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| "do you want to go get something to eat on saturday night?"
"do you want to go get something to eat on saturday night?"
"do you want to go get something to eat on sautrday night?" "do you want to go get something eat on saturday night?" "do you want to go get something eat on saturday night?" "do you want to go get something eat on saturday night?" "do you want to go get something eat on saturday night?"
i replay it over and over again...
am i happy? yess...<3  <3823* | | |
| so im pretty sure that i miss him more than anything.. and it drives me crazy that hes all i ever think about. and it makes me insane. wondering whats on his mind, and if its ever me. i want so bad to talk to him again.. to hear his voice. i just wanna resolve things between us. i want it to be like old times with us. i miss our talks. <3 we could talk for hours, we talked about everything we takled about nothing but no matter the subject it was always enjoyable. i always looked forward to his phone call or his IM and it would always brighten up my day. i thought about him everyday, all the time, and always rushed home to talk with him, and i know that he did the same. i so so so want to fix things again, and make things right. i wish i could just work up the courage in my body to just say "how are you, ive been wondering if maybe youve been thinking bout me".. i want this back to normal sooo bad. i miss him i miss him i miss him with every bone in my body. and i just wish that i had the courage to fix things again. but as much courage i have theyres still that part of me thats afraid. afraid of rejection, afraid if ill make things worse. because ive been through too many heartbreaks .. and ive seen it with my parents when i was 14. (2 years ago) and its like im trying to run a race with a broken leg. i want to, i strive to, but theres still that part of me thats broken thats holding me back. because if i run with a broken leg, it will end up getting hurt even more, in turn taking a longer time to heal. </3* | | |
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| ook, so ive been really sad latley. gosh, i just feel like total crap. see, there was this guy. and wed been talking for around six months, and just hanging out around two. & everything was going great. like we really clicked, you know? i mean, we had so much in common, wed learn new things about eachother everyday. and we could talk to eachother for hours at a time. he was definetley different than most boys i had been interested in latley. and he told me this stuff too.. like he said to his friend (who in turn told me), she's different than most girls i've met, i can talk to her for hours.. and i was just really happy and everything. my life was simply amazing and i wouldnt have changed it for the world. things got even better when we started talking more seriously and even told eachother our feelings for one another. well i thought that everything was cool, but i guess he didnt.. his friends told me (two weeks after we told each other our feelings for eachother) that he was in it deep with another girl. i cant even describe this feeling.. because if i could i would. i just feel like.. im not good enough.. or... somethings wrong with me? i dont know. im so lost. i really want to know where things went wrong. but i just feel awful. i feel like ive been cheated on .. and.. ive been led on. if theres one thing i truly hate.. its being led on. its the worst feeling ever.. being led on just triggers thoughts that make me wonder if im good enough and make me wonder what i do wrong. constantly. so yeah.. thats basically my story. but im so pathetic.. i keep thinking that hes gonna come back and tell me that he misses me .. but at least im smart enough to know that that kind of stuff only happens in fairytales .. i wish i could change things.. <33 | | |
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