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Name: K-la
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Schuylkill County
Birthday: 12/8/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: snowboarding, art, surrealism, sarcasm, water colors, charcoals, pencil drawing, dogs, painting my room(still not finished),running, hanging out with friends, skateboarding, writing songs, sewing, reading, music, local shows, making clothes for the hell of it and solving world hunger (for me to know and you to never find out!)
Expertise: when you find out let me know
Occupation: Student
Industry: fashion design
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  GIRLGOINGPOSTAL
Yahoo:  girlgoingpostal
Member Since:
1/5/2003
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| the best way i can tell it.So.
I have no idea what is going on with me. I guess I'll try my best to explain.
I feel like I'm barely holding on sometimes. I am so stressed out about my homework and that's only the start of my problems.
I just feel like I have been barely hanging on. No one knows because I try to hold it together. I just feel pissed off all the time. I feel angry with everyone. I feel like I can't feel for anyone. I feel like love is fake. I just can't explain it. I feel like I'm completely alone. It's weird. I don't even know if I'd call it depression. I just feel like I've had this heavy dose of life.
My dog died who i had since i was 5. My great uncle died and I went to his funeral the day before thanksgiving. It was just sad. We had a debate about assisted suicide in class tuesday, the day before the funeral. I just felt really personally attacked. I know they don't know me but I felt like they were talking about shit they had no clue about. My mom hasn't been feeling good. I just don't know.
I feel like being a hermit or like taking a vow of silence. it's weird. i never feel this fed up all at once.
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| summerXanga rarely do I ever write this frequently or this happy of entries but I figured since I loved this summer so much that I would dedicate this entire entry to this summer.
this summer was the sickest summer ever. Seriously. I went camping, boating, shot photographs, had fires in jill’s back yard AND I caught on fire. I even got arrested that’s how you know how good it was. =] So I guess I just wanted to say to my 4 best friends in the world Lauren, Nikki, Elyse and Jill thanks for being my friends and thanks for the best summer ever.
Lauren has spent the entire summer sleeping on my sofa and rocking out on rock band with me. We took some amazing photographs and we went camping, it was amazing. There will be blood, stealing wood, EGGGGGGGGGGGGGs. I think you witnessed three of the top four funniest things that happened to me, falling in the algae and catching myself on fire at jill’s and my bike falling apart when i was riding it. Luckily you didn’t piss your pants. Our swims at matt’s house and late night diner trips filled the summer. SCUMAWEFUL. I mean common I invited a new dance this summer. =] I’m grateful for having you around I miss you when you’re not sleeping on my sofa. I usually get sick of people and want to be alone but you’re an exception. You can crash on my sofa any time philly or home haha.
Nikki we both had a bit of a rough patch this summer but we had each others backs when it mattered the most. You’ve always had my back and I honestly can’t put words to how much that means to me. You came camping with me and Lauren and honestly that was exactly what I needed. We laughed so much. Christopher Robin, Honey Pot, Nickleback hating raccoons, signs, there will be blood to name a few =]. It was great. Cooking on the fire. Laying in the tent scared out of our minds. That trip was priceless.
Jill, big J. I mean look at nikki over there chopping wood like Christopher Columbus. All kidding aside I think we’re closer than ever. I’m glad that we resolved all our issues. I love chilling in your back yard making smores or me burning the oven mitt trying to make jiffy pop over the fire hahahahaha Fran and Diane June 5,1982 I still have the matches and I love them. I had so much fun floating around in your pool with mark asking us to do belly flops *rolls eyes* haha you’re the best. Burning me with the curling iron hah it didn’t hurt but it left a nice mark hah. We’ve got on some epic adventures and laughed and sang in the car like we don’t care who’s watching because we don’t. all the haters can fuck off. IT’S NOT THAT WE SEEM TO HAVE MORE FUN THAN EVERYONE ELSE WE DO HAVE MORE FUN THAN EVERYONE ELSE. Lmao and seriously we do.
