nyguy_05: i catn tell u why i am

gay, if i knew, i prolly wouldnt be

gay then.  its not like "ohh, im gay!!

 i love boys!!!",  its just i am attracted

 to them.  remarkable as it may

sound, its not about sex. if i wanted

 to be a slut, i could.  its about falling

 in love.  lets pretend that the term

"gay" doesnt exsist.   sometimes u fall

in love with someone, and u

dont know how.  maybe its b/c u

love being with them, or, i dont know. 

 it just happens.  u cant help who u fall

in love with.  somehow, it just happens.

the circle is

never broken;

just smaller in

circumfrance

at times.

HOLY SHIT, ITS BEEN A WHILE!!!!

so what ups everbody,

yes, its me.  wow, a months

 vacation from xanga, and the stories

i have are even more unreal than before.

1) to all who know me and can

 here this song, no i didnt turn

gangsta, i just heard this song, and 

it brought back a few

 memories.   haha,

u have to admit, this song is

fucking good.

okay children, lets start from the beginning.  well, actually, thats a long time ago, so let me just give u the highlights.  halloween was awesