Currently Listening Deja Entendu By Brand New see related

Brass buttons on your coat hold the cold in the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone.

This week has been pretty rad, no lie. I still felt like shit on Monday, so I didn't go out for Mischief Night. On Tuesday (Halloween), Brett picked me up and we went to the Brandywine Regal theater because they were having a showing of the original "Halloween". We both wore our costumes, except instead of a roller derby chick, I dressed up as "prom queen" with a sash and tiara. It was cute. We met up with Katie, Erin, Eric, Benny, and someone else that was there, but I forget who. It was so damn cold in that theater too! Afterwards, we drove around. He went over the St. George's bridge and it was really pretty all lit up. And then we came back here and talked for a bit. Then he gave me a very sweet kiss in the cheek and asked me out to dinner. Oh, yes. The rest of the week went by really quickly. It was a bit stressful because it's the end of the marking period and all, so everyone's trying to get all their stuff in last-minute. I think I have all A's and B's, which would be great. Yesterday, Katie and I went to Tish's house to work on our jerseys for Spirit Week (next week), and let me tell you, after 4 hours of painting, drawing, and cutting, they are looking hot. I'm excited to wear them. Speaking of shirts, I have to pick up the ones that are getting made sometime tomorrow afternoon. The guy should be calling me today about them. Tonight, Brett and I are supposed to be going out to dinner somewhere, but I'm not sure yet. And if we do, Amy and Joe might join us. That would be really fun. After picking up the t-shirts tomorrow, Ava and I are hanging out, possibly at the mall because I need to find a dress for the Military Ball, which is next Saturday. And then there's a huge show at the Grange tomorrow night. Sunday is the Hellogoodbye show in Philly! I may be going with Madison and her sister, but I'm not quite sure. I have a ticket, but no ride. So, I'm really, really, really hoping things work out and I can go with them. I'm meeting up with the PA street team leader, Licia, there, and we're going to be working on promotions and such. It's going to be incredible, and I'm so stoked for everything! I had to go to the orthodontist this morning, and my mouth is kind of sore. I fell asleep on the way back home. Maybe I should take a nap before tonight, if anything's still happening. Oh, and I asked Brett if he'd like to be my date to the ball, and he said yes, and I have a feeling it's going to be really fun. Amy and I are thinking about the 4 of us (including Joe) getting a hotel room afterwards and just chilling. We'll see. I'm a bit broke at the moment.

Tish and I at Amy's Halloween party.

Phil wearing Tish's wings.

Prom queen costume.

During music class.

It's because I'm awesome.

Andrew and I in Physics.

Greatest lunch-time picture. Ever.

Working on t-shirts!

Currently Reading The Tenth Circle: A Novel By Jodi Picoult see related

Sunday night is always bad; school's not there, but you still have the weekend that you left behind.

