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colleges

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 02:52:08 GMT

ASU

CAL POLY SAN LUIS OBISPO

CSU LONG BEACH

SAN DIEGO STATE

CAL POLY POMONA

UC IRVINE

USC

UCLA

PURDUE

TUFTS

COLUMBIA

UNIVERSITY OF DISTRICT OF COLUMBIA

MICHGAN STATE

CARNEGIE MELLON

CORNELL

SAN JOSE STATE

SAN FRANCISCO STATE

CSU NORTHRIDGE

CSU FULLERTON

CSU LOS ANGELES

I think I need to narrow it down a bit, but like I said I really am more confused than senior year. Sheesh..... this gonna be a joy ride.

dionna

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:10:49 GMT

OMG!!! I always love seeing dionna. I'm happy that we got to hang out even if it was for NLT a few hours... Man I need to hang w/ my china more often!!!
man too bad she doesn't want to go to ASU w/ me cuz that would be soooo awesome!! ASU has a great nursing program too, but she wants to go to San Marcos :( LOL....

sisterhood of the traveling pants dos

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 07:52:52 GMT

well i saw that tonight with brittany and it almost brought me to tears... no one died, but the way carmen felt in the movie was the same exact i felt.... i can definately relate to her in the movie, which hit home with me....

it made me feel hopeful, but at the same time remorseful because i wish i had something materialistic passed b/w dionna, allyson, nicole, & i because it seems like we never really hang out together anymore.... it is always like 2 of us or 3 of us... it is never all 4 of us...

i've tried to change that, but it still seems like im shooting blanks... i haven't given up entirely... & all the characters seem like us in our own ways except for the fact that none of us had a pregnancy scare, thank the lord....

on the other note, it was nice to see brit.... it is always nice & awesome to talk to her... she definately lifts my spirits... i can definately call her for anything, which is great... it sucks that when evrytime i call her, it always seems to be about my stupid drama & not something uplifting, unfortunately, but i will try to change that...

until next time, sayonara

ahhhhhhhh

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 05:39:48 GMT

just when my life was going semi-ok, i had a shocking epiphany. i finally realized who my true friends were. i lost many "acquaintances," but my cousin & i are best friends & we can totally relate to everything we say. even if i lose all my friends i know that we will always be there for each other.

her & i both lost friends since last fall, and even though it hurts, we move on because if we dwell on it nothing will change. i have also comed to see that i am ALWAYS the one to initiate stuff with my friends. i am the one always putting out. and guess what? NO MORE!

if you want to hang/chill/laugh/eat or plain have fun with me, then call me! & if i don't pick up then guess what, ill call u back when im free... but in the meantime, jen jen, jaizsha, & brittany & sometimes berto are the only ones that call me. so, i guess those will only be the people i see.

cause i am just tired of always feeling like i am the one to make the effort to get everyone together. screw that. if that means that DAMN doesnt exist, & it turns into JAM, then that's all i need.

like ben says (or at least his quote) "why make someone a priority when they make you an option."

cannot be more true.

freezing cold

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:49:48 GMT

omg why is it soo cold? isn't it suppose to be spring/summer?

well the last few days have been okay, but thursday night i was a nanny's assitant with jay. that was actually interesting. i got to help jay with like 8 or 9 kids. best part is i got $60 for making grill cheeses, cleaning cups, and folding blankets. haha jay & i most of the time talked. haha we are going to get matching vespas w/ black and pink helmets. actually those things arent too bad. hmmm. possibilty?

at the end of the night when the parents came home, i was just lceaning and drying the cups, and they were like amazed that i was doing that. the mom i guess loved me so much that she asked for my number. haha. they are really nice, the husband and the wife, and actually their kids are great!! the oldest one is 11 yrs old and the youngest is 6 yrs old, and there is a middle chi8ld, but i forgot how old she is. the husband said ya maddie you clean my kitchen and you make me laugh. hahahahaha. jay said she was gonna kill me if i get that job. hahaha. i never ev er thought about being a nanny considering the maddie moe isnt really good w/ kids, but hey they are older & they are nice!!!

jay also told me that sometimes these nannies get gas priviledges and shopping priviledges. wow. never thought about that. they can also be a live in nanny, but idk about that part. also, there is this mom looking for a nanny for like a month, month and half during the summer. hmmmm. possibility. not long-term committment. good. during the summer when the kids dont have hmwk. good. take them to the beach and amusement parks. good. make $10 an hr. that's decent. hey. there seem to be no down falls. =D

can anyone tell me what's going on?

