Baggage I normally wait years and years between relationships. I've never thought it was healthy to jump quickly from one relationship to another. Carrying with it your baggage from the previous relationship.
A cheating boyfriend, a cheapskate or the spineless whiner. We become acutely sensitive to these issues and have a difficult time not comparing the two men. You have insecurities when a new beau doesn't call you one night or asks you to pitch in a few bucks. He tells you about his day and all you hear is nagging and bitching. You just can't help yourself.
While Dipshit and I were in a relationship, we were never boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm not sure what that really means since the whole dating world is a mystery to me. We exclusively saw each (at times or at least I did) but we didn't keep day to day tabs on each other. I was in love with him and he loved the idea of making $120,000 off me. Who knows how many girls came and went during our 11 months but that's all in the past now, right?
After a while persons who jumps from relationship to relationship becomes overwhelmed by all the excessive weight of their hangups. They either cannot stop being in a relationship and face their insecurities making everyone in their lives miserable or sell themselves short to just be with someone. None of which I have found very respectable.
I didn't expect to meet someone so quickly .
 I guess you can say that I always knew Dipshit was a dipshit but I was just never ready to move on. I always complained that there were no decent men around. There were plenty of good men but in reality I just wasn't open to meeting anyone else.
Dipshit's shit finally hit the fan and I was out.
No sooner I was out did I meet someone great. I'm not even going put him in the same paragraph and the you know what. He's tall, (yes, that's important to a lot of girls =P), intelligent, funny, sweet and kinda really hot. I really like him and he's very kind, gentle and warm.
His only problem is that he's a bit of a liberal but we get on smashingly well. After a few weeks of seeing each other he was the one who brought on being exclusive and five weeks later we're bf/gf. Holy shit. It's been four years since I've called someone that and quite frankly I've forgotten what it's all about. It's really nice.
 So far there hasn't been much difficulty. We get along great and there haven't been any misunderstandings or problems. We're in our honeymoon phase of course. It's feels great being with him and he makes me really happy.
But...
I do have to say that on occasion I do have my doubts on his fidelity. It's not fair to him because I know that he's not that type of person but I can't help myself. I guess this is something that I'll always have to deal with since majority of the men in my life have cheated.
My insecurity.
I just wish that this feeling would go away. I wonder what it will take for it to do so. Time?
Can we really ever be with one person?
Vicodin is finally kicking in...
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