Damn. It's been over a week since I've updated this thing. I guess I've been busy. So, in my last entry, I mentioned something about the football game at Conrad and hanging out at the mall. Well, when Amy and I arrived at the game around 9:00am, I was ready to help out the colorguard. But their coach (and Mr. Grant's fiance) Stephanie wouldn't let me because I didn't know where I was supposed to put everything, which was why I came 3 hours early. Bitch. Now I probably won't be able to go to Florida with them over spring break. Oh, well. Anyway, we lost the game. Of course. Afterwards, Amy and I went back to her house, and she told me that her friend, Brett, would be coming to pick us up to go to the movies to see "The Nightmare Before Christmas" in 3D. She's mentioned him before, and it was my first time meeting him. He came a little before 4:00, which was the time the movie was going to start. We got to the Brandywine theater, and it was too late to get tickets, so we decided to go to the Concord mall first, and then catch a later viewing. I bought a black shirt (for the "seniors '07" shirts we're making), a really cute shirt from Wet Seal, and a pair of aviators. After that, Brett took Amy and I out to dinner, and it was delicious. He even paid for it all. We finally got to the theater before 7:00, but the line was so long. It ended up selling out before we got to the front, so we bought tickets for the 10:00 viewing. As we were leaving, we saw Sean and Justin, and I gave them both really big hugs before we left go to back to Amy's. We chilled at her house until 9:15, and during that time, Brett and I were hanging out and talking about bands. The movie was great, and they dropped me off at my house afterwards. And Amy said the next day, Brett was asking about me, if I was single, and such. And guess what? He is such a cutie. So, I was pretty excited. I don't remember what happened on Sunday, but the week was all right. Tish, Katie, and I went to A.C. Moore after school to get some clothing paint and stuff for the jerseys we're making sometime this week. Of course, my old managers don't like me anymore. Jerks. Amy told me that she was having another Halloween costume party over the weekend, so I had to figure out what I wanted to be. And my Dad gave me the idea of being one of those roller derby chicks. Those bitches are tough, and I was excited about it. I borrowed knee-high, striped socks from Katie, along with her extra mini skirt, I made my own tank top with the team name "The Delaware Dollfaces", borrowed Ava's fishnet long-sleeved shirt, and bought a pair of fishnet stockings. Let me tell you, I looked like a slut on wheels. Amy and I went to Basement T-Shirts after school on Friday to talk to the guy about making the senior t-shirts for our group of friends, and then we went back to her house to decorate and get ready for the party. I wasn't feeling that great during the day, but when we got to her house, I felt awful. I was freezing, even though I had on 2 shirts and 2 sweatshirts, sweatpants, and socks. Her, Joe, and I ran to the mall real quick to pick up Joe's costume, and then dropped him back off so we could finish everything up. I laid on her bed for about an hour; that's how bad I felt. After popping like, 8 Tylenols, I felt a little better. Phil got there a bit early, so he chilled until we were done and guests started arriving. Pretty much every girl there looked like a whore, and I loved it! I met the rest of her Pet Kare friends, and saw some whom I've met before. Overall, the party was really fun. Everyone was drunk (except me, because I still felt like shit and didn't want to wake up feeling any worse), especially this girl, Courtney. Oh, my gosh. I must have seen her boobs 20 times. Her shirt kept falling down, and she was all over every guy (and girl) there, but she was such a sweetheart. Phil passed out on the couch somewhat early, and most of the people left around 1:00 in the morning or so. The people who stayed the night were me, Phil, Brett, Joe, Alyce, and her friend, Sean. Brett and I headed upstairs to the guest room around 4:00, we were both so tired. I don't know when everyone else went to sleep. Brett and I hung out pretty much the whole night, playing pool and talking. And he let me sleep in the bed while he slept on the floor, which I thought was really sweet. We both woke up around 9:00 and started cleaning up the basement while everyone else were still knocked out. Alyce and Sean left around 8:00. Then Phil, Amy, and Joe woke up, and the 5 of us chilled in the basement. My Dad picked me up a little before 1:00 that afternoon because I still felt like shit, only worse, and Joe and Brett left around that time too. I was so glad I went, and got to hang out with him again. Amy thinks I should ask him to come to the Military Ball with me, so we all can chill again. I believe he's 20, so I would have to lie about his age to Commandant, just a little. When I got home, I slept for a few hours and took more medicine. Then, I started reading this really amazing book. I'm halfway done now. Today, I'm just going to read some more, and maybe I'll finish within the next couple of hours. It's about 400 pages. I'm also going to call around to everyone about the t-shirt money and all, because Amy and I are going to pay the guy tomorrow to start working on them. Tuesday afternoon, I'm leaving school around noon so I can go watch the St. Matt's Halloween parade, like always. I also might go Trick-or-Treating with Mike and everyone else at LD. Hopefully I'll feel better by then. I might actually have the flu.

Currently Listening From the Cliffs By Guillemots see related

And this is where the glass leaves the lens, splintering a chemistry of friends.

Damn, the week has gone by so fast! Thank God. Let's see... yesterday, Alex, some other kids from DMA, Commandant, Mrs. Certesio, and I went to Newark for this business-type meeting for students. There were other schools there, and Alex, Lisa, and I got a table with this girl, Kristen, from Christiana. We had to read about a case study from the 1970's concerning the Ford Pinto and how their fuel tanks explode when in a collision, and then we had to present the case to the entire room. We did really well, and the experience was pretty fun. Plus, it got me out of my Statistics, Naval Science, and Physics classes. When we got back to the school, I only had Health left, and we just watched a movie. Today I lead the company in PT. I hate it so much. The only good thing is that I'm loud and everyone can hear me, but I always get so nervous in front of a crowd. Stage fright, I guess. We didn't really do much today. Everyone was anxious to get home because it's finally the weekend. Oh, I forgot to mention... I will be helping out the band and colorguard for competitions this year, and in return, I get to go to Florida over spring break with them! It's going to be so much fun, and hopefully I get tan. We're going to be doing fundraisers to get the money for it. And the most exciting news about today is... (drum roll)... we are going to fucking Europe at the end of the year! Holy shit. When I heard that today, I almost cried, I am so excited. I've always wanted to travel there, and now I'll be able to. The price right now is $2,350 per person, which includes everything from hotels, transportation, air fare, food, activities, ect... That's not bad at all. But Ms. Rahmani said the more people who sign up, the less money it will cost. So, we'll see how that goes. The trip is in July, so there's plenty of time. I'll work my ass off to pay for that trip if I have to. And once I get a job. I'm waiting for Amy's Mom to get me an application for Christiana Hospital. My Aunt Lisa also called a couple days ago, and her and my Aunt Kimmy want to take Arielle and I to New York in December. And this time, we are definitely going. We might even go see the broadway show "Spamelot", which is like a skit from "Monty Python and the Holy Grail", and I've been wanting to see it for a long time. It looks hilarious! Tonight, I'm just chilling at home because I'm exhausted from living on 5 hours of sleep a night. I'm going to work on my drawing more too. Tomorrow morning, Amy is picking me up around 9:00 to go to practice with the band and colorguard at Conrad, and then I'll be watching the football game later in the day. After the game, Amy and I are going back to her house because she might have people over that night. We also might go to the mall for a little shopping, but I don't know yet. And then on Sunday, the band, colorguard, and I will be going to New Jersey for a competition until late in the evening. So, I'm pretty busy this weekend. For once. Amy and I thought of making "'07 seniors" shirts for our group of friends, and we'll be talking to the people at Basement T-Shirts next weekend to see about how long it would take and the price. They're going to look hot. And we'll get to wear them during spirit week next month. Word!