Elyse, my girlfriend. You know we went on the hottest date ever to Locust Lake and rowed around and talked. I mean even though Jill came on our date it was still amazing. Me rowing you two laying in the boat. Me chatting it up with the boat dock guy. Hah Fires at Jill’s where we all get caught on fire by the crazy embers. I love laying in your dirty laundry on the floor of your room haha becoming one with the mess. We helped each other through our anxiety and it was nice having someone to talk to about it. You’ll forever be my one and only baby haha.
I guess to everyone I just have to say we do have more fun than everyone else. I feel like I really lived this summer like I did so much that I’ve wanted to do and it’s amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better summer or better friends. Thanks =]
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| assassin!!so new theory. I think someone is out to kill me. Yeah you read me right. ASSASSIN trying to kill me!!! Well maybe I'm being a little dramatic butttt MAYBE I'M NOT! So anyways. I went back to school you know how that goes. Then Monday I was taking my usual 5 hour nap inbetween my classes and jill called me twice in a row. When I sleep everyone knows I dont' answer my phone but since i felt it vibrate twice I figured it had to be something of epic proportions. So i answered, jill was upset and ranted for a little while, while i came to terms with the fact i was awake. She asked me what I was doing and I informed her I was being a TOTAL BAD ASS and skipping my class and going to hang out with Lucy. I haven't seen Lucy in forever and she is going to india for a month so i decided since there was no project due this week in my class that it was my one opportunity to miss it. What better was to spend my skipped class than catching up with an old friend before they leave on a epic journey. So i rolled out of bed and went to school. Lucy and I did some exciting stuff like FILLED OUT THE ENTIRE METRO CROSSWORD. Which i must say I've never done before. So that was fun. Jill and Lauren picked me up from school in Jill's car and we went BIKE RIDING. I ate some of my favorite pizza at Lorenzos we went to the waterfront. and we were heading to visit tom when i realized my handlebars were loose. THE NEXT THING I KNOW MY HANDLEBARS AND INDEPENDENT OF MY BIKE! i somehow managed to slow down and jump off without crashing. I fixed it on the spot and it's been perfect ever since.
Today I went to class as usual. On my break before Sociology I was sitting at my desk chatting it up on aim and i realized i have a bloody nose. WTF? I NEVER GET BLOODY NOSES!! So first thought is shit my septum ring is bleeding.... then i realize no definitely not just random nose bleed. I believe this is the first nose bleed of my life. So this got me thinking
Someone is obviously trying to kill me!!!!!!! First the bike handles then the nose bleed. I SMELL a conspiracy theory. Okay so maybe I've drank like 4 mountain dews and haven't slept enough but to me this all makes too much sense. So Dearest Assassin I'M ONTO YOU!!
xoxo
K-Love
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| knock on woodhere i am. day 3 in a row. look at me blogging my life away. So dearest xanga. Last night I picked up Nikki and Lauren and went to Jill's. Jill had some wine and they were drinking. I as usual was designated driver. We built a fire and chilled. Played a pretty hysterical round of never have i ever. It was fun. Actually this entire summer has been straight up ballen. I am not ready for it to end. I want to stretch this next week out forever. I'm loving life 24/7 way too much for summer to end and everyone to go back to school. *sigh*
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| tasteeso i'm at work. bored of course. it's like watching paint dry. I'd like to say I am writing for the second time in two days!!! So proud of myself not like it matters because I really don't think anyone reads xanga or in particular my xanga. so yeah. Me and Karen went outside for a while and sit on the bench. it was pretty bitching. then my computer started to die and she was afraid of sun burn so we came in.
I went to andy's last night and we went swimming. It was fun =] then I conned Nikki into coming over and playing Rock Band with me in our ultra cool side project Estimated Pants. I am of course Kayla No Pants so it fits well. I don't want summer to be over. I love fall and everything. I love winter and snowboarding but really when it comes down to it summer is where it's at. Swimming, hanging out with my friends, going to school because i'm the only person nuts enough to go year round and i love how busy i am on some weird level. I hate not having things to do, it feels like time wasted.
Anyways keeping it old school xanga. i am STEALING a survey from nikki. Here it goes, brace yourself it's long.
Basics
Your gender: Female until i get that sex change that is.
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight i hold the title for straightest person by most of my friends.
Single?: You know it.
If not, do you want to be?: i actually like being single but i wouldn't mind a bf
Birthdate: December 8,1987
Your age: 20 =O
Age you act: hah. probably 70 cuz my joints have been telling me to go fuck myself lately.
Age you wish you were: i wouldn't mind 21 in a few months but i'd prefer to still be in highschool without the worries of real life.
Your height: 5'4 and three quarters. i'll never be a even 5'5 =[
Eye color: Blue
Happy with it?: i wouldn't have it any other way.
Hair color: bleach blond. CUZ I'M BALLIN
Happy with it?: yeah but i'll be sick of it soon enough and dye it blue or something
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Lefty. I keep it fresh.
Your living arrangement: I live with my mom, paul and kristen and i have an apartment in philadelphia
Your
family: Ummmm I dont talk to my sperm donor. My mom is the best, paul her bf lives with us and he's cool and my sister will never leave home. lol
Have any pets?: I actually have 3 dogs, Muffy Shaggy and Bruiser (Bruce)
What's your job?: Tastee Freeze, i'm serving a life sentence actually
Piercings?: cartilage in my ear, my bottom holes are gauged and i have them peirced again but nothing in my second set of holes. I have snake bites and a septum ring. =]
Tattoos?: I've got this pretty bitching one and i want a sleeve but that takes a lot more money than i got
Obsessions?: idk.
Addictions?: my computer. it's my baby. we go everywhere together
Do you speak another language?: Nope I'm strictly english but i do do a bitching british accent.
Have a favorite quote?: Shhh you're ruining it
Do you have a webpage?: Yup made one with all my fashion crap on it.
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: Yes I finally found myself content with right now.
Do
you consider yourself tolerant of others?: for the most part unless they're toothless tastee freeze customers who give me a hard time.
Do you have any secrets?: yup. i like to keep um that way but it never works out that well for me really
Do
you hate yourself?: depends on the day but lately I've finally got to the point where i accepted this is who i am and that i might as well enjoy it because you only live once as far as i know.
Do you like your handwriting?: hah i think it's funny because no one can read it. it's gotten say i say "more artistic with time"
Do you have any bad habits?: I tend to speak my mind a little more than i think i should.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: ummmm You're really pretty?
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: well i'm torn between True Life: My Life Sucks or My Journey as a Unicorn
What's your biggest fear?: stealing same answer from nikki turning into my father. being a failure is probably up there but most of all losing my mom.
Can you sing?: I sing in rock band and for some reason matt thinks i can sing for real so we're going to try that out soon
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: pisht i dress up as myself every day it doesn't get cooler than this
Are you a loner?: not really i like my friends and we have tons of good times together. sometimes i feel like i need time alone but not lately.
What
are your #1 priorities in life?: hands down my mom.
If you were another person, would you
be friends with you?: I consider myself to be hard to get along with but a good friend. I'd do anything for my people.
Are you a daredevil?: Depends on the situation. I'm usually level headed when i'm not climbing into death valley with nikki or running from the cops.
Is
there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I used to hate my body but not so much anymore. I've come to accept it. I hate that I'm so forgiving and that i have a hard time walking away from people.
Are you passive or agressive?: agressive hands down. no denying it
Do you have a journal?: yes. i have one i write in occasionally but it turns into a giant bitch fest into which i complain about EVERYTHING be glad xanga i don't vent to you like that you'd kill yourself. I also enjoy the fact I just realized I talk to xanga like i'm writing it a personal e-mail.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i get told i am but it doesn't mean i don't cry
Is
there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i regret not telling everyone i loved them every day because i've come to realize how short life is and i want everyone to know they matter to me a lot
Do you think life has been good so far?: it's been quite an epic journey i'll say that much and no matter how much shit i have been through i am grateful for it because it's made me realize i'm lucky to have what i do have and not focus on what i don't have.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Life is short so do everything you want to now.
