May your organs fail you before your dreams do.

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No one could ever know enough or control things they can't control if God has a grip on your fate. But how much faith can you have in faith? If faith is simply believing that things will be okay in your life, then you also have to have enough faith to believe. If you have no will to believe that things will be alright and don't have the desire to put up a fight, then everything is meaningless; you might as well be dead. God put us here to live. He put us here to feel. It's a simple matter of denial. EVERYBODY FEELS SOMETHING. If you say you don't want to have dreams and hope for good in your life then you're a fucking liar. As bad as it gets, if you feel like you're so far gone that you can't make a comeback in anything you do, you better think again. No matter how bad it gets, there's always that feeling, like a splinter inside you, that knows how far your potential can take you. If you have faith in love, you will have love. If you have faith in God, he will guide you. If you just have faith in faith then you'll have the strength to believe what you want and to accomplish what you believe in accomplishing.

i know it's hard to believe people when they say i know how you feel, but i actually know how you feel. turned out he wasn't in love with me like i thought. what i'm trying to say, is i understand feeling as small and insignificant as humanly possible. and how it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you. and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonay you drink with your girlfriends...you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could of misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. and sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. and after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new and you'll meet people who make you feel worth while again. and little pieces of your soul will finally come back. and all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted...that will eventually begin to fade.

"it's the art of not letting it get to your head, not letting it break your heart, and not letting the world see when it does."

Often, it's the most deserving people who can not help loving those who destroy them.

"Of the affairs of love...my only advice is to be honest. That's your most powerful tool to unlock a heart or gain forgiveness." -Garrow

"It is always so; those closest to the heart cause the most pain." -Sloan

"Live in the present, remember the past, and fear not the future, for it doesn't exist and never shall. There is only now." -Saphira

"i'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.
i make mistakes, i am out of control.
and at times hard to handle. but if you can't handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
- marilyn monroe

"Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command."
-Alan Watts

Life ultimately means taking the responsibility to find the right answers to it's problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual. -Anonymous

"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day." -Frank Sinatra

all people dream, but not equally.
those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind,
wake in the morning to find that it was vanity.

but the dreamers of the day are dangerous people,
for they dream their dreams with open eyes,
and make them come true.

Here are my rules: what can be done with one substance must never be done with another. No two materials are alike. No two sites on earth are alike. No two buildings have the same purpose. The purpose, the site, the material determine the shape. Nothing can be reasonable or beautiful unless it's made by one central idea, and the idea sets every detail.

Every form has its own meaning. Every man creates his meaning and form and goal. Why is it so important-what others have done? Why does it become sacred by the mere fact of not being your own? Why is anyone and everyone right so long as it's not yourself? Why is truth a mere matter of arithmetic-and only of addition at that? Why is everything twisted out of all sense to fit everything else? There must be some reason. I don't know. I've never known it. I'd like to understand.     "I don't give a flying cows ass!"  - ash  "the perfect guy..he could choose to be anywhere in the world, yet he chooses to be with her, because life is better with her by his side"        It's not just a game.
It's a way of life.
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It's the struggle.
It's the pain.
It's the victory;
no, the beginning.
Something.
Anything.
It's the weakness.
Surface the strength.
Internal.
External force.
Push me,
I want to bleed.
I need the ache.
Skin deep-
to the bone.
Pound it.
It goes on forever.
Keep me here.
Hurt me,
I crave the struggle.
Search for the breath
to continue.
Sweat is the blood
of my battle.
It's the passion.
It's the love.
Truth.
Doubt is the
downfall.
Weakness never
existed;
it can't.
I'm not ready.
No choice.
No savior.
Dance with the
devil.
You are;
I am.
We're here together.
It's the focus.
It's the desire.
It's the dire need.
Will me on.
Taunt me.
Feed the fire.
I will not break.
Watch you crumble.
Watch you unravel.
I enjoy your helplessness.
Pleasure.
Spare a smirk
through the sunlight.
I will not break.      

so its fucking summer. beautiful. amazing. clear. free. summer.

why ruin a perfectly good flower when you know he loves you not"

"a good friend will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you..ve had enough, but your best friend will look at you trippin.. over your own two feet and say, "bitch, drink the rest of that, you know we dont waste that kinda shit!"

prettyy babyy Ox: balling
Dee Lo07: eggnip
Dee Lo07: hahahah
prettyy babyy Ox: bean shaker
Dee Lo07: im gonna bring materials to make some of those to school tomorrow
prettyy babyy Ox: HAHAHA
Dee Lo07: we can each have one
Dee Lo07: we can even put glue on the outside then cover it in glitter
prettyy babyy Ox: GLITTER GLUE!
Dee Lo07: hell yea
Dee Lo07: that will be less of a mess
Dee Lo07: too bad i dont have any beans
Dee Lo07: i just looked for em
prettyy babyy Ox: dang
prettyy babyy Ox: you killed it
Dee Lo07: i kno
Dee Lo07: ill go buy some right now
Dee Lo07: brb
prettyy babyy Ox: k
Dee Lo07 went away at 9:41:16 PM
Dee Lo07 returned at 9:42:07 PM
Dee Lo07: ok just kiddin
Dee Lo07: im not gonna go do that
Dee Lo07: but i actually do have beans
prettyy babyy Ox: great
Dee Lo07: i do
Dee Lo07: three different kinds actually
Dee Lo07: we can see wat kind makes the best noise

