jUST the waves and you and me.

Her long legs looked like trouble
As she sashayed through the door
And my mind flashed a warning sign
That I chose to ignore
For the prize I thought that I could win
The risk seemed mighty small
The bigger the fool the harder the fall.

&& all i want to know is, that when you were holding her, you thought of me And I know that you didn’t think of me all of those times that I was thinking of you… TiME CHANGE, && ALL OF THE MEMORiES JUST SiMPLY FADE AWAY… Forever & ever, you promised, so that’s what I’ve been doing. Waiting forever and ever. if you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind `' goes when it wanders . . <3 Baby, this is our problem: I care too much && you could care less <//3 You know you truly care when you have try and convince yourself that you dont i wasn't born with enouqh middle finqers to let you kno what i think yuu && i would make        the world » so jealous the way i feel about you i just can`t [ explain ] its the way my heart beats when i hear your name <3 unless youu can see inside my heart .. there`s no way youu could ever know how he makes me feel inside. xoxo hold on to what you love & stay true to what you know. take everything you dream of & never let it go. you do your thing, i'll do mine. you go your way, i'll go mine. & if we end up together, it's beautiful. boy meets world      <33 i can't stand him hurting me. i just can't stand him using me but unlike him, i just can't walk away; i can't forget what we had. it's not that easy for me to let go of something that was once my life. i guess it actually mattered to me. & i'd give up forever to touch you because i know that you feel me somehow. & the funny thing is, you think your the lucky one <3 I'll never get over the stupid feeling I get everytime you sign on..the one where I think maybe.. just maybe ..you'll talk to me first. nobody understands how much i miss you. miss how much we used to talk and miss all the things we used to do. i try not to admit it to myself that i still feel this way. nobody knos that i still wake up think`n of you each day... i still think of you n i really do miss you. i would give up everything i have to be everything that we`re not   AT TiMES WHEN i'M L0NELY, i WiSH i C0ULD BE WiTH Y0U, i WiSH i C0ULD HAVE Y0U, H0LD Y0U, & JUST L00K iN Y0UR EYES, BUT WE'RE 0VER N0W, & i'M ALL AL0NE, JUST SiTTiN HERE THiNKiN AB0UT THE GREAT TiMES WE'VE HAD, WiSHIN & WANTiN TH0SE TiMES BACK S0 BAD.. Never forget what he meant to you, A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. If you love me like you told me, please be careful with my heart...you can take it just don't break it or my world will fall apar You cut to forget somthing/someone. Someone else would eat a whole lot of chocolate when they don't feel so happy, you lock yourself up and try to cut your memories away. You look like a normal person, 'till someone brings up things you don't want to think about. But it's hard to forget things you are completely obsessed with, isn't it? my fake smiles...... can go on for miles. I didn’t want to admit it It was easier to lie Hide the hurt and emptiness To smile instead of cry all the p e r f e c t words feel so wrong now that he`s g o n e   so just cut off the lights for awhile & kiss me like you wanted <33   JUST KISS ME GOOD BYE <3   && the thing that hurts me the most, is that i never even got to say good bye...x3   & it just happened. no discussion needed. we just both knew that very moment we wanted to be together <333   from friendship to more then friends, and back again   Theres something sexy about the rain And sometimes it rained all night And everything she did was perfect And every way we were was right.   She'd had eighteen years to get ready for this day. She should be past the tears, she cried away some..oh, letting go, there's nothing in her way now, there's room enough to fly.. and even though, she spent her whole life waiting, it's never easy :: letting go.. </3   ADOLESCENCE IS THE TIME IN LIFE WHEN GIRLS QUIT BELIEVEING IN FAIRY TALES AND START TO BELIEVE IN LOVE.   pearls, ripped jeans, polos, uggs, & some big black sunglasses = LIFE   One of the worst feelings in the world is knowing that that special someone is still in your heart;; but you`re not in theirs<|3   i wonder why people fall in love . like, what makes someone have this kind of feeling inside of them? when you get butterflys inside your stomach when you see them . and you could absolutely die just staring in their eyes . and no matter how badly they piss you off, you still love them no matter what . and when just hearing their voice make everything alright . or what makes you happy and smile when your down? that would be love . when you look for it, you can never seem to find it . when you find it you don't know what to do with it . when you have it you hope it lasts forever . and when you lose it your heart breaks . you can't help when you fall in love . it's the best feeling a girl like me could ever get.    the hardest thing for me to think about, was how it could have been,,,   Someday I'm gonna run across your mind Don't worry, I'll be fine I'm gonna be alright While you're sleeping with your pride Wishing I could hold you tight I'll be over you And on with my life   You know you do, you kill me well. You like it too, and I can tell.   </3 The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what's best for you.. even if it means breaking someone's heart..including your own..x|3   Boy: I need someone to talk to Girl: I’m always here for you Boy: I know Girl: What’s wrong? Boy: I like her so much Girl: talk to her Boy: I don’t know. She won't ever like me Girl: don’t say that. You’re amazing. Boy: I just want her to know how I feel Girl: then tell her Boy: she won't like me Girl: how do you know that? Boy: I can just tell Girl: well just tell her Boy: what should I say Girl: tell her how much you like her Boy: I tell her that daily Girl: what do you mean? Boy: Im always with her. I love her. Girl: i know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me Boy: wait. Who do you like? Girl: oh some boy Boy: oh... she won't like me either. Girl: she does Boy: how do you know.. Girl: because who wouldn’t like you. Boy: you Girl: you’re wrong, I love you. Boy: I love you too Girl: so are you going to talk to her? Boy: I just did.   It always rains the hardest on those who deserve the sun.   I'm not always as confident as I seem ... there are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me ... sometimes I just want a hug ... someone who will let me cry. I like when boys cry in front of me -- when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. "I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh." I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart ... and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.   When this is said & done, I really hope you look back & wonder if maybe falling in love with me wasn't such a bad idea.   I wanna be your favorite hello & your hardest goodbye.   I wanna do exactly what you did to me, lead you on, make you fall for me & then just...let you go...effortlessly.   once in a while i think back to the memories that we had together.. they make me cry but i know that in the end it was better that i left a guy i loved who only pretended to love me back..</3   all she really wants is somebody who will catch her when she falls. someone to realize her worth and hold her hand for no reason at all. someone who will sit with her under the stars and not want anything more look into her eyes and say youre the one ive been waiting for..   Eventually we'll learn the differences between holding hands and seriously falling in love. We'll learn that kisses won`t always mean something . Promises will be broken just as fast as `they were made .... And sometimes good-byes really are forever   Don't think that no one loved you because they've turned away don't feel they didn't care for you because they couldn't stay don't damn the world for not returning the love you feel you've given don't hate the one you were yearning for because he couldn't make a commitment just think of him as an experience & think how much you've grown think of him as the sacred prince who placed you on the throne think of all the times together feeling closer since you're apart think of your plans of now & forever & hold them in your heart·<3   this is for the girls who have sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a short skirt   for some reason, i just cant figure out which one im in love with, you,..                                                 or     the    memories. & letter by letter, he types the sadness into her heart.   it doesn`t matter who dumped who or why. whenever i see you with another girl, it always bothers me.. not because i`m not over you, but because i know i used to be that girl..   if youu dress nicely, he says you`re a snob. if youu dress sexy, he says you`re a slut. if youu argue with him, he says you`re stubborn. if you`re quiet, he says you`re stupid. if youu call him, he says you`re needy && clingy. if he calls youu, he says youu should be grateful. if youu don`t love him, he`ll try to win youu. if youu love him, he`ll leave youu. if youu don`t fuck him, he`ll say youu don`t love him. if youu do, he`ll say youu`re easy. if youu tell him your problems, he`ll say you`re irritating.  if youu don`t , he`ll say youu don`t trust him. if youu lecture him, he`ll say youu`re bitchy. if he lectures youu, it`s because he "cares". if youu break a promise, youu can`t be trusted. if he breaks it, he had to. if youu cheat, he`ll expect it to be over.  if he cheats, he expects to be given another chance either way ..     so i sat down and looked at all the notes we x-- once --x wrote  and all the memories came rushing back  i ask miself "what have i done wrong"  and the answer always comes...  "you did nothing wrong"  ..."it just wasn't meant 2 b </3"   Not Even The Most Expensive Camera Could Catch The Light Of Your S.M.i.l.E   And She Saves His Voicemail So Whenever Shes Lonely<33 She Can Hear His Voice..*   She Wants So Bad To Hear "I Love You" From Him.   [He] Suprises Her When He Comes Up Behind Her And Wraps His Arms Around  Her Waist. But She Loves It So Much   You Continue To Amaze Me Baby     Every Little Thing you Do   How Can One Simply Normal Boy Make Me Feel So Completely    Beautiful & Amazing? I Like How You Tell Me I LOOk Pretty [When I Don`t] <//3 All Her Friends No When Shes Seen HiM Before Is It The lOOK iN HER EYEZ OR THE            [ SillY BUTTERFlYS] I Must Be Crazy Because I`d Do  -Absolutly- A.n.y.t.h.i.n.g    For You SoMeTiMeS I Wish You'd Notice The Important Things, Like How Fuckin Crazy   I Am About You. <33 Cuz I Turn Around * Just To See You For The t H e   L a S t    T i M e i CANT EVEN THiNK WUT i`D D0 WiTH0UT        [ Y0U ] *It Truley iS  A M A Z I N G   How  You  Make  Me  Smile When Im Havin The Worst Day* My Lifes Not Right And I Cant Belive I Didnt No Why Until Now Its Not Because Of You Its Because your Not In it Anymore.<33333   and i`m so afraid to fall in love, but [you] make it so damn easy ask anyone.  when your name comes up in conversations-  my eyes sparkle & my                                * . . - [ smile shines ]* in a perfect world there would be no mirrors because in a perfect world every girl would have a guy to tell her the she's beautiful somtimes things have to fall apart in order for you to realize how much you need them to fall back together You'd be surprised how often a joke, a song, or a memory makes me think of you... You have this amazing ability to make me go weak in the knees & lately -- everything reminds me of you. When I see you; I can smile for no reason; and know it's because i love you <3 it hurts so bad to be alone && know that he isn't <//3 buy me a [( plastic ring )] and tell me you love me Y o u . c a n . l o v e .        . a n y o n e . i n . t h e . w o r l d .              . t h e . p r o b l e m . i s .                  . so . c a n . he . Loving someone is giving them the ability to [hurt] you but trusting them not to   Sumtimes my mind asks why I miss you?..why I care for you? why i remember you? then my Heart answers " - its simply because - " I LOVE YOU Never give up if u still wanna try Never wipe your tears if u still wanna cry Never settle for the answer if u still wanna know Never say u don't like him if u can't let him go.. if you consider yourself one of my mistakes then your the best mistake i've ever made People ask me "Why do you like him?" and "How can you love him?" It's okay though.. I don't want them to understand, 'cause if they did.. they'd love him too.. why is it so hard to tell a person your feelings even if they already know? the only thing harder then walking away--is not looking back the first day i saw you, i - kissed - my heart |[     g o o d b y e    ]| and if i ever write the story of my life don`t be suprised if you`re where it begins its not that i wanna be the only gurl in your life  i just i wanna be the only one that *m a t t e r s* * She misses him...... And would do anything to wrap her arms around him </3 __[Summer Nights]__ Just Sittin On The Trampoline All Your Close Friends And Him. Talkin And Laughin About All The G O oD Times && Lookin Up At The Stars * When We Kiss I Totally Forget About Every Little Problem I Ever Had, And Nothin In The World Matters, Except For Y.o.u.</3 But When He Grabbed Her Hand Her Face     Completely     Lit Up.<33 Whenever You Sign On Its Like Right Before I Have To Get Off, Or When Im Leaving, Or At 2 In The Morning But I Dont Care, Where Im At*Who Im With* Or What I Was Doing* Because Nothing Matters Except For Talking To            [You]   && I tried to find Just One Thing Wrong With You. Because I No Theres No Such Thing As *Perfection* you no, when i saw you for the first time in a few weeks my legs started shaking, and i started fixing my hair, and making sure i looked absolutly perfect for you ..but then i rememberd..you think im beautiful everyday* its hard sometimes* Giving Up* its tough sometimes* Moving On* && Maybe..Just MAYBE.  You'll  U.n.d.e.r.s.t.a.n.d What     Love     Is        <33 After Its All Said* AND DOnE. You'll Remember  m . e.* Lets F . A. l. l. Asleep ToGeThEr* Its Funny How Hard She Trys. How Much Time She Spends Making Herself Beautiful...* How Less She Eats And More She Crys When Deep Down She Knows Its Never Ever Gunna * H a P p E n* Forever Is A Long Time- But If I Spend Each Morning Waking Up Next To- Forever Isnt Long Enough- Oh You Love Me? Are You Sure About That? bECAUse WHERE WERE YOU When I Needed You To Say That<33 when you were little--did you ever spread your arms out and spin? its like love inside. youre telling yourself to stop because you might get hurt but you dont want to--you just want to .k e e p o n s p i n n i n g.