What do you like the most about your body?: MY GHETTO BOOTY jk. idk. i'd say my face but it's been the bane of my existence that i don't like somethinga bout it and i can never figure out what it is in particular
And least?: my stomach but i'm getting over it and it's getting flatter.
Do you think you are good looking?: I usually dont but recently i've been looking at people when i walk down the street i hold my own.
Are you confident?: With my fashion yes with my body and self not so much
What is the fictional character you are most like?: if there is a character who can't ever win and life constantly sucks it's probably me. i'm going to go to with that movie stranger than fiction. the guy who has the crazy weird shit happen to him.
Are
you perceived wrongly?: I will only say yes because everyone i know when they first meet me say they were intimidated by me or scared of me.
Would or Have You Ever? .
Hurt yourself?: yes
Been out of the country?: yes
Eaten something that made other people sick?: i don't think so
Been in love?: i like to think yes but i think no sometimes so it depends on the day you ask me. i prefer to say yes.
Had a medical emergency?: yes i've spent a nice portion of my life sitting in the ER bleeding or with some random ailment
Had surgery?: WISDOM TEETH i felt so drunk it was sweet
Ran
away from home?: I don't think so. i like my home
Played strip poker?: Once really shit faced i did and I WON and didn't take any of my clothes off and they were naked. HAH suckasssss
Gotten beaten up?: never. i kick ass and take names and if any bitches want to fight me i'll add you to my list =]
Beaten someone up?: I punched a bitty and shoved her on the ground at Jack's Mannequin otherwise nope
Been picked on?: welcome to the first like 16 years of my life
Been on stage?: yes
Slept outdoors?: Yes I FUCKING LOVE CAMPING
Thought about suicide?: yes
Pulled an all nighter?: many a nights spend awake doing projects
If yes, what is your record?: i think i was awake for 4 days or so straight doing homework and i was near insane by the end of it
Gone one day without food?: i've gone a week
Talked on the phone all night?: hah yeah
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yup
Slept all day?: yes for a while i had my days and nights mixed up it was weird.
Killed someone?: no i don't ever want that kind of power
Made out with a stranger?: nope
Had sex with a stranger?: nope v card for life
Thought you're going crazy?: who doesn't every once in a while
Kissed the same sex?: negativo.
Been betrayed?: Yes
Had a dream that came true?: Yeah i call it dejavu
Broken the law?: yes. i'm a criminalllll
Met a famous person?: well sort of. this guy from the roots. rob almost shit himself
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yeah. stupid things like to run under my car
On purpose?: ants at tf and gypsy moths. they creep me out
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yes
Stolen anything?: nope
Been on radio/tv?: yup
Been in a mosh-pit?: i've been shoved in a few.. =[
Had a nervous breakdown?: i've had panic attacks but not really nervous break down
Bungee jumped?: Naw i don't like falling
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes i smoke cigarettes chain smoke them pack afer pack and that's all the dream is and i love it
Beliefs
Belive
in life on other planets?: sure. i bet there is little microbes somewhere but i watched a show about life in earth and how the moon effects it and stuff and it seems VERY VERY unlikely because there is so many factors that need to come together for us to have life on earth
Miracles?: I'm hoping for one
Astrology?: they're fun but they're just broad generalizations
Magic?: naw
God?: no
Satan?: naw
Santa?: yes
Ghosts?: on the fence
Luck?: yes and i have tons of shitty luck
Love at first sight?: not really. i think lust not love
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: no
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: i don't understand still how jesus rising from the dead turned into a story with a bunny leaving eggs for children. Why does he hard boil eggs and give them to children to celebrate Jesus's Dead/ reserection. i'd like some clarification
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: yes with the guy on the lucky charms box standing there
Do you wish on stars?: yeah
Deep Theological Questions
Do
you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: no
Where
do you think we go when we die?: somewhere or no where i'm not sure i haven't died i'll let you know when i find out.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes quite a few.
