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Name: gimme..monne
Gender: Female
Interests: i am a baby historian
Expertise: absolutely nothing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
7/1/2002
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| long timefor the most part, i've forgotten about xanga. usually i don't think i have anything useful to say, and other times i am too focused on living and doing things to care to reflect on my life. and when a woman is talking in a forest and no one hears her, is she still wrong?
grad school is fun, and i've come to another turning point where i make or break my academic career. the MA degree is in the bag. my qualifying exams are coming up and i get up every day at 7 without an alarm clock (but yes, with the alarmed feeling of needing to make progress) and i study. of course, the day is not complete without wasting time online, but if i can do that while getting through 400 pages a day, i figure it's ok. stress is inevitable, and so are days when i feel like throwing up from too much reading.
relationships can simultaneously be non-relationships. and that equation can also be written backwards to make it sound better.
i think the best thing pomona ever taught me was that life is not black and white. the shades of gray in between exist, and should be acknowledged as such. people are always different, but not necessarily right or wrong. we make decisions about what's right or wrong, for the most part. in the gray, live and let live. there are very few absolutes in the world, and so many of those are personal and subjective anyway, that i've become much more at peace with the world since i gave up trying to control it, or other people, or hear the voice of god, or whatever. yet it doesn't mean i'm not in my own way hugely ambitious about what i do or what i want in life. still, i know i'm lucky and privileged, and i'm not ashamed to enjoy my life. i'm free of the guilt of dropping out of law school, free of the guilt of no longer believing in the letter of religion. i'm not talking about swimming in luxuries, which i never need; but just the way i can look at the world and know that things will happen. both good and bad, and both are ok because this is just how the world is. the world owes me nothing, and i owe it to myself to find as much joy as i can. there is definitely a point to hedonistic and agnostic existentialism. nietzsche would be proud.
"i am the warm little center of the world." --fight club.
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| a random review of musicthe killers are the best new(ish) band there is. and why can't i stop listening to Sam's Town and Sawdust? i can't wait for the new album this summer. all of the songs on sam's town either have strong verses, a strong chorus, a strong bridge, powerfully existential lyrics, or all of the above.
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| is this it?
this could be what i've been looking for.
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| it's been a whilei haven't posted for a long time, partly because i'm not sure if anyone actually reads this. but life has been pretty grand since school started. i'm having the best time of my life since pomona. school is currently great, classes are good (with the exception of japanese), TAing is great (although i have more teaching observations next week), and my own research is fabulous (about to start the serious reading and writing, and i always love blitzing through 10 pages in a day). and the new love interest is somewhere between incredible and amazing. overall, my life is currently exemplified by this radiohead song.
Jigsaws falling into place
There is nothing to explain
Regard each other as you pass
She looks back, you look back
Not just once
Not just twice
Wish away your nightmare
Wish away the nightmare
You've got a light you can feel it on your back
You've got a light you can feel it on your back
Jigsaws falling into place and something like "here comes the sun."
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| in rainbowsi love a lot of this album, but i'm not sure how much yet. and this album is definitely going to need some time. i can't even understand most of the lyrics. but none of that dimishes its beauty. now, because this is not released by the recording industry... Currently listening to: Jigsaw Falling into Place, Radiohead, In Rainbows. | | |
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