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 05:20:45 GMT

don't you just wish that there were some things about yourself you wish you could change? but just can't.

i think that almost everyday cause i dont like who i am.

i am progressively changing, i just wish those constantly around me just get that!!! i cannot change over night. it is a struggle. it has been said that to create a habit it takes at least 21 days to become successful. it takes 9 times to do something correctly after doing it wrong once to stick. well.....

give it time. i will surely try to change my attitude and outlook on life.

chao.

haha

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 21:01:10 GMT

hahahahahahaha

wow. thanks jay. haha. now jay is working at the sameplace where i work. haha. it is gonna be interesing. nowi am gonna have some competition! i can't let her show me up! hahaha or else that would suck booty & leos have pride issues, so ill never hear the end of it if she beats me!!! hahahaha...

definately interesting having a friend work at the same place. this is the only time you will hear me say to NOT sell cutco!! haha. jay wants to sell 10K so she can win this prize by going out on the town w/the DVM, wes. everyone & jay KNOW that i dont like him. i told her to take someone else, but she is like maddie they think u r a lot of fun. ummm a hedgehog is a lot of fun. NO!!! i am not going. she can sell $9,999, but not a dollar over. lol. i am not going.

marketpointe

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 23:05:14 GMT

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

back down at the bottom of the rollercoaster ride, but steadly going up.

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:32:53 GMT

wow in the last week, there has definately been some interesting things.

well, let's start with the good stuff. my cousin, anthony, is getting out of prison in a month. he was in there for 3 years.

oakie dokie now not the so good news. my other cousin, is in prison too. for the same reason, but gets out in a year. now anthony's sister, angela!!! wow. there is something wrong with that girl. well she has been doin drugs for years and it tore my uncle's heart severly. the worse part is that she has 2 little girls named halley and kelsey. so we are going to send her to rehab cause she will definately be a bad influence on her brother cause that is what he did time for.

now the part that freaks me out. there is this guy at work. idk. his name is marcus and he is a nice, but i only see him as friends. i feel really bad cause i think i lead him on without intentionally doing so, and i think he wants to.... well, he gets mad at me when i dont say bye to him or give him hugs after meetings. ummm territorial much.worst part is i think i effed up really badly. o.k. so this foo called me at like 3:30 in the damn morning. remind u it was when i had a 105.3 degree fever, which btw escaladed into a 108.9 fever and my momma took me to the hospital; i am alittle better, but it hurts soo badly when i cough. anyways, he left a voicemail and said hey this is ya boy marcus. i just want to get together sometime so i can tell u how i really feel about u. WTF!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! r u serious??? WORST PART IS..... omg!!! jay knows how much i hate this phrase. hahaha. or at least it means something important to me & i dont just go around saying it to just anyone. awwww he sent me a text message saying... omg.... I LOVE YOU!!! whoaaaa budddyyy... ive only known u for what like 3 months. i couldnt of had that much of an impact on ya... man i dont want to go to work anymore. it is gonna be akward.

i keep this in the back of my mind, but idk why... race isn't ever an issue with me. but why is it effecting me right now. for gods sake, i went to el camino. there were the brothers, homies, gang bangers, beaners, crackers, samoans, and etc.... so why am i making a mount everest out of something that is a mole hill. w.e. maybe i am OVERANALYZING the situation. haha.

i think this shall keep myself held over.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 00:06:46 GMT

wow. honestly. i am still shocked at how things can dramatically change in like a second.

in a second i was the next woman to be assistant manager and the next second i was about to be "let go."

wow. i thought working with guys would be easier.

well w.e. i know i am gonna do great things, so if they let me go that is their biggest mistake. lol.

wow i mean seriously. not working with that many girls has dramatically decreased the drama, but man some of them. i think they are serious panochas, lol, hahaha.

well at least this one guy heard about the good news i had and heard the good news all the way up in colorado, and decided to call me to say how proud he is of me. he seems to be the most understanding there. maybe that's why everyone likes him so much. and hey the fact that he is asthetically pleasing doesn't hurt either. haha.

man i think i need to expand my vocabulary cause i used wow and well a lot. hahaha w.e. my brain is fried after doing that ignorant essay. got another one to do except for anthropology. hay dios mio.

btw I AM SUPER FANTASTIC!!!