I haven't been on xanga in forever and i skimmed through my subscriptions....

almost every post had "fuck you" (or me, or someone) on it... why is everyone so pissed off?

i'm super duper happy it's ridiculous, i feel like a little child
everything is delightful... :) so i guess i'm gonna break the chain of
"fuck you"

.....

why am i always drawn too...

bad, bad BAD...

help me. i want what i know i can't have, which
is why i force myself into wanting it in the first place.

thank god i can hide under work and study.
then i'll never have to face my relational deficiencies.
at least, not for several years.

am i going to be okay?