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You danced with me in the moonlight. And I found my theme, like roses bloom, you inspired me.
<br>And the break of day fell upon me. And the light outshine, and you broke the spell that had kept me from loving you.
<br>I came to you for answers. I left confused.
<br>We play charades and the stars bow down. And I saw your face, I lose myself on a Saturday.
<br>It had been so long, so I question, I question everything. Then it..s no surprise, the time was right and you saw it in my eyes.
<br>I came to you for answers. I left confused.
<br>..Cause you moved me and you promised you would let go. Now I need you, and I want you to know.
<br>I am spinning out of control to be with you. I know that who you are defines me.
<br>I..m stepping out today. Pushed all the demons away. <b>I..ll come through</b>.
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Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad. And say something you could understand.
<br>I..m a statue baby, knock me out. Oh how these moments fade away, you say you never loved me.
<br>We say things we didn..t mean to say. I take it back, I take it all back now.
<br>I take it back, <b>I take it all back</b>. Paralyzed by the same old antics.
<br>Back and forth like some walking spastic. How could a fistfight be romantic?
<br>Thinking back now will you ever feel the same? You mean more to me than you..ll ever know.
<br>You..re my girl and I think it..s a shame that we get along this way. I..m just a statue try to knock me out.
<br>I guess these moments fade away, saying you never loved me. We said things we didn..t mean to say.
<br>I take it back, i take it all back now. I take it back, <b>I take it all back</b>.
<br>Paralyzed by the same old antics. Back and forth like some walking spastic.
<br>How could a fistfight be romantic? Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
<br>Yeah I know you feel the same. You gotta let me know, I..m dying inside to know.
<br>Knock me out, I..m dying inside to know. Let me know, <b>knock me out</b>.
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Ashirra ladonai ki gaoh gaoh,
Nachitah v'chas d'cha am zu gaalta

I will sing to the Lord for he has triumphed gloriously,
In Your Love, You lead the people You redeemed.

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hey, so i usually don`t write on here anymore. but i figured i would? not like anyone looks at it anyways.

so i`m sick of people talkin` shit. but i`m not gonna sit here and whine. i`m just over it. if your life is lame enough that you have nothing better to do than talk about me, then..go right ahead. it just means you have no life :)

but hey, honestly, right now life is good. its great even. i got no worries my friends, no worries.
single is actually amazing. i do what i wantttttttttttt with who i  wanttt. booyah.

aaand, i really like this.
it`s from Jeffree Star. and it`s brilliant :D

"After so many emails involving this topic.. it's time I said how I felt about it.Beauty, vanity, self-confidence. Not always feeling pretty. Being put down.I know I talk alot of shit and say exactly how I feel.. because I can actually think for myself. And EVERYONE needs to be like that. You may think self-esteem advice shouldn't come from someone who wears a full face of makeup, but you'd be wrong. I don't wear makeup and dress up because I HATE myself. I'm not trying to hide anything, because I let my insides show through. Every fucking day. I'm a strong believer in self-love. And I dont mean acting like a bitch and pretending your the best thing on earth, because no one is. But being confident get's you alot further then second guessing yourself and wishing you were someone else.

You may think celebrities are perfect but you should all know better then that. There's days when I don't feel beautiful. There's days when I lay in bed all day an sleep because I'm over everything. But that's just one moment in my life. It's just an experience you learn from. Sorry, but I love wearing NO makeup, sitting on my pink couch an eating ice cream while watching VH1. And do I feel any different then when I'm dressed up and in front of a camera? Honestly NO I don't because I'm still ME.

Has anyone ever called you ugly? I've been called every name you could think of. But I love it, because by being myself I'm opening up other people's closed minds. Because no one's opinions matter but YOUR OWN. If I cared what anyone thought of me, I wouldn't have gotten this far with my career at such a young age. Sadly, there isn't a pill you can swallow that makes you feel beautiful. Nothing's that easy. But when you really think about it.. nothing anyone says to you means anything. Because if YOU know who you are, then thats ok. Whether you're gay, bi, straight, anorexic, overweight, believe in something different.. it DOESNT matter if someone doesn't agree. I live in California. The place where everyone says they wanna move to.. but it's not that great. Everyones walking around with fake tits, fake ass implants, new noses, fake hair. And I'm not saying I don't participate in these things [becauseIdo] but LA and Orange County aren't perfect. They're ugly. And people say shit to me all day long, look at me differently. SO WHAT.

If you're not being yourself because you're afraid, please stop.

There's nothing else to it. Let all your walls down and just realize you only live once. So don't let anyone judge you because you like something they don't.

You get one life. That's it. So if someone chooses to be a slut, a junkie, a Christian, a beauty queen, a prositute, a college student, a drop out, a mother.. DEAL WITH IT because its NOT your life. Maybe you don't care what I have to say and you can judge me all day long and say I'm nothing, but I KNOW I'm everything. I'm gonna say what you all want to [but dont], because I have the voice and the power to do it.

Whether you never look in the mirror, or you spend hours looking at yourself: go bitch, live it and love it."

XOXO

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i guess no matter how hard you strive for something, it still never turns out the way you want it. but thats life, thats the way it is here. sometimes you end up in a ditch, and sometimes it ends up better than you ever dreamed.

060707

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i would say good things come to those who wait, i would say anything if you`d believe it

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valentines day 2007

what a fuckin night

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