life has been strange lately. i have changed so much (again). the only constant in my life is change, which i like and hate at the same time.

school is driving me up the wall and i can't wait to get out. i want to live my life with out worrying about homework for once. i guess 16 years of school straight is really getting to me not to mention all the school loans.

i am still trying to figure out this baby thing but for some reason i want it to have a dad. just so i don't have to make up reasons later on in its life where its daddy is. you know. i'm not sure if i actually want a husband though. every time a guy stays over my place, i panic and can't wait until he leaves.

maybe i'm just rushing life and i should be more laid back. "act my age". "you are 22 not 40" is what i get from my mom and yet she is the one who wants grandkids.

i think too much.

ok, so isn't premium supposed to be better? what the f?? Can't blog on my other site b/c premium is out. oh well,  i need to go work anyway.

First day of school! Yay ( i think). Books were 260, same as always. oi! 5 more years?!?!? I'm crazy.