Because I'm bored, want to post something, and think it might be interesting to read later...Part I of the 5,000 question survey...

1. Who are you?
a girl that's lost in the world

2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you?
i'm a girl.  i'm lost.  and i'm still in this thing called the world.

3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing?
honestly, it is rare to find me filling out things like this.  i'm usually doing something.

4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time).
right.  so i'm out of school.  but the last school i was in was not your normal school.  and the last class i had was butler's table service, or whatever we might have called it.  and in that class, we had table service and wines.  and i liked wines more than i liked the table service?  i don't know.  i didn't like that my car was broken into and almost made me late to class.

5. What is your biggest goal for this year?
to be needed.

6. Where do you want to be in 5 years?
if the republicans win this next election, i want to be in some other country, far away from here.  if the democrats win, then i would want to be right where i am, happy.

7. What stage of life are you in right now?
the 'i-have-no-fucking-clue-what-i-am-supposed-to-be-doing' stage, which conveniently came right after the 'i-just-graduated-from-college' stage.

8. Are you more child-like or childish?
i would like to say child-like.  i'm not childish, but i'd also say that i'm not child-like.  i wasn't one of those kids that actually got a childhood, so it's hard for me to say.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"ooooh shit."  no really, i don't know.  that's just my guess, because my back is seriously hurting today.

10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now?
perhaps, i don't know.  amos lee - careless.  actually, i just went to pandora, and that was the first song that played.  but it is rather fitting.

11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes?
negative.

12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same?
my life tends to do what i wish it would not.

13. Does time really heal all wounds?
i'm going to say no.  i have this wound on my head that has been there for over two months, and it still hasn't healed.  now tell me, of all things that time should heal... shouldn't actual wounds be on that list?

14. How do you handle a rainy day?
i love me some rainy days.

15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights?
hahaha, definitely having to sort out tangled holiday lights.  ok, maybe i was kidding.

16. How is your relationship with your parents? it's getting there.  my dad and i are good friends.  my mom and i may never have the relationship that i would like.  i'd liken my relationship with my dad to rory's relationship with her mom.  and i'd liken my relationship with my mom to lorelai's relationship with her mom..
Will you miss them when they are gone? i'm currently living with them.  so yes.

17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?
sometimes i would like to be able to say no to that.

18. What is the truest thing that you know?
that a true friendship should be able to outlast a nuclear holocaust.

19. What did you want to be when you grew up?
alive.  i always wanted to be a cook, and i thank my dad for that.

20. Have you ever been given a second chance?
a second chance for what?  certainly i have been given a second chance in many regards.  i've been given another chance to live, more than once.  and i don't think i've done with it what i should have, but i've still got time to make things right.

21. Are you more of a giver or a taker?
i'm more of a giver.  and sometimes i wish it were not the case.

22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind?
i do.

23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you?
i've had surgery on my head.  i've had a root canal.  i've had strep throat.  but i'd still say the most painful thing is the unrelenting pain of a broken heart.

24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you?
losing the man that i was going to marry.  and that kind of pain turns physical very quickly.

25. Who have you hugged today?
my pillow[s].

26. Who has done something today to show they care about you?
today?  nobody yet.

27. Do you have a lot to learn?
i have a whole new world to learn.

28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?

A be able to converse in and understand every language there is.

B have the healing touch

C go into outerspace?

29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel?
how what other people say makes me feel.

30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship?
communication, honesty, understanding.

31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?

A travel the world

B have at least five true friends for life

C make a difference

32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?

A uhh.

B errm

C honestly, nothing.  i'd rather live through something really hard and trying than die to escape it.

33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause?
i believe in honesty as a cause.  and i think our politicians could learn a lot if they would just tell the truth at all costs.

34. What does each decade make you think of:

The 19..

20's: black and white

30's: crash and depression

40's: wars

50's: kitchenettes

60's: mom as a teenager?

70's: peace

80's: no style

90's: needed help

2000 (so far): needless wars

2010's: total destruction

35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why?
the 80s.  because i was made in the 80s.

36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song?
oh snap.  i could never decide.  something by the beatles, no doubt.

37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country?
the un-united states of america.  our president is Bush Jr., but he's no leader.

If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be? 
i would have too much research to do before i would be able to properly communicate with our leader, because i don't think he even understands baby-speak.  so i would probably just skip it and do something more important with my time.

38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?
dvr.  because it's revolutionized the way we watch tv.  and i really don't watch "live" tv anymore because i don't like commercials.  whahaaaa.

39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why? 
i'm honestly not much like any disney villain.  and if i was, i don't think i could decide.

40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?
yes.

41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?
i'd really rather take a boat.  i hate flying.  although i would love to be able to fly...

42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?
something about particles and light and atmosphere.  yeah.  maybe we are all really color blind and it's actually purple.

43. What does your name mean?
beautiful goddess.  and divine strength.  not kidding. and apparently it's an acronym for All-round Semi-cellular Trunking Radiocommunication network with Integrated Dispatchings .. beats me.

44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?
outer space, hands down.

45. Word association
What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:

Air: oxygen

Meat: fabrication

Different: strokes

Pink: daisies

Deserve: sleep

White: lights

Elvis: alive

Magic: rabbits

Heart: felt

Clash: london

Pulp: fiction

46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be?
i'm not that particular, but maybe my mom's mom.  then i might better understand.

47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive?
i already can meet anybody who is alive.

