Tuesday morning Nathan came over in the work truck with Cody, and brought 100 dollars over so I could put it on my ticket before they get a warrant for my arrest. Then, I just layed around for a bit and got ready in case Nathan came over early to come get me to go to Hays to eat. Well it started to get later and later and no Nathan. So I finally decided to call him around 9:00 and see where he was or if he was even coming? So I called him and he said he was packing for a road trip..I was like...uh ok? So then, he was like I have court for that stuff in Kansas City and I want you to come. So of course I wanted to go with him.

So I went inside and explained to my mom what was going on. She got really mad and told me I wasn't going. But im 18 years old and can take care of myself. So Nathan came over and got me and we left. He drove to Abilene and we got something to eat. Then I drove and he slept. He woke up around Lawrence and drove into Kansas City. We got to his dads house around 1:15 in the morning. We just layed down in the basement and tried to go to sleep. We finally got to sleep and his dad came downstairs around 6:30 and woke us up. Then Stacy came down around 10:30 but we actually didn't get up till around 10:45 or something like that. We got up and got on the computer and got directions to get to Lee's Summit Missouri where Nathans court was. Then we got ready and headed out.

We got there like two hours early so we found where the court was and then went to stores. It was fun!! We went to Best Buy and looked at all the cool stuff.  It was so much fun! Then we went back to the court and waited for his lawyer. About 3:45 his lawyer met with him and got it continued until the 5th of October. But he got off of alot of it. I was so happy for him! Then we left there and went back to his dads for a little bit and loaded up my little brothers new bike. We then went and ate at Freddy T's Bar & Grill. It was so awesome. I loved the food there. It was so good. Then we headed back to Russell. We got stuck in traffic for awhile by the race track. Then I drove for awhile. We got to Topeka and decided that we would stop and see Clayton for awhile. We got there and Megan was there, too! So we stayed there for about 30 minutes and left. We got to Russell around 10:45.

We went and checked the mail and came back here and went to bed. We were soo...tired!!!.....It was a awesome trip with my baybee!

when you cant stop
[s m i L i n g]
after you talk to him ..
& you still get
B u T T eR f L i E s .. x3
in your stomach ..
that HUGE smile across
your face everytime you see him
lets you know that you will
a L w a Y s.L o V e.H i M

Well today, me and Nathan slept in to around 11:00 o'clock since he didn't have to work since its Labor Day. It was nice. Then we just layed in bed and did nothing for a little while. Then he left and went out to his moms house. He said he might be back after a bit. Then me and my parents and some family Barbequed for lunch...*YuM*

Didn't do anything today. Just messed around the house and watched some T.V. Played on the internet. Talked to some friends. Talked to Nathan's mom, she called my house instead of her nephews...LoL...That's about it....And yes!! I changed my song!! I <3 it!

*BtW-i CaNt WaiT TiLL tOmMoRrOw! GeT tO gO eAt At RoOfToPs iN hAyS WiT mY bAyBeE*

YoU kNoW wHaT tHe WoRsE fEeLiN iS? kNoWiNg YoU DiDnT dO sOmEtHiNg, BuT yOuR gEtTiNg bLaMeD FoR iT, and EvErYoNe tHiNkS YoU DiD iT....

HeRe ArE sOmE PiX FrOm LaSt NiGhT.....

NaTe aLL dRuNk LaYn On My BeD.....

jEsSiE n NaTe FiGhTn

NaTe SpAnKn JeSSiE......

Bold and Color all the ones that apply to you!:

01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year.*aLmOsT 4 YeArS*
02. I still watch cartoons.
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. But mostly to read the blackboard and drive.
09. I want more piercings.
10. But I can't ever get any more.
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm sometimes a loud person.
23. A boy shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping.
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a few close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.(dont yell at me i know you all dont think so)
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode.
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to AIM.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family..*MoSt Of iT, HaTe MoSt My FaMiLy ThaT LiVeS HeRe*
48. I love hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers.
54. Think you are goin to marry the one your dating.
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I used to cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
59. I like to be with my boyfriend/girlfriend.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school.
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind.
72. I hate blue jeans.
73. I'm online a lot.
74. I have 2 goldfish.
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have thongs sticking  far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car.
91. I love glitter.
92. I sometimes wish I was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94. I love to have fun.
95. I get amused easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.

