Hello, sorry that i have not been able to post so often as i used to (i hope you have not all left me!) Its been harder to do now what with me staying at my bfs and stuff, obviously i have to keep it secret!

I have slipped abit and need to get back on track, but i am determined so i know i can do it.

Does anyone ever get really jelous when their boyfriends talks about other girls that are good looking? I hide it but inside my head im thinking well why dont u just go and fuck her instead of me then and i get really peed off. I guess this is down to my insecurity  I can accept that men find other women attractive but coz i have really low self esteem it makes me feel really ugly and bad about myself. I know my bf doesnt mean to make me feel like that but it does, but i cant exactly tell him that.

I hope everyone is doing ok, im going to read your sites now. Take care everyone and i will try post soon.

Ana love x

Hello everyone!!

Today has been ok, although a bit of a drag at work  Today I have eaten a sandwich at lunch no butter, lots of salad, drunk lots of water and had noodles for my dinner so not too bad really, but i feel like ive eaten loads for some reason, as if ive done bad...It feels like i have.

Wow I miss my bf soooo much!!! Its only been one day (almost!!!) ive never missed someone so much in my entire life!! It sucks! he's gonna get lots of hugs n kisses when he gets back!

So, i have to go to the hospital tomorrow guys, wish me luck. I would love to tell you all what it is and Julia (fallenAspirations) as you asked but its really personal and people have different views and stuff like that, so i dont want to get loads of hate mail etc etc.

Anyway, hope ur all having a brilliant day, take care

Ana love

Z xxx

Evening ladies.....

Tomorrow i have to go to my grandmas for dinner so thats all im going to have for that day if i can manage it as ive been a bit crap lately!

My bf goes away for 3 weeks with work tomorrow, im gonna miss him soooo much  Ive got a surprise for him when he gets back though! Ive got some sexy underware and a nurses uniform hehehe! But i need to seriously stop eating crap and lose some flab before i can put that on for him!! Help me!

Have to go to the hospital next week, which means more time off work!

Hope everyone is good

Love you all

Z xxx

Hello ladies, im back.....well i was back before now but for some reason i couldnt write anything on here it wouldnt let me  probably my computer being stupid as usual....anyway it was my birthday last week and i went shopping and had a really nice day spending all my bday money  and then i went to see my boyfriend over the weekend and we went to alton towers which was really fun and wasnt too busy either!!

Ive got the week off work this week, so im enjoying doing not a lot (hehe) till i have to go back!

I will update later but i want to check up on all your sites first.........hope everyone is well and doing good

Ana love

Z xxxx

Well ladies, my day has gone ok today I had a salad for lunch, and snacks were an apple, half a tangerine, and a low fat yoghurt

This weekend is gonna be super hard though as im visiting my bf for the weekend, and we're gonna be drinking and stuff and he likes to cook, so im guessin the weekend will be full of fatty food but as ive only just started going out with him, i dont really eat alot around him so i guess thats a plus point...Ill be eating crap but not much of it!

So this is gonna be my last post till either sunday night or mon, so dont worry ladies ive not gone again, im just away! I will be back.

I hope you all have super weekends, and stay strong, if any of u dont make it dont be too hard on yourselves just be extra good the next day!

Luv you all

Ana love

Zoe xxx