wow..  if you decide ever to go through this messy journal, please be aware that i have changed sooo much since i wrote any of this. good ways and bad ways, however, i just re-read everything and cannot believe how immature i was and how important to me the most irrelevant things in the world were..

and trav, thanks for telling me i was beautiful. that meant a whole lot.

     i love all my old friends back in PA so much.

happy early 18th birthday trav!  ive been trying to call youuuuu..??

and arika- i hope youre feeling better these days. i love youu.

hey its been a while, i dont feel like writing very often anymore, besides the fact that i was grounded. lol. joey and i had some fun times.. but i broke it off the other day.. mostly my parents opininons of him and me and then my own convictions. and its not fair to like another guy while im with joey..

its so hard to see when your eyes are rolled up in the back of your head...

anyway, i like gary a lot and we have so much more in common than joey and i, joey was too controlling and pushy about music and i diddnt like dating a guy who wasnt straight edge because it makes me want to get in trouble again..  ugh

relationships are pointless at this point in my life. i give up.

im IMT student council rep  and i got BPA Vice President! WOO! and im on the top 6 list for homecoming attendant.. which is sooo surprising. anyway, my mom doesnt want me online right now so i gotta go.. ill be in more detail later.

 love, bethany

hey whats up yo

not much yo

my boyfriend is hella sexy yo

and alyssa, you cant have him.

hehe

oh did i mention that i am finally 16????!?!!

  IM FINALLY SIXTEEN!

hehe. i can get my liscense november 23rd..

trying to find a ride to the gravity games

i got lots of cool stuff for my bday

some vinyls and some clothes and a new snowboard setup!!!!!!!  oooh baby! and i heard from alex that joey may be asking ME to homecoming! woo!

today has been a good day.