Well I haven't done much of anything today. Got up and EJ, Stormie, and KK were here. So I got up and got something to drink and called Nathan. Then he came over for a little bit. We all just sat around and talked and that's it. Ej, and all them left. Then I started making pancakes and Nathan left because he had to go to a family reunion today. He wanted me to go, but I didn't feel very good. So he said he will be back later! *YaY!* Then I have just been working on my Xanga..

eDiT-----

Well just haven't done much at all today. Just watched my show One Tree Hill and played around on the computer and ate. Talked to a few of my friends. Then me and my mom sat outside and Nathan came over. Now he is sleeping...Haha....Tommorrow he don't have to work...*yAy* Tuesday we are going to eat in Hays at Rooftops for my birthday meal!! I'm so excited...

Thats all for now...<3 ya'z.....
*cAnT wAiT TiLL TuEsDaY...*

Will update later tonight....

i ThoUgHt ThiS wAs CuTe...N i WaS BoReD....

Survey..
(1) Your gender: Female...
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight...
(3) Single?: Nope...im TAKEN...
(4) want to be?: Medical Transcriptionist..
(5) Your birthday: September 1st
(6) Age you act: Depends on what kinda mood i'm in..
(7) Age you wish you were: 21..HeHe...
(8) Your height:5"7
(9) The color of your eyes: Hazel 
(10) Happy with it?: No, I was they were blue
(11) The color of your hair?: Brown
(12) Happy with it?: Yes
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
(14) Like your family?:Yes, I like my family...Well MOST of it....
(27) Your family: Mom/Dad/2 bros/2 Sisters
(29) They all have jobs?: Yeah, most of them.
(30) Piercings?: Left ear:4 Right ear:3 and belly button
(31) Want more tattoos?: Yes!!
(32) Obsessions?: Nathan..
(35) Do you speak another language?: Haha, no!!
(36) Have a favorite quote?: Lifes a bitch, get over it!!
(37) Do you have a webpage?: Yes, but im still working on it!
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: Yes, most of the time!
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yeah, most of the time
(40) Do you have any secrets?: Yes, just a few.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Sometimes I do.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: Yes
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: Yes
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: Im pretty...Or Funny...
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Crazy bitches...LoL
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Snakes.Spider
(47) Can you sing: No!
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Hell no!
(49) Are you a loner?: No!
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yes cuz im so cool!
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Yes
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? No not really...
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: Both
(55) Have you got a ?: No I dont?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: How I make people laugh!
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself? Wouldnt change anything.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Love
(59) How do you vent?: Scream or throw things
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yea, most of the time!
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Yes there is. Just one thing...
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: Yeah most of it.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Dont trust people.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: Im average. Not fat and not skinny.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: Yeah
(67) Are you confident?: Yeah
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Cinderella....haha....
(69) Do people know how you feel?: Yes, because I will tell them.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Yeah, I am. Somtimes...
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: Nope...
(72) Do drugs?: Hell no...
(73) Read the newspaper?: Yeah every once-in-a-while...
(74) Pray?: Yes
(75) Go to church? Not usually....
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yeah sometimes...
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Nope...
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Yeah sometimes...
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: Depends on how much I hate them.
(80) Drive?: Yes
(81) Like to drive fast?: Yes, sometimes LoL
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: Yeah..
(83) Hurt yourself?: Yeah but not on purpose....
(84) Been out of the country?: Nope...
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: No? Why would i?
(86) Burped?: Yes..
(87) Been unfaithful?: Yes...
(88) Been in love?: Yes..
(89) Done drugs?: Yes, never again tho....
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Nope...
(92) Had a surgery?: Yes...
(93) Ran away from home?: Nope.
(94) Played strip poker?: Nope
(95) Gotten beaten up?: No, because I am usually the one beating someone up
(97) Been picked on?: Nope...
(98) Been on stage?: Yes!
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: Almost....haha...
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yes....
(101) Thought about suicide?:Sadly yes I have.... 
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Yeah many times!!
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 3 days...Haha...Then I just pass out..
(104) Gone one day without food?: Yeah
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Yes
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Uh yeah?
(107) Slept all day? Yes, I love sleeping!
(108) Killed someone?: Nope, but thought of it...Haha...
(109) Made out with a stranger?: Yes....
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: Nope...
(112) Kissed the same sex?: No....
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Hell no...
(114) Been betrayed?: Yes, many times...
(115) Had a dream that came true?: Yeah, its weird..
(116) Broken the law?: Haha yes I have!!
(117) Met a famous person?: Yes!
