my best friend won't even listen to me, they just keep talking about theirself..
-so here i rant
my sister is 21, i am 15. she bitches at me, like seriously fights with me about things that were never worth a fight
i asked if she was going to have any type of support for the business she wants to open up and she said no and how she's smart and shit and i'm like "well you might want to find some other palces to support you"..basically stating how it's a risk and she was like geting mad at me talking about how i'm negative even though i didn't say it bluntly, i was just asking, and then she was saying all this stuff about getting support from places, and i wa slike...that's all i asked. and she bitched at me mmore and said she probably wasn't going to do it anyywas [even more reason for her not to fight about it] and so i was like omg youa re so pathetic, no one has the guts to say shit to you but me so you bitch at me...
i hate how my othre sister never stands up for me, but she knows i'm right because she's shit talked her before too...she's just WAY tooo much of a follower to say a word
I fucking hate my sisters, I hate my family...I hate how none of them care about me or even realize I'm here half the time and how my sister tells me about it everyday how no one cares about me
I've always been the different one and everyone has always hated me for that, I've always had to keep most of my feelings buried inside me and to myself because I've always had trust issues, i've always hated my older sister, and my other sister has always been a folllower, my dad has always forgotten about me/shit talked about me and not admitted to it later, and my mom started to try to fuvck up all of our lives a few ywears ago when she left us.

it hurts more than anything to know i may never be able to experience true love because of all this all these layers of hate and anger and depression.

my sister bitches at me for thinking i know more than anyone else, when she does and anyone can see that, and i'm sorry, i'm going to fuinish college before her and my other sister and i'm younger than them, and i'm going to get older, move out and never talk to them again because they honestly ruined so much for me. i can't even take it now. at least, unlike them, i won't be trash.

I like how you always seems to reassure me that I'm wrong about you.
Really; It makes life so much easier for me becayse you'll never live up to my expectations, and you'll never be perfect enough for me, and right when I start to think any different you always seem to prove this all wrong.
Being totally honest, your flaws keep me from getting any closer to you, which is probably better for the both of us.
Is it sad how anything less than perfect I'm just going to puch aside? Everything has to be selected in a well-determined fashion and everything has to be better than anyone else.

I don't want this, but I'm not quite mentally stable for anything less.
The only way I can ever be happy again is if I achieve my goal.