Currently Listening Ki Dit Mie By Magic System see related

school daysss..

Here we go... I am now in my JUNIOR year of college!!! I cannot even believe it!!! So much craziness...classes are insane..the reading is really insane..I'm so busy that I'm going insane..Being an RA is a lot of fun but its definitely adding more time away from my studies.

I just want to succeed.... I just want to reach my goals... I just want to know that everything will be ok...and that I am loved from far away...

Lately I've been a little lonely...I have friends but idk..I miss him... and my family...i just need to hold firm to faith..God will get me through.  I know he has major plans for my life, it would just be nice to have a heads up on it.  I can't believe I'm an upperclassman now.. it's nice but at the same time scary.  My classes are so challenging and I really just need to rise to the challenge.  I hope I can do all of this...

Ok well.. I'm off to shower.. with a meeting at 8 and duty 8-12 and another at 9:30... Ohhh hoooly wednesday!!!

All the girls at the RA Dinner.. Maple Staff- *Au revoir mon amis*

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I'm exhausted from working in the heat...work, work, work, work.... oh how I hope this all pays off in the end!!!

My heart is sad... =(  As time flies by... and I'm left here wondering if I'm doing the right thing... I guess in the end things will work out the way they are suppose to, whether I like it or not.

Other than work...my life is boring. I hardly see my friends to "hang out", luckily I've seen my mom but not my dad too much, and I just feel far away from everything even though I'm sitting right here.  It really upsets me but what can I do?  Just plan my travels now I guess....

I need sleep and to stop complaining..life isn't that bad..I'm just a bit sad.

Currently Listening WOW Hits 2007 By Various Artists see related

Merci-

Church was really really good today =) I love walking away with good things to ponder... I've just started reading a book called "Embraced by the Light."  So far I really like it a lot a lot! I often wonder what heaven is like and I'm not too skeptical of the book but I'm super excited to experience what it would be like!

So June is almost over..it's crazy how the time has flown by...summer is almost over, ok half way. It's hard to believe that a month ago I was traveling across the U.S. and now I'm back home working my bum off..but it's all going to be ok, I just have to stay positive-  I feel like I have so much planning and learning to do in the next couple months but I'm feeling up to the challenge.  I just want to get out there and help where I can... maybe volunteer or something...adopt a grandparent! It'd be perfect..ohh how I <3 the oldies..especially the cute old couples!

Life is full of opportunities, I just hope I can grasp them and move forward.  Once I got a card for graduation...we're talking 2 yrs ago friends but on the front is this quote, " Our dreams are defined by our hearts...our future is designed by our dreams."  The only part that is missing is where God has the ultimate plan which can alter our future hopes and dreams.  I just want to live life with God in control...where He can help me determine my hopes and dreams... 20 years old...just 20...so much life to live, so much to do..."Where there is no vision the people parish."

"Don't worry about a thing..cuz' every little things gonna be alright"

"I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love"

Currently Listening A Rush of Blood to the Head By Coldplay see related

I feel stuck in a rut... I feel like I'm suffocating... I worry and scream and cry yet I hate emotions... I am weak but HE is strong...

"In the arms of your mercy I find rest, cuz' I know how far the east is from the west...with one scarred hand to the other.."

Why do we run away when clearly we need to run close?  Oh life...what to say.. what a week...

P.S. words of wisdom...watch out for narrow bridges covered by weeds... you may just pop a tire... and when you're dealing with an angry person and they ask you to leave... DON'T lock in the keys in the vehicle while it's running with the A>C on!!! Just a small thought...craziness!!! =)

Currently Listening Morning View By Incubus see related

See it, live it, BE it -

What do I see?  A world with a lot of pain and suffering... A world that is constantly seeking... A world that knows only what they see on the surface.. A world that is too busy to take time to enjoy what really matters... A world that is too caught up in selfishness and chaos... A world that is slowly slipping away.. A world that has some that try while others could care less.

What do I live?  Everyday new...Surrounded by beauty and beautiful disasters...as a woman of faith..I live to breathe..I breathe to hope...and when my hope has run dry I turn and run to the ONLY ONE that can restore and renew!

Who am I? How am I being it?  I love. I hurt. I laugh. I cry. I play. I empathize. I am ME.  How?  Through the experiences that have shaped me.  The past, the present, and eventually my future. 

In life we are challenged and faced with difficult decisions, paths, and day to day junk...but who are we to deny who WE are and what WE have???  There is no turning back, no giving up. We must press on and continue to run the race.  We must be guided to our destination and once reached we must continue to invest time and effort needed to make the travel worth while.

Does this make sense to you?  Probably not but it is not necessarily for you as it is for me.  We are constantly changing... will we ever be satisfied? I don't know..will I ? 

* In my audio-blog is a song that I wrote..along with my friend playing...it's worth a little listen but only if you have the time/take the time out of your busy schedule.- Man, we really do live life on the fly....