we had our og farewell dinner for pachara at sushi tei @ paragon today. it's nice that our og still has meetups every now and then. hmm it was alwyn yizhen tiff wenyu me pachara and sam. considering the fact that most ogs are dead or defunct now, the attendance is relatively good.

i don't know why. i like talking to pachara. it's easy to talk to her. she feels like a big sister whom i can really get sound advice from. i was the last to say goodbye to her because i was the only one who took the train with her. it was then when i realised, no matter how dumb this sounds, that i'll miss her even when i talk to her like once or twice in a year. :(

i miss orientation seriously. it kickstarted my jc life and it remains the most fun time i ever had in rj. i re-read my own posts at the start of last year. they were so enthusiastic. at that time, the chapter had just begun. now it's a few months away from the end of this chapter, and i'm not sure if i'm ready to leave all these behind and start writing on a new page. i still feel very lucky to be in this og.

light sticks. spider webs. pratas. marina sq. dance. peeling oranges. talking sessions in the library. vampire okok. please will you follow me. pool. bbq. salty bean paste. swensens. soldier. queen. shoe laces. final dance. all these are random words. but when put together, i find myself looking at the most beautiful memories of orientation. janice lim is correct. nobody can take away memories from you. they are yours, forever.

i'm in awe. i'm typing this as i watch the delayed telecast of lin dan vs lee chong wei. sorry if it's a little incoherent. i think this match is worth my not studying. lin dan is really.. i have nothing to say. his right-in-front-of-the-net smashes are so amazing. i like the speed in badminton, it doesn't bore you like some other games do. just a random thought, but i realised, guys who play sports may seem more attractive physically even if they're not very goodlooking usually. 

okay the goal of the month. to find a singaporean lin dan substitute. who has muscles as defined as him, same build and same height.  

oh my god. lin dan is loved.

Inside I built a wall so high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall.
One touch, you brought it down
Bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground
And I swore to me that I wasn't going to love again
The last time was the last time I'd let someone in

Well, you had me from hello
I felt love start to grow the moment I looked into your eyes,
You won me, it was over from the start.
You completely stole my heart, and now you wont let go.
I never even had a chance you know?
You had me from hello

morning world.

i hope. i hope. and i still hope. approximately 29 hours left. i feel like not running this last lap, even though i know i'll regret it when the time comes. this wait is draining my mental strength. i don't want to wait anymore. RAH but i know i'll still be waiting. until the time comes.

this is not a good time to fall sick. -.- seriously.