48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?
yes.  peter pan. the acted version, with the girl as peter pan.  i used to watch it every day.  and then my little brother recorded commercials over the middle of it.  and i haven't been able to find it since.

49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?
that depends on if i had previous knowledge that it would happen.  first, i would have a refrigerator installed on said elevator.  then i would put food and water in said fridge.  i would also have a bathroom installed.  then i would bring books with me.  probably a few long books.  and a pillow.  yeah.  really, and then i'd use the emergency phone, and make the people on the other end tell me why it was going to take a week to get me out of there.  not that i would mind, because i would be set.

50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved?
yes.  many times.

51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...

Fruitgoogle: a vegetable, that thinks it is a fruit, that repeatedly multiplies anytime it is eaten

Ambytime: a different plane of existence

Asscactus: a relative to the koala bear in ambytime

52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?
my bed.

53. What was your favorite toy as a child?
cardboard boxes

54. How many TV’s are in your house?
perhaps three.  only i'm not sure if one of them is working.

55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?
go to parks.  and take nature hikes.  and go creek walking.

56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?
content.

57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?
every day.

58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?
not a professional one.  but i had friends in high school that were into that whole thing.  and the tarot reading freaked me out because it was too accurate.  especially coming from said friend.

59. What is your idea of paradise?
maybe i'm not sure.  not having anything to do but still feeling accomplished.

60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?
i don't.  if you take a look at all the horrible things that happen to all the really good people in the world, how can you honestly tell me that there is a god.  these things would not happen if that were so.  and then all these people in the world that do really bad things and are then rewarded?  seriously.  stop.

61. Do you believe in Hell?
hell in the sense that that is where i am going after i die because i don't believe in your religion, no.  hell, in definition, on earth, yes.

62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't?
cheated death.

63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done? 
i can't say.  but there was this one time at el cheapo's involving a little girl and her brother and one of those crane toy machine things.  the girl was going for this cute cute bunny, and she didn't get it.  but her brother got some toy.  so i went over to the machine, because it was obvious that i could get said bunny.  and when i got it, and this really really ugly deformed stuffed dog, i went over to the table with the little girl and offered her the bunny.  and she gave me a look that i will never forget.  such happiness.  i want to be a kid again.

64. Are you a patient person?
yes.

65. What holiday should exist but doesn't?
i don't think this world needs anymore holidays.  we don't even appreciate the ones that we already have.

66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does?
don't get me started.  most of the holidays shouldn't exist.  at least, shouldn't be celebrated.

67. What's the best joke you ever heard?
the joke about the the buddhist ordering a hot dog.  this buddhist walks up to a stand and orders a hot dog.  the guy asks what he wants, and he says 'make me one with everything.'  he pays for it with a hundred dollar bill.  and when the guy tries to give the buddhist his change back, he doesn't accept it and says that 'change comes from within'... or something along those lines.

68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?
jungle jims.  in a weird way.

69. Is your hair natural or dyed?
natural

70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?
i'm pretty much up front, but i have my secrets.

71. What is under your bed right now?
boxes.  and duffle bags.

72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?
i'd live there for a while, maybe like a vacation.

73. If you drive do you frequently speed?
what do you mean by "if you drive"... because if i'm not driving then i am not speeding...  seriously.

74. What is the world's best song to dance to?
some african tribal song

75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?
i kind've danced around with someone while they were singing a song to me.. ? .. but i don't remember what it was.

76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
uhhh there's a difference?

77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?
i'll tell you next time i go to a zoo and run to see an animal..

78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?
hopelessly.

79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?
haha, i think we'd be dead before the earth stopped rotating.

80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?
live.

81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?
freedom.  because it never really was free to begin with.

82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?
the equator, for the sheer fact that it would be more populated.

83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?
watching television.

84. What do you think makes someone a hero?
i think we over and misuse the word hero.  not that i don't appreciate our soldiers and our firefighters and what not, but i wouldn't say they are all heros just because they have that profession.  i'd say that a hero has to sacrifice something very important to themselves for someone else.

85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?
aqua teen hunger force.  just because.

86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:
all the hate and greed in our world

87. What was the last thing you paid for?
an oil change.

88. Are you a coupon clipper?
clipper? no  user? yes.  are they the same thing?  i'm not sure.

89. Get anything good in the mail recently?
negative.  unless two weeks ago is recent... i got some new cds.

90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?
as a class?  bowling.

91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...

Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?
i'm lost.  i'd say the person on the other end would be the same person but with one more memory.  making it a different person, but still the same.  the same as i'm not the same person i was yesterday, even though i am the same.

92. What insects are you afraid of?
the ones that can kill me.

93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? 
no way.  yes way.  and there was one more.  maybe my little brother remembers.  we have this plan, you see...

94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?
something i wore for some non-debateable conference, without a doubt.

95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?
butter.  does that count as a food?  i found the best butter ever a few weeks ago at wegmans.  it's sierra nevada, vat cultured butter.  and i don't know, but it was seriously the best butter i've ever had.  and i would eat it on everything if i could.  so i guess any food that had said butter in it...

96. What are your parents interested in?
art.  and me.  ha!

97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?
no.  but i've kept caccoons until they've hatched and then let the butterflies go.

Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?
not really..

98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?
plans.  wishing gets you nowhere.

99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?
uhh.  when i do.

100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?
one of those star-trekky equipments that can produce anything, a sleeping bag, and a pillow.