will refrain from complaining about my schedule again. I find that after psyching yourself out for a long enough time, you can succumb quite easily to the web of madness you spin for yourself. Intentional or not. Another life lesson that you thought you knew, but when circumstance makes you apply it to a 1 degree shift in context - failure.
Probably an indicator that there is still more to learn before you really get it right. Then again, isn't that what life is all about anyway? I suffered an existential crisis for about 3 hours the other day. Now I forget what it was I was so concerned about. Now the time is spent reflecting on all the things that we should be grateful for, ranging from the grandiose such as the to the simplistic. I will come out of my hole by the end of May, for a few moments at least. Hope everyone is enjoying themselves and the coming of summer. Back to the books...
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| Week ?Losing track. School still sucks, and it's been a mild depressing point for me. But, I think the slump is slowly dissipating. Just have to recognize that it's almost halfway near the end of the semester, win or lose.
Concordia sent me a letter, and I am waitlisted for the the class of August 2008, confirmed for the class of January 2009. It's better than a rejection letter. *smile* Now I am awaiting Mt Saint Mary's letter, and will need to restart my kick butt journey into pulling off the rest of this semester. Speed bumps along the way...
Saw Wicked tonight with my old dance team. Amazing. I have always wondered what the hype was about, but now I see the *green* light. Amazing. And Defying Gravity is now my song du jour. Almost got teary during that finale. Now its back to the world, and I better do a good job making it through.
And Glinda is a major spaz. I loved it.
Ok, that's the update. Hope all is well with the world. Until next time. | | |
| Hell - GWC Week 5I apologize for my absence. It has been a crazy few weeks...
My diet has consisted of cigarettes and processed carbs for the past two weeks. Mmmm.
Anatomy Exam
Medical Nutrition Exam Meh...
MicroBio Exam
Anatomy Lab Exam
Concordia Applications - by End of February
Anticipating a breather... Phew...
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| Spring Semester - Week 3Ass... Getting... Served... Royally...
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