so i'm a little overdue. i wish i had a good excuse like i was trapped in the mountains living off the land for two weeks until a rescue squad found me, but i dont. im just lazy. been spending alot of time at my station. hopefully moving in in the next couple of weeks. already started on my drive time. my amazing boyfriend doesnt complain that im spending alot of time at the station. dont really know what else to tell you. im just living day to day enjoying the ride.

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forgot to mention the most important thing. my brother is going to prom. with a girl. that i like. im happy

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so its about 4:30 in the morning and i cant sleep. which is actually quite surprising. class wore me out tonight. you can only put on really stinkin heavy gear so many times before it wears you out. think of getting dressed to go sledding. boots, extra pants, extra shirts, carharts, double layer hats, maybe a face mask, and pretty much whatever else you can think of to add on to make yoou feel like a stiff marshmallow. yeah, thats almost what it felt like. and the object was to get it on in under 60 seconds. from gear bag to ready to enter a fire. oh and i forgot about the gloves from hell. we have all pretty much decided that our gloves suck. yes, im sure i will appreciate them once i get inside a burning building, but they are still brand new and impossible to get on!

anyhow, all thats not really the point. im awake. listening to my pager. (yup, i got my pager tonight too so i can listen to all the calls get toned out while i sit back and laugh at those poor suckers having to work). and im just thinking baout how lucky i am. I am SOOOO thankful God put Brian and I back in each others paths. not because he spoiled me for Valentines Day. yeah, i did appreciate everything. (chocolate covered strawberries, need i say more?) but thats not all im thankful for. im thankful for the friendship between us. im thankful for the bond we share and the way we can talk so personally and deeply with each other. I'm thankful that I've finally found a Godly man. granted, it wasnt God's fault when i dated all the other guys, but I'm thankful that God finally nudged me hard enough, or probably slapped and kicked a few times, that I opened my eyes to Him and realized I should wait on Him. and He blessed me ever so richly. i listen to everyone else talk about how "in love they are" and im glad they're emotions are so high right now. i have more than just a euphoric feeling. i have a level of trust, and caring, and respect. and it goes both ways. it means a lot to me to be respected the way i am now. that is what I thank God for every minute of every day.