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| when i find more updated stories about how each candidate is doing, or how the "economic crisis" is being handled...i dont know how this country isn't completely freaking out. we have two vice presidential candidates that can't seem to get their answers straight-one that can't even answer period without throwing some vague comment out, and the other who just needs to keep his mouth shut period because stupidity falls forth consantly. then you have one presidential candidate who people question whether or not is christian driven or anything for that matter-people saying-well how can so and so even say they're a christian if they vote or him, blah, blah blah....and the other candidate who either could die days into office, or will change health care to the point that we're going to be taxed for it? what the heck is that all about? i know i dont feign full knowledge about any of this. nor am i personally affected by it for months to come. i mean-hey; i'm still a minor, i dont have to pay for these things-yet...at this point, the question is; which is the lesser evil. if you talk to some people they've got it down pat who should win, and they've won everything hands down. i really don't see how that can be said. there are so many slip ups even now from both sides. heaven's but this nation is in for a lot of bumps. and then the economy. i dont know how people can keep going around being as calm as they are. i find myself even forgetting about it completely. i mean, if we're as much trouble as the federal government is saying we're in; where's the mass pandemonium? why aren't people withdrawing everything from everywhere? the stock market crashed far less in the at the start of the depression. are we all deadened to reality? has it it not hit? or is there really no problem and the government is just a bunch of big babies? so what's it going to be? of course no one truly knows... | | |
| so i have a decision to make. and right now, i know how i want to pick. but i feel like i haven't given the other option a chance-because there's so much going on. i feel it isn't fair...but i dont know what to do. i have to do this for me...right...?
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| it's been a while; i know. it's been a rough summer. lots of ups and downs. i've been so afraid for so long of what to say; not that it really matters anyway. i dont know who i'm writing to. it's usually just for me. maybe someone else out there, someone new will pick me up and read about me. i have let go. at this point i dont want to go back. i am sorry for causing pain; but i can't feel the pain anymore-i dont want it. i'm so excited to be getting to know all these new people. it make my heart light, and my eyes brighten-i know this. i love my freedom (what little i really get) and i just need to be for now. i feel rather independent of late. i know that's not entirely true. i still crave closeness with friends and need to hear certain people's voices. i still get anxious at times, and i know i still worry far too much and let too many things bother me. but i'm not perfect. i'm working it all out. and i like who i am. i like who i've become. and i wouldn't want it any other way. so that's that for now i suppose.
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| i feel this impending sense of doom. as i walked up to the door, i could envision him sitting in his chair at the kitchen table, eyes staring blankly, never to see anything again; and i thought i was going to be sick for a minute. all i want right now is a hug from you, to even just hear your voice. i need to say goodbye to you. but i cant find you. and you'll leave and things will go back to being tense. and i just...i want to sit down and sob. my chest feels so tight with sorrow and my eyes are tired from holding back the tears...
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| how can i stop caring? i can't...i want to stop the flow of tears that seems to be forever moving past me. and in most desperate times, i feel so very, very alone. i am alone, stand alone. where do i go? which direction do i look in? everything is a reminder, a jolt straight to the heart and it all comes pouring out. i have nothing to fix myself...
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