i hate this feeling. this feeling of being trapped in my own house. i hate it! theres nobody on my side. its just me against her. theres nobody i can talk to and even if there was, there would be no way to talk about it because i don't even know to put it into words.

i feel anxious, angry, and frustrated. the littlest things she does make me just want to scream at her. honestly, my relationship with him has been somewhat better? maybe because he's not dealing with her anymore. she just stresses me out and bugs me to no end! and she wonders why i'm always a crank-pot monster to her. well...try and be understanding of me woman!...and then we'll talk.

christmas??? ALREADY!?!? i am not ready for these holidays this year. yeah, i have 26 days still....but that goes by super fast. theres presents to buy, movies to watch, decorating, things to make, etc. STRESS! i don't want to be turning into a stressed-out holiday aldult already!?!?

what does christmas even mean these days? i heard about how some Walmart worker got trampled to death on Black Friday. that...is just RIDICULOUS! if the only thing people are only concerned about is getting half priced electronics...ugh i don't even know. this honestly makes me really upset!! all of this 'present' and commercial nonsense is getting out of hand.

so basically....i'm not ready for christmas. give me another month or two and i'll be fine though. probably....

you have NO right to kick me out of my own house. ok, i live here too! you have no right to decide where i have to go when you have your poopin meditation group. but oh no, i can't be here afterwards because you want to talk about "adult things". what the poop is that supposed to mean!?!?!/

i honestly can't stand people in general tonight. or ever. but especially now. fudge me!