finally! back to the way life used to be! today was normal... it didn't go by unbelievably slow... most of my classes were actually fun believe it or not! and then practice was cancelled (none of us can stand indoor practice) so i got to go home and not have to rush and feel stressed through homework! I can relax... read my new magazine... not worry... feels good

this weekend... confusing... i don't really know what is going on... or how its all happening... or what is going through everyone's minds... and with everything building up (school and hw, softball, stress at home, friends and drama)... it seems so much to try to comprehend... and getting all emotional and worrying about solving problems just isn't what i need right now... and as much as i am confused and don't like what i'm expecting... i just have to let it go and watch from a distance... i hate it ... but i also hate not feeling like myself lately... and i hate not being able to smile and mean it and not even know why i can't mean it...

great game today girls! i'm lovin it! double plays and all!! NICE... ready for the double header tomorrow morning?!?! 4-4... so far so good... anyways.. this week... to sum it up... pretty damn bad... loaded on homework... bad things in the family and hectic at home... but today it all seems to be getting better... im gunna go on peri's quote... "hope for the best... prepare for the worst" i think its the best way to go... no let downs... but yea... i need to get outta what seems to be becoming drama central... needs to stop... ya think its all gone... a whole month w/o a stupid fight or drama queen/king bullshit... but i guess it can't last forever... at least not in wotown... its like we live in a freaking soap opera... love triangles and all... never expecting whats next to happen when we always should considering what we don't expect is the only thing that ever does happen... summer should be a good break!