<3 ***when a girl breaks up with a boy for no apparent reason;; it`s because she`s scared. scared to get too close scared to get hurt; scared to be too vulnerable. realize that she just wants to see if you care enough to do something about it && never let go of her. i HATE iT WHEN MY CELLPH0NE RiNGS & Y0UR NAME D0ESN'T SH0W i HATE iT WHEN i HEAR 0UR S0NG iT KiLLS ME L0NG & SL0W i HATE THE WAY Y0U STiLL SMiLE AT ME EVEN TH0UGH SHE'S AT Y0UR SiDE i HATE THE NiGHTS WHEN i'M ALL AL0NE & ALL THE TiMES i CRiED i HATE THE WAY Y0U SAY MY NAME 0R JUST THE WAY Y0U L00K i HATE THE WAY i KN0W Y0U H0W i CAN READ Y0U LiKE A B00K i HATE THE WAY i D0N'T HATE Y0U BECAUSE i STiLL L0VE Y0U S0 i HATE THE WAY Y0U'LL NEVER SEE & THE WAY Y0U'LL NEVER KN0W..</3   you looked into my eyes. your hands were around my waist, and your head focused in the same direction as mine. both of us were unsure && scared to make the first move, but finally his lips came closer and closer to mine. he kissed me, and i just wanted to shout "HORRAY!" you walked me back to my hotel, hand in hand, along the beach with the waves crashing against our feet. god how i miss you. it was only a SuMmEr FLiNg, but i will never forget my week with you. && i bet you wont remember half of the things that i'll never forget I know I don't have the prettiest face for you to look at, or the skinniest waist for you to hold, but I promise I do have the biggest heart to love you with. A boy sits in his room. With unseen tears running down his face. Not about to end any time soon. He sits on his bed, and reaches under his pillow. He pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled. Page by page he rips them out, the memories of her, good and bad. The only person he ever loved was this girl. He kept tearing at the pages, trying to let the feelings go, trying to forget the girl who just s h a t t e r e d his heart into pieces.--Not too far away from that boy's home. Sits a girl, all alone. With music blaring and tears not heard. Her head is down, actions speak louder than words. Her hair falls down, all over her face, so messed up so misplaced. Unheard tears streaming down her face, as if they will never end. She understands that things will never be the same. She takes out her notebook and a pen. Starting to write of anythign that comes to mind. She tries not to think about the boy...because the only pain worse then having your heart broken...is breaking your own.   After all is said and done, I still think you're amazing. I still cherish every moment I spent with you, every smile you brought to my face. I'll be forever thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if you had to be taken away too soon. See, you were my miracle. you were the fairytale I got to live A person may be in love with someone until the end of time, but if that person doesn¡¯t tell her feelings of love, it will just be another person living a dream ¡¦ lost of true love. we used to be able to talk about -everything- but now it`sz impossible to even start a decent conversation with youu .. youu can`t deny it, thingsz have changed .. we`ve grown apart * && youu have to face the fact that i will no longer be there every single time youu need me .. the truth is what it is .. and that is i do not have anymore respect for youu as an individual now .. youu are just another face in the crowd FRiENDS ARE THE 0NES WHO ARE SUPP0SED 2 TAKE THE KNiFE 0UTTA Y0UR BACK .. N0T -PUT 0NE- THERE Sometimes you meet someone, and before you know their name, before you know where they're from, you know that sometime in the future, this person is going to mean something to you.     Aim for success, not perfection. Never give up your right to be wrong, because then you will lose the ability to learn new things and move forward with your life. Remember that fear always lurks behind perfectionism. Confronting your fears and allowing yourself the right to be human can, paradoxically, make yourself a happier and more productive person.   Doors in our lives open & close all the time, but sometimes we're too busy looking back at the one that closed to see the one that opened.       i lost you once i think i can do it again..     the room starts to spin as i lay on the floor. im used to the chills ive had them before i begin to [[ drift away ]] as my eyes;; begin to close -- once again hiding what nobody knows i (wake) to a shouting voice its time for me *to go .. a n o t h e r  day of [hiding] secrets that n0oN3 will 3v3r know.. < l 3 the *one person i [ t l  h l  o l  u l  g l  h l  t ] i knew best i dont even KN0W anymore.. every girl has someone to live for..lucky for me ive got more than one <3 best friends forever  lETTiNG G0 iiSN`T GiiViNG UP <3       iTS JUST.  ¢¾ ACCEPTiiNG THiNGS THAT       [[ WEREN`T MEANT T0 BE ]]  see . hear . touch . taste .  feel . laugh . love.                summer o5 baby <3 I guess when you're young first impressions are everything. sometimes you miss who a person  ' really is.           - - so wear me like a locket around your throat i'll weigh you down i'll watch you choke. Oo you look so good in blue. - one day i just realized he was gone      for good ; and it was okay.. walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in place. she sees a friend and waves. wearing a smile on her perfect face.friendly, smart, beautiful. everyone adores this girl.. seemingly contenther head in a while and inside she's unhappy and she doesnt know why.she lays in bad at night and cries she doesnt know what causes the tears.how could this princess have insecurities and fears she has it all. a pretty smile,many friends,a great guy, the newest trends..her family has money and she gets good grades. has her own car and ..her make up never fades. always looking happy every single day. but inside she's feeling a different way this wonder girl. she's everyones dream<3 but things aren't always what they seem eat candy. walk to the mall. try new things. make people happy. spend time with all your friends. love someone. lose someone. go to the movies. hand out after ten. fly a kite. win a fight. enjoy it while it lasts. live life to the fullest. have a blast.  He loved that girl more than anybody could even understand. In his eyes, that girl was perfect. Every time he talked to her he would get nervous and his body would start to tingle. He loved being around her. They talked about everything, everything but that small, strong phrase he dared not let out of his mouth but he held onto everything, hoping one day she'd understand what she means to him, that one day she'd understand what he went through. Everyday he would watch her and get this feeling deep down and he knew he was in love. But he never said a word until one special day when the girl told him she had feelings for him and he froze up. How could he react like this; all his dreams, wishes, they were finally coming true so how could he not say that he liked her too? Months later this girl gave up and his world crashed. He couldn¡¯t help but cry. To this day he has the very same feelings for her and to this day he regrets not letting her know. & yet she still sits there smiling;; regardless of all the fake friends. && the dreams that were broken. regardless of the guys she loved and the hearts that were broken. Your eyes are undescribable..they are just the type you wanna look into and try to find something, but you can't, so you just keep looking, cause they're so great. Some people say you can see the soul through the eyes, but..I see you..and it's even better. summer ; winter ; spring ; &  fall i'll be around to catch your call cus you're my baby & i adore you you always brighten up my day i'll never ever let you wait cus you're my baby ; and your so amazing Because there's beauty in a breakdown &&You've got the arms I want to be wrapped in the eyes I want to loose myself in&&the voice I could listen to for hours These Days everyone is depressed; No one cares about your personality anymore. There are few songs with out cuss words. You bring up the Lord && people look at you weird. You stand up for someone && get called a bad name & the type of clothing you wear describes you. How much money you have gives you your popularity. Everyone breaks each others hearts && doesn?t think much of it you can become so lonely.. And no one would notice   Dear Girl, i just thought i should let you know, that i --MELTED-- when i heard HiM call you `Beatiful` Love always, your heart x33 sexy isn't what you wear¡¦.it's how you take it off no matter what happens or how much time goes by you can never forget the first time he looked at you & how you fell in love with his eyes   I wont miss you. I wont think about you. how can i miss you when you don¡¯t even miss me? how can i love you so much when you don¡¯t even love me?  i give up. stop making me feel this way i don¡¯t want to like you anymore.  leave me alone.  I¡¯m giving up on you. because i know i will always be alone  i will never have you you will never be mine. so just please. stop doing whatever you do. because its really taking a toll on me. So i'm giving up.  you never know what happens tomorrow   i really dont think you have ANY idea what i would give up just to be with you¡¦ For the first time I finally found someone worth trying to get. It's not like 'oh, I like him.' It's more like 'I really like him and I really want him.   In life you can¡¯t get all caught up in wishing for something that won¡¯t happen. You just have to move on to the next best thing I didn¡¯t know how much I really cared until I couldn¡¯t fall asleep last night because I was to busy thinking of him Most days I wish I'd never met you. Because then I could actually sleep at night and I wouldn¡¯t have to walk around dreaming of something that will never happen Just because two lips havent met, doesn't mean two hearts havent your the only one that makes me draw stupid hearts in the margins all over my notebook   Just once I want someone to look at me and right away think I¡¯m beautiful. Not after they get to know me, or after they see inside my soul ¡¦ just me. I want to walk into a room and light it up. all the beautiful fake girls are out with their blue eyed boys tonite. while i lie hear and listen to the sweet sound of lonely silence. why not me? im gonna show that world im worth a chance. im gonna show them im amazing don`t worry about me, in the end i`ll be just fine. i`m just the girl forgotten, the girl always left behind