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Nope.. 
(146) Stolen anything?: Yes!
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: Yes!
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Nope.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Yes, I have. 
(150) Considered religious vocation?: Idk what that is?
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: Hell no!
(152) Bungee jumped?: Nope not yet. Want too!
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes weird...
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: Phat Farm!! i <3 tHeM..
(155) Brand of clothing?: Rue 21
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Lucky Girl
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: Whatever is comfy...
(159) Wear hats?: Nope..
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: Yes I do it alot... 
(161) Wear make-up?: Yeah!
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Rue 21 
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: My skirts
(164) Are you trendy?: Yes!
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: Hell no! I would hate it!
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Yeah!
(167) Miracles?: Yes!
(168) Astrology?: Yes!
(169) Magic?: Kinda..
(170) God? : Yes
(171) Satan?: Yeah, I believe it's my aunt Beverly...
(172) Santa?: Haha no...
(173) Ghosts?: Yes.  
(174) Luck?: Yeah
(175) Love at first sight?: Nope not really... 
(176) Yin and Yang?: Yeah
(177) Witches?: No...
(178) Easter bunny?: Haha hell no...
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes!
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No havent found one yet..
(181) Do you wish on stars?: Yes falling stars...
LOVE, and all that..
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: Nope..
(183) Do you remember your first love?: Yes...
(184) Still love him/her?: Haha no...
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: Hell no...
(186) What do you find romantic?: When i'm sitting in the Hays Emergency Room and they are taking FOREVER to call my name and i'm in pain and Nathan goes up to the window and starts bitching the people out....*i <3 HiM* 2 minutes later...They call me name.
(187) Turn-on?: Curly hair...
(188) Turn-off?: Nasty breathe
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: No....
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I would feel bad cuz I didn't like them...
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Knowing someone....
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: No not really...
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: Hell no....
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking: Yeah...
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: They are so loveable....
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They can be the biggest pains in the asses....
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: Ring...
(208) Are you in love?: Yes!
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: Hell yes! Very sexy!!
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: I wouldn't do anything....
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: Idk?
(212) You wanted to kill?: Beverly....
(213) That you laughed at?: Nathan...
(214) That laughed at you?: Nathan...
(215) That turned you on?: Nathan....
(216) You went shopping with?: Anna..
(217) That broke your heart?: No one...
(218) To disappoint you?: Nathan...
(219) To ask you out?: Nathan....
(220) To make you cry?: Court...
(221) To brighten up your day?: Nathan...
(222) That you thought about?: Nathan...
(223) You saw a movie with?: Nathan, Jake, and his g/f...
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Nathan...
(225) You talked to through IM?: Sarah
(226) You saw?: Nathan...
(227) You lost?: No one?
(229) You thought was completely insane?: My nutty ass cat...
(230) You wanted to be?: No one?
(231) You told off?: Well Bev, she THOUGHT she was telling me off...HAHA!
(232) You trusted?: Nathan...
(233) You turned down?: No one?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: about 5 minutes ago...
(235) Laughed?: about 30 minutes ago...
(236) Cried?: Couple weeks ago...
(237) Bought something?: On my birthday...
(238) Danced?: I dont know. Its been awhile..
(239) Were sarcastic?: this morning....
(240) hugged someone?: about 4 hours ago...
(241) Talked to an ex?: Couple days ago...
(242) Watched your fave movie?: It's been awhile..
(243) Had a nightmare?: I've never had a nightmare...
(245) Talked on the phone?: About 4 hours ago...
(246) Listened to the radio?: Yesterday...
(247) Watched TV?: Earlier today...
(248) Went out?: Friday night...
(249) Helped someone?: This morning...
(250) Were mean?: Yesterday....
(251) Sang?: I have no clue....
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Its been a few months... 
(253) Said "I love you"?: Earlier today...
(254) Missed someone?: Now...
(255) Fought with a family member?: Last night..... 
(256) Fought with a friend?: It's been awhile...
(257) Had a serious conversation?: On my birthday...
(258) Got totally wasted?: It's been awhile sinice i've been TOTALLY drunk....
(259) sex?: last week sometime.....

Today was g-r-e-a-t....

Nathan stayed the night last night so we got to sleep in an extra hour because his boss told him to come in at 8 instead of 7. So we got up extremly late...*haha*....Nathan went to work. Then I went back to bed and got up around 12:30. I ate something and got on the computer and did some stuff on my website.

Deidra came over around 6 o'clock or so and we went and drove around, went to the game for a little while and then went out to Nathans work so I could get some Cd's. Talked to him and Cody for awhile then me and Deidra left and drove around a little more.

Then I saw Nathan pull in the drive-way so Deidra dropped me off and I talked to Nathan outside for a few minutes and he told me to take his truck for a little while so I did. Then I came back and he went home to go to bed, and then Deidra came back over for a little bit. Then she left and I just got back on the computer.

Thats it!! <3