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gingerbreadgossip
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Birthday: 4/10/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: love, audrey hepburn, mouin rouge, acting, singing, straight hair, pink, jimmy eat world, sex and the city, sexy moments, romance, breakfast at tiffany's, ally mcbeal, carrie bradshaw
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  oX whatshername
Member Since:
10/8/2003
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| new xanga..
ohwhatshername
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| so this is what i get for putting stuff up on the web for all to see...
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| MySoCalledObsess: you seem way to desperate
note to all of u crazy ppl
not desperate
over shit.. so leave me the fuck alone and quit talking bout me behind my back please
god damnit i jsut wanna dissapear
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| DISCLAIMER: before u read this or dont' read it i don't fucking care
either way.. it is a RANT therefore quit taking it seriously
in a bad mood and now i'm ranting on my xanga which is probobally a
really bad idea since ppl have acess to it and i always seem to get
myself in trouble when i write in public places where ppl can see it.
oh well ranting bout myself mostly not really anyone in paticular. i
jsut fucking hate myself right now, i'm stupid, i can't keep my god
damn grades up, i feel soo ugly all the time except for when i make
myself look as perfect as possible, i'm an idiot with my whole god damn
life, i fucked up me and moss, i fucked up friendships, i jsut screwed
up everything. the only thing that makes me happy is sex and the city
and that can't even cheer me up right now and even if it could its only
tempoary.. i feel like no one really likes me, like they are only
pretending to be my friend, and then i know some people do actually
like me for me and not waht i can do for them but i don't like them
taht much so i feel guilty. i feel slutty, and gross, and ugly, and
fat, and all i want is just to have a crazy night and do random crazy
things that are totaly not like me.. and oh wait i kinda allready did
that and that turned out oh so well.. god damnit i'm stupid.. i wanna
just kill myslef or something and i never really feel this low. and i
dunno what brought it on. i just wish i didn't feel so god damn ugly
and stupid, and the one person i wanna talk to is always busy at
rehersals or sleeping or with a guy or someone and its making me go
crazy cuz i haven't really had a good convo with my best friend in a
hell of a long time and its making me go nuts, i'm pathetic.. i'm an
attention whore, i feel stupid and ugly and no one even reads this
anyway so i'm ganna go take a bath now then sleep and i just wanna not
feel ugly, even tho the only time i've ever not is last year at prom
and i know i'm rambiling on and on and saying random stuff in no
apparent order.. god i wanna be loved. i wanna be in love.. the world
is all happy and shit when you are, and i'm afraid i will never find
it, i'm afraid i already lost it, afraid i'll end up living alone
with cats and now i'm just being silly but i don't fucking care.. i
hate myself
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| got a haircut.. and just got back. not much different . just kind of
layerey and shortish and choppy.. i like it soo oh wel if u don't...
ahh things are so confusing
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