Chilling in Mr. G-Money's class today. I look somewhat evil.

Ah, yes. John and Matt in Literature.

You wouldn't understand.

Amy draws a lovely picture.

Representing the House of Fools EP release at the DMA on Tuesday. Hell yes.

Currently Listening Leaving Through The Window By Something Corporate see related

And I wonder if you wonder, or did your stars finally explode?

The rest of last week was all right. Things are slowly coming back to normal at school again. I really hope Commandant hangs up a memory picture in the lobby or something. I finally got to inspect my platoon on Thursday. Of course, I went easy on them. We were all in khakis anyway. No one really cares about how they look. I finally talked to Jimmy on Friday, and he informed me that he didn't want to go to his Homecoming anymore, which meant neither was I. He could have told me sooner than the night before, but whatever. Later that night, I met everyone at Baynard stadium for the St. Elizabeth vs. DMA football game. It was their homecoming, and I saw so many people I knew at St. E.'s, like my dearest Madison! Love that girl. I was looking for Jay, because I haven't seen or talked to him since 8th grade, but I couldn't find him. I hung out with Mike, Sean, his girlfriend, Erin, and Jessi pretty much the whole night. This is how badly my school sucks: St. E.'s - 38. DMA - 8. Terrible. But it was a lot of fun, and it was also my first football game! On Saturday, I went to my cousin's first Birthday party at my Uncle Michael's around 3:00. Since Nicole wasn't there, I really didn't have anyone to hang around with. Once again, all of the men were out back smoking hookahs while the women cooked dinner. I just stretched out on the couch with a Cosmopolitan magazine until they were ready to cut the cake around 6:00. Nicole finally came, and I chilled with her for a bit before I left to meet up with Ava back at my house. Her and I ventured to the mall. I got a new pair of jeans. They're pretty sexy. We left a little before 10:00, and Ava got picked up at my house afterwards. I was so happy I got to see her again! It's been such a long time since we've hung out. I hope we don't become distant again, that was awful. Yesterday seemed like "Everyone's Moms are Bitchy Day" or something, because all of my friends were having problems with them. Especially mine. I have no idea why she was having an all-day conniption, but at one point, she was screaming at me, "You are worthless! You will never make it on your own!" It made me pretty sad, but I tried to stay away from it all. I locked myself in my room for a few hours and began sketching; something I haven't done in quite a while. I'm working on a picture of Andrew McMahon. I would love to give it to him when Amy and I go to see Jack's Mannequin next month, because I know we will meet him. I will stand next to his tour bus all night if I have to. He's so amazing, and I just want to be able to tell him that in person. Today sucked. I hate Mondays. Since I was up until past midnight, sketching, I was exhausted by 5:30am. Now, I need to do all of my Statistics homework, which is going to take forever. I'm going to print out a bunch of signs and stick them to my uniform tomorrow to promote the House of Fools EP release. I bet they'll be making me do push-ups, but I don't care. I can handle it. I believe I'll be picking it up after school as well. They're such a rad band, and they definitely need to come back to the Grange.

Currently Listening Bleed American By Jimmy Eat World see related

On sleepless roads, the sleepless go. May angels lead you in.

So, the funeral was today. Woke up around 7:30 this morning, got a shower, got dressed, and went with my Mom and Arielle to St. Matthew's. I saw Mike and Sean outside, and I waited for Amy to come. Gunny was bitching at me for having my piercings in while wearing my uniform. Like that was supposed to be the focus of my attention today. Jerk. Amy and I sat on the left side of the church with all of the DMA kids. Then the priests walked in, and the colorguard marched down the center aisle. Commandant and 4 other guys followed, and then the family and casket. That really got to me, seeing the family and Commandant so upset, and when they rolled the casket down to the front of the church. Keegan, his friend who was driving the car, looked like a wreck. A couple of guys had to help him walk down. Amy was bawling, and she didn't even know him. The St. Matt's middle school and teachers were there too, and they had to squeeze in with everyone else. I'm glad they got to come, I was wondering if they'd be able to because they had school that day. It was a long ceremony, almost 2 hours. Father Joe was the one who lead it, and I still swear he's gay, with his permed, white afro. Such a weird guy. After the funeral, we all went outside, and they put the casket into the herse. A lot of people went to the burial, but I had to help my Mom. Before we left, Arielle, my Mom, Greg K., and I went to say hi to all of our old teachers, and it was really nice seeing them again, especially Mrs. Tannenbaum. Their new principal is so much nicer than the one they had last year. Greg came home with us because he wanted to help my Mom at the grocery store, but I didn't feel that great, so I stayed home while they went. I took about an hour-long nap, which was nice. This was the third funeral I've been to this year, and I hope I don't have to go to another one for a very, very long time. But after today, I feel a little better, even though it's still so tragic.