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Name: Cheryl
Birthday: 6/5/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: My wonderful boyfriend Jason, Singing,shopping,hanging out with friends, college, listening to music,Theater,being a camp counselor up at GSC (my second home), Hanging out with crew up at Neumann, and of course missing people from back home
Expertise: Theater,being adorable,being small,shopping,singing,singing, and more singin, being at my camp ,being a normal college girl,finally hanging out with my college peeps(ya'll know who ya r)
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
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AIM:  Ginarich
Member Since:
4/7/2003
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| My god..never have I been so burnt out..I mean yeah school has
definitely burnt me out, but nothing like this. I mean its summer and
I'm working just as hard as if I were in school. I'm not liking it very
much. I just feel like i have no time to relax and when I do have time
to relax I just can't because I think about work or my internship
basically knowing that the next day I have to get up early to commute
into the city and then eventually go to work and work until close. Last
week killed me when they made me work 4 nights..luckily I got a break
in between for cait's 21st. It sucks because I want to hang out with my
friends but they are all busy too. Heather has been mad busy working
and taking summer courses and such. Christine has been working hard
with her 2 jobs. I know my steffi has been busy and tina is away
interning this summer..everyone is just scarce and it makes me sad. All
I want to do is go down the shore, lie on the beach, and just relax!
I'm really looking forward to going to OC with jason and his family in
a few weeks for 3 days. It'll be nice being able to go to the beach,
walk the boardwalk and just have some fun. Also I've been wanting to go
to the bar soo badly but there is no one around for me to go with. I
knew being 21 this summer would be boring. Steffi turns 21 in august so
I'm looking forward to that and hopefully i can come out and celebrate
with her =).I just can't wait until i go back to school because there I
have plenty of people to go to the bar with, especially my suitemates
colleen and christie. It should be a good time. Also once heather turns
21 in november it'll be even better and Holly turns 21 in october as
well as Jill I think. It'll just suck once I live at home in the spring
but luckily Neumann ain't too far away so i can come up on weekends and
go to the bar with people. Apparently the boys are looking for a place
to live in media so that'll be nice to see them during the fall and go
to the bar with them. Basically I just want to go to the bar, not even
to drink but to just hang out and be social. It gets boring sitting at
home doing nothing or sitting in the dorms watching tv, but just to be
able to go out with friends, have a drink and chill sounds good to me.
But I dunno everyone is just so busy..it seems like no one wants to
call me up to hang out, I gotta do the calling or texting or whatever.
It's just getting old and I just feel like not many people care. I am
however trying my very best to stay positive even though I'm burnt out.
Basically I just gotta keep telling myself that everything will work
out. I just can't sit around and be depressed. It's only going to make
my summer worse and jason more frustrated with me and I don't want
that. I want our time together this summer to really mean something
considering once august 20th hits I'll be back up at school and he'll
still be at home. Its going to be so weird goin back to school without
jason or the boys. But its the start of a new beginning and I want to
finish out my last semester on a positive note and I just don't want to
deal with anymore bullshit and fake people. If people don't wanna give
me the time of day simply because I don't look a certain way or act a
certain way then fuck them. I'm tired of people like that. There are a
lot of them at Neumann and it was also like that in high school. I'm
just fed up with it. I don't want to keep feeling like a loser and I
know deep down i'm not. So thats about it..goin to bed..same old shit
tomorrow..boring internship..then off to boring work...its getting so
old. I just want to RELAX for more than a few days..I seriously need
like a freaking week! | | |
| So summer sucks...I want to go back to school cuz I don't want to be
home. You'd think I wouldn't wanna be home cuz my parents are driving
me nuts or whatever but luckily that ain't the case. However whoopie..i
get to go away for a few months and then come back home and be
here..for good. Atleast it'll be spring and not the summer..hopefully
i'll be doing something with my pathetic life. I know I really
shouldn't be complaining but things seriously just suck. I hate my
internship..its the most boring thing ever..I really never thought how
boring the philadelphia singers actually would be. Certainly does not
compare to theater which is where I should have interned but nope..I
thought interning with the philadelphia singers was my best bet when in
fact I did have a theater interested in me so I basically screwed
myself there no doubt. Now I'm stuck until august 11th and its only
June 13th...someone shoot me in the head. I hate getting up every
morning unenthusiastic bout going into the city. I pass the prince
music theater every morning wishing that was the place I was going
to...but instead I go to a little building to a crappy office. Yeah I'm
learning alot..but its just not fun. Then I come home and eventually
its off to work I go where I stand all freaking night selling bra's,
panties, and beauty products. Some nights are good and I sell a lot and
some are bad where I don't sell anything. I hate not being consistent
because I think it looks bad. I'm working mad hours this week..18 1/2.