Who is your best friend?: i have a few
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: probably kim or lauren
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: my great gram once told me "kayla never get married men are like a boil on your ass" i was 9.
Your favorite inside joke?: the hoodie is a good one. CHRISTOPHER ROBIN!i've got quite a few with quite a few people. i love all inside jokes.
Thing you're picked on most about?: how scene i am. hah.
Who's your longest known friend?: Leah
Talking to? Leah and i talk occasionally probably then kim m
Newest?: Lauren
Shyest?: Nikki she started wroking at tf and was silent the entire time lmao
Funniest?: good question. i think all my friends are funny
Sweetest?: E-MONEY BECAUSE SHE'S MY GFFFFF
Closest?: Lauren and Nikki
Weirdest?: Tom
Smartest?: Mike Troy, Kim M
Ditziest?: J-ill sorry you take this one. Chopping wood like christopher columbus!
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Kim or Nikki
Last person you talked to online?: Nikki
Who do you talk to most online?: hard call probably andy
Who are you on the phone with most?: Jill, Elyse, Lauren probably
Who do you trust most?: Nikki and Laren
Who listens to your problems?: if you're my friend you get to hear me bitch about my life =]
Who do you fight most with?: J-ill but that's ended we're super tight and she's a great friend i'm proud of her
Who's the nicest?: Elyse but she occasionally tells people off
Who's the most outgoing?: i'm probably known for talking to strangers the most.
Who's the best singer?: shane
Who's on your shit-list?: Hostile TF costumers, my father, a few ex bfs you know the usual.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: i don't do that sex thing
Who's your second family?: when i dont' like my family i go to nikki's for easter dinner and eat the butter lamb.
Do you always feel understood?: No
Who's the loudest friend?: Jill =]
Do you trust others easily?: yes to easily
Who's house were you last at?: probably jill's?
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Andy
Do your friends know you?: the ones who matter do
Friend that lives farthest away: i have friends in florida and texas
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: i think life is too short to ever regretting caring about someone that much
What
do you find romantic?: random gifts not ones for valintines day or my birthday little things.
Turn-on?: sense of humor, tall, skinny, nice eyes, nice hair.
Turn-off?: bad kissing, annoying personalities
First kiss?: i love them. there is no kiss better unless they are a horrible kisser then i want to run
If
someone who you had no interest in had interest in dating you, how
would u feel?: like wtf? why do you like me ?
Do you
prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out: yes but i think you can only know someone so well before you date. you learn about them soooo much more when you're in a relationship
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: i do it
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: no thats weird.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: some i'm sure.
What
is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: hah. their ridiculous because they can't make up their minds and it makes me want to kill them
What's the last present someone gave you?: good question.
Are you in love?: no
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: kayla's exboyfriends from christmas past.
You wanted to kill?: I dont like the thought of killing someone but if i could perminently make smeone leave me alone it'd be my dad
That you laughed at?: Nikki
That laughed at you?: Nikki
You went shopping with?: jill and elyse i think
That broke your heart?: good question.
To disappoint you?: too many to list
To make you cry?: i haven't cried in a while. but probably last time i cried was because of my mom
To brighten up your day?: friends
That
you thought about?: andy
You saw a movie with?: hummmmmm idk possibly Nikki and Lauren
You talked to on the phone?: lauren
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Nikki
You saw?: Kim and Nikki
You
lost?: my gram
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: yes. i am going to pick up br00t4l and then who knows what possibly sloppy
Will it be with your significant other?: nope
Or some random person?: friend
What are you wearing right now?: jeans dirty white t-shirt chucks
Body
part you're touching right now: my elbows are on my knees
What are you worried about right now?: my mom
What book are you reading?: Confessions of a Evil stepsister
What's on your mousepad?: nothing i have a touch pad hah
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: tired of work
Are you bored?: no this survey is fucking epic and i want it to be over
Are you tired?: Yes i didn't want to get up and come to work
Are
you talking to anyone online?: no who uses the itnernet
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No
Are you lonely or content?: Content
Are you listening to music?: yes peter bjorn and john
I'M FUCKING FINISHED
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