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| whoaaa. wen was the last time i blogged here?! crazy!!! hahahah. iono why all of a sudden i just decided to visit my xanger & have the urge to write something. i even forgot how to write a new blog entry. hahah. weiiird.
so, i was reading my past blogs and itz funny how much i've grown.. how much more i know.. and how much my life has changed. yea, now i literally have a JOB and this is my 7th month here. i actually want to keep this for as long as i can jus becuz... well, i havent really saved anything cuz i keep buying stuff and travelling.. but, using wat ive worked hard for makes me happy. 
soOo, itz christmas time and im stuck here at work. good thing im getting out a little early today. then, im gona go down the shore. christmas isn't really exciting this year. but, it becomes like that every year tho. less and less presents, less and less gatherings, less and less excitement. i gues itz a sign that im getting older? lol. iono. i think this is one of the first that im kinda lonely during this time. and, christmas is my favorite holiday.
but then, christmas isn't really for me. like wat they said during the mass last nite, christmas is about J-O-Y. Jesus-Others-and then, -You. itz all about thanking papa God for all of the blessings, may they be good or bad. "count your thorns.." this phrase really made me emotional during simbang gabi. how many times have we thank God for all of the good things in our lives, yet we've never thanked Him for all of those bad things that keep us strong. such strong words huh? such a hard thing to do... how can i thank God if im feeling miserable?.. if im feeling lonely? but if you really think about it, how many times has He been there for me? how many times did He send His angels to help me get through the day?
each christmas celebration will never be the same.. each year will always have its own uniqueness.. each life experience brings out something new...
found this quote from a friend's myspace. i love it.
"I know God won't give me anything I can't handle; I just wish he didn't trust me so much." -Mother Theresa
well.. merry christmas everyone! <3 | | |
| so my mom & i had a talk today. apparently, she saw larry say i love you to me yesterday online. but, i was surprised cuz she didnt get mad at me or anything! she said that one way or another, whether she would like it or not, that i would have a bf. plus, she said that she trusted me & that im already old enough to know the difference... haaaay, am i really that old!?! im only going to be 21 this year! well, i guess it was such a good feeling that she said that to me... yet, i knew that im no longer getting any younger!! now, i gotta realize that for the rest of my life after i turn 21, more responsibilities would come & that i gotta know how to stand on my own two feet. i gotta learn how to manage my own money & i would become a more independent woman. before, i became soOo angry wen they would never let me go anywhere... but now, it's like i want them to just keep me forever! i feel like i just don't want to grow up.. that eventually, i'll have my own family... gosh, i don't even wanna get married anymore! hehe.. well i gues, all i gotta do is to be a better person for them & to show them that they have done a great job raising me.. =) | | |
| Ang pag-ibig ko'y tanging ikaw lamang
Ang puso kong ito ay para lang sa 'yo
Magpakailan ma'y hindi magbabago
Magpahanggang wakas, mananatili ka sa puso
Laging ikaw ang nasa isip ko
Ang buhay ko ay para sa 'yo
Tanging ikaw lamang ang iibigin
Kahit sa oras ng pagtulog ko
Ikaw pa rin ang panaginip
At kahit na kailan pa ma'y ikaw pa rin
'Di ko iisipin na mayro'ng hanggan
Pagmamahalan nati'y ganyan
Kung uulitin man ang buhay ko
Tanging ikaw pa rin ang nanaising makapiling
Ikaw ang buhay ko at pangarap
Pag-ibig ko lahat ng sandali
Laging ikaw ang nasa isip ko
Ang buhay ko ay para sa 'yo
Tanging ikaw lamang ang iibigin
Kahit sa oras ng pagtulog ko
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....ang hirap magmahal. but, i can't help myself... kasi ikaw talaga ang mahal ko. and yesterday, naramdaman ko na naman yung naramdaman ko wen i first saw you.. wala na yata akong iba pang mamahalin... sana nga lang, ikaw na nga yun for good. di ko alam kung kaya kitang kalimutan.. di ko alam kung kaya ko pang magmahal kung hinde ikaw...
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| lass nite i was visited by an angela in my dream. this was definitely unexpected, yet fulfilling. now i know that you're in good hands and that you are now happy with papa God. im glad to know that you are safe up there. i will try my best to fulfill what you told me, through my prayers. i want to take this time to say a BIG thanks to you, my angela, because even if we weren't the best of friends, you still had the time to say wasup. thank you for lending me your hand so that i wouldn't be afraid. thank you for guiding me. please continue to pray for all of us.... you are our angela. keep doing your thang, girl. i love you.  | | |
| so i lost my damn book & no one even bothered to return it. thanks to whoever you are. i hope one day you'll get ur karma... so enough of this before i get upset agen..
well, im also glad that there were some people who really tired to put a smile on my face.. my besspren!!! gosh, wat would i do without u? thanks for all your help & for making me laugh..[even tho i couldn't] i really appreciate it!!! i love you...
annnd, so i txted erik cuz i was soo upset. and he was like: "anung book yan? ang expensive naman. dont u worry, mahahanap mo din yan. pray ka lng.." haaaaaaaaaaaaayyy, i love him so much!! heh. i ddnt expect him to text me back rite away. i jus wanted to complain to him & tel him how upset i was... but he really cared to txt me back.. he's just amazing.. heheh 
seattle baby, here i come!! yet another unforgettable trip....
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