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| ahhhhhhhhjust when my life was going semi-ok, i had a shocking epiphany. i finally realized who my true friends were. i lost many "acquaintances," but my cousin & i are best friends & we can totally relate to everything we say. even if i lose all my friends i know that we will always be there for each other. her & i both lost friends since last fall, and even though it hurts, we move on because if we dwell on it nothing will change. i have also comed to see that i am ALWAYS the one to initiate stuff with my friends. i am the one always putting out. and guess what? NO MORE! if you want to hang/chill/laugh/eat or plain have fun with me, then call me! & if i don't pick up then guess what, ill call u back when im free... but in the meantime, jen jen, jaizsha, & brittany & sometimes berto are the only ones that call me. so, i guess those will only be the people i see. cause i am just tired of always feeling like i am the one to make the effort to get everyone together. screw that. if that means that DAMN doesnt exist, & it turns into JAM, then that's all i need. like ben says (or at least his quote) "why make someone a priority when they make you an option." cannot be more true. | | |
| freezing coldomg why is it soo cold? isn't it suppose to be spring/summer? well the last few days have been okay, but thursday night i was a nanny's assitant with jay. that was actually interesting. i got to help jay with like 8 or 9 kids. best part is i got $60 for making grill cheeses, cleaning cups, and folding blankets. haha jay & i most of the time talked. haha we are going to get matching vespas w/ black and pink helmets. actually those things arent too bad. hmmm. possibilty? at the end of the night when the parents came home, i was just lceaning and drying the cups, and they were like amazed that i was doing that. the mom i guess loved me so much that she asked for my number. haha. they are really nice, the husband and the wife, and actually their kids are great!! the oldest one is 11 yrs old and the youngest is 6 yrs old, and there is a middle chi8ld, but i forgot how old she is. the husband said ya maddie you clean my kitchen and you make me laugh. hahahahaha. jay said she was gonna kill me if i get that job. hahaha. i never ev er thought about being a nanny considering the maddie moe isnt really good w/ kids, but hey they are older & they are nice!!! jay also told me that sometimes these nannies get gas priviledges and shopping priviledges. wow. never thought about that. they can also be a live in nanny, but idk about that part. also, there is this mom looking for a nanny for like a month, month and half during the summer. hmmmm. possibility. not long-term committment. good. during the summer when the kids dont have hmwk. good. take them to the beach and amusement parks. good. make $10 an hr. that's decent. hey. there seem to be no down falls. =D | | |
| can anyone tell me what's going on?don't you just wish that there were some things about yourself you wish you could change? but just can't. i think that almost everyday cause i dont like who i am. i am progressively changing, i just wish those constantly around me just get that!!! i cannot change over night. it is a struggle. it has been said that to create a habit it takes at least 21 days to become successful. it takes 9 times to do something correctly after doing it wrong once to stick. well..... give it time. i will surely try to change my attitude and outlook on life. chao. | | |
| hahahahahahahahaha wow. thanks jay. haha. now jay is working at the sameplace where i work. haha. it is gonna be interesing. nowi am gonna have some competition! i can't let her show me up! hahaha or else that would suck booty & leos have pride issues, so ill never hear the end of it if she beats me!!! hahahaha... definately interesting having a friend work at the same place. this is the only time you will hear me say to NOT sell cutco!! haha. jay wants to sell 10K so she can win this prize by going out on the town w/the DVM, wes. everyone & jay KNOW that i dont like him. i told her to take someone else, but she is like maddie they think u r a lot of fun. ummm a hedgehog is a lot of fun. NO!!! i am not going. she can sell $9,999, but not a dollar over. lol. i am not going. | | |
| marketpointeBut I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
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