Semi annual starts next tues and doesn't end until july 1st so I know I
atleast have a job until then because they are being shady and cutting
people and I have a good feeling they are gonna cut me. They probably
should considering I think I'm just a waste of space. The simplest shit
I can't even figure out like how to freaking do a bra fitting..not that
hard but of course I can't master it. Apparently retail is supposed to
be pretty easy...well for me its stressful because I'm so
unexperienced. I know everyone's first job is usually hard and
eventually it gets easier..but all it is for me is stress because I
just want to make sure I do it. Seriously..the only job I'm capable of
doing is being a camp counselor..thats like the only job I've been
trained enough to do well because I do it well. I have the evaluations
to prove that I do it well. I know I lack confidence in myself but its
a bit hard to have it when its the easiest stuff thats so difficult for
me. I can't drive, open a stupid locker, measure people's boobs lol, do
a mailing correctly, figure out the tip for a bill when I go out to eat
etc..i'm just not capable..smart enough to do it. I don't think I ever
will. It makes me so depressed that this summer is making me see all
that, how pathetic I really think I am. Seriously..if victoria's secret
lets me go..then I'm gonna consider myself a failure..because this is
really going to tell me that I'm just not capable of having a stupid
retail job..that all I'll ever be able to do is be a good camp
counselor..where the hell is that gonna get me in life? I seriously
should have just taken the easy way out this summer and did the camp
thing. I know I would have done it well and gotten some decent money
out of it for once. That's what I have realized since I have started my
job and internship. Thats why if I really dig deep enough into the
internet or get help from other people..maybe i'll be able to do
something decent once next spring comes. Maybe i'll be to do what I
want..get the experience with what I want to do. I've been looking at
these internship programs..or just internships in like NY and such..the
only problem is that most of them require that you be enrolled in a
college..well I'll be done once the spring comes...so that will
definitely set me back. So as you can tell I haven't been in the best
state of mind and its making me miserable. I honestly have no clue as
to how I'm going to be able to change my attitude because I know my
attitude is bad..but I just feel stuck...stuck in a big hole that I
just can't seem to get out of and it just gets deeper and deeper.
~Cheryl~ | | |
| So my 21st bday..INCREDIBLE!!! There really is no word exact word to
describe just how awesome it was so thats why I'm going with
incredible. Seriously..who says u gotta be wasted on ur 21st..not
me..because unfortunately I was not wasted but still had some drinks
and of course had an amazing time. I really did miss those that
couldn't come but it still was awesome. I got 2 suprises that day.
First one: Holly and I were gonna hang out before olive garden..make a
run to the liquor store to buy some stuff and pregame hehe...so I call
her up at like 4:30 so we could go do that..well then low and behold as
I open the door to let her in I see two people standing with her...it
was the lovely jeremy creighton and tommy o'neil! The bestest suprise
ever..I mean I really had no idea and it was funny too because holly
kept asking me how many people were coming etc..so you would think I
would of had some idea..but nope. It was just nice seeing them since I
won't see them the rest of the summer since those 3 are going to camp
in like two weeks while I'll be here. They also brought me a 6 pack of
miller lite and i ended up drinking two before dinner. Holly of course
got me some good gifts too..an amazing pic of us in the coolest frame
ever which is sitting on my computer desk hehe..the coolest sneakers
ever..an awesome pin that said "21 and terrific"..and a bday crown that
said had a 21 on the top and on it said "Where's the bar". I wore that
thing that whole night. So then jason and christine eventually came to
my house and then we went to Olive garden which then all of my awesome
friends show up. It was really nice to have all of us sit at the same
table. It was very overwhelming too hehe. So then suprise # 2 showed
up. I've been trying to get a hold of a certain someone for weeks and I
thought they were mad at me because they kept ignoring me..well he
showed up and I was so happy. My wonderful mike luongo who I have not
seen since like FOREVER!!! That also made my night because I have
missed that boy so much. So yay for those 2 suprises! I got a
strawberry mango magarita for my drink with dinner..soooooooooo good! I
also got my cake too and everyone sang..and then of course my lovely
camp friends broke out into camp mode and did the little bday thing we
do for every birthday. It made me sooooooooooo sad because thats one
thing I won't get to do this summer =(. After dinner we went bowling
which was also fun. There brian bought me a beer and jeremy bought me a
beer. It was fun going into the bar and I didn't even mind getting
carded because I know I'm going to have to get used to it hehe. So
bowling was awesome..took so many awesome pictures and we all just had
crazy fun..drunk..not drunk..who cares hehe. After bowling..me, holly,
tommy, jermemy, heather, and christine went back to holly's and hung
out in her hot tub for a bit..then played a game with her sister until
like 2 am. We didn't end up going to sleep until like 4 but christine
and heather left after we done playing the game. We're all hanging out
tomorrow night plus jason so that should be fun. So overall it was a
birthday I'll never forget..got awesome gifts from my friends including
alcohol from brian and JT hehe. I'm glad my friends had fun. So whats
next??? hehe..well saturday I'm going to AC with jason cuz my parents
are taking us to the Wild West Buffet for dinner because you can only
go to the buffet if ur 21 and well now I am. Also I think i wanna go to
the casino for a lil bit too lol. So thats bout it..back to my boring
life completely next week with my stupid internship and work..i got
crazy hours next week for work..tues-friday..I'm gonna be so beat! So
I'm not looking forward to it at all but I think we might be preparing
for the semi annual sale so I know the following week after next is
gonna be crazy and I'll probably get more hellish hours and no freedom.
Atleast I'll be making money and thats all that matters to me really.
Alright well I'm out. Bye all!
~Cheryl~ | | |
| So its official...1 week until I turn 21!!!! I'm
soooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!!! It's gonna be awesome..I just hope
nothing bad happens. I ususally have good birthdays but I especially
want this one to be perfect because you only turn 21 once. Not much to
update I guess. I started my internship last week. It's been pretty
good..I just hate getting up early in the morning but its only 4 times
a week but going from interning all morning to work in the afternoon
until close is killing me. Work is just so slow sometimes and thats
when I hate it. It gets kind of old when ur standing there fixing
panties and bras the whole time..umm not fun lol. Unfortunately this is
what I will be doing all summer however I think things will be better
considering I won't be restricted anymore to certain things so I'l def
be able to go out more and do more things. It was a good weekend..I
hung out with jason which was nice. Yesterday we went to maryland for
brian's grad party. It was nuts!!! I love having friends with crazy and
fun families because both gallo and brian's parties were nuts hehe.
Jason and I got brian a really nice flask with his initals inscribed on
the front. He loved it so I was happy. His house was really nice..it
was a lot of fun. The normal crew was there...me, jason, brittney, jt,
cait, reger, shannon, sean, gallo..love them all. Today I went to AC
with holly. We went swimming and tried getting a tan but ended up
getting burnt instead..but it was nice being able to lie out for a bit.
Hopefully this week will go by fast..luckily I only have work tomorrow
night and weds night..but its both 4-to close which stinks. I hate
having not so many hours but in a way its nice because I'm already so
burnt out. So tomorrow I think I'm gonna get an angels card from
victoria secret haha especially since I work there. I think it will be
nice..also my 30% discount rocks! I already bout some cool stuff and I
can't wait to get more hehe...also with card u get coupons and I think
if I apply for tomorrow I'll still be able to get a gift card from
victoria secret which gets sent to me so even more money for more
stuff!!!..I love it! That's bout it..so 1 week..i love when it gets
this close in the countdown..soo freaking excited! Cannot wait to spend
an amazing night with all my closest friends..its gonna be
sweet!..alrighty..i'll update again soon..bye all.
~Cheryl~ | | |
| hello all, thought it was time for another entry especially since I
have some time before work. So overall things have been going good. I
think I've been stressing myself out a little bit too much thinking
about work and my internship. I need to stop being such a perfectionist
and realize that I might not be able to do things at work
perfectly..especially since it's only been my first week and I've never
done retail in my entire life. I've been doing the same job for like 6
years so doing something new is kind of scary to me. My schedule hasn't
been too crazy either which is something I'm really happy about. I know
I'm going to start to become more tired once next week rolls around
because I start my internship monday. But luckily I'm only working
technically weds and thursday night for from 4-10:30 which kinda sucks
but oh well. It's been nice though that i've been able to see some
friends and stuff. I got to see my holly and I better be seeing her
again before she leaves me for the summer to go to camp which I know is
seriously going to be so hard. I've spent 10 summers with that girl and
this is going to be the first one apart from her, but I knew it had to
happen sooner or later. I also need to stop making myself feel guilty
about not coming back to camp this summer. This was something I had to
do and who knows..maybe I can return next summer..that is of course if
holly goes back. She said it all depends on how it goes this summer
because of the new director and all the changes. Last night jason and I
went to gallo's graduation party. It was fun. It was nice seeing the
boys again as well as my squirt brittany. Shannon and sean were there
too so we all had an awesome time. My favorite part of the night was of
course the beer pong going on in the back of the room. They had set up
two tables..it was crazy! Gallo's friends and family were playing...i
thought it was the funniest thing. I didn't get to play though me and
shannon wanted to play so badly hehe. We still had fun dancing and
stuff..gallo's mom went out there on the dance floor..she was so cute.
We met gallo's twin sister..FINALLY haha...she was so nice. She was out
on the dance floor too with other relatives. Jason actually got up and
was dancing too..it was so cute. He and sean were freaking nuts..I
loved it lol. Today is JT's grad party but I don't think we're going
cuz I gotta work and jason's grandmom is in the hospital so jason has
to visit her. Plus I don't want him using all his gas considering we
have to drive down early tomorrow to AC to see my mom and aunt. Next
sunday is brian's grad party in maryland..we have to see bout that one
lol. So tomorrow after the shore I'm seeing RENT with my heather in
philly...soo excited yay!!!!! That's bout it I guess..17 days until I'm
21 and i cannot wait for my lil b-day shindig hehe..i got like 15
people coming which is awesome..and after dinner we're going bowling! I
might of course be a lil tipsy but its my 21st so I gotta be a lil bit.
Can't wait! It's gonna be crazy and the best part is that I get to be
with all my closest friends. Alrighty I'm out. Bye all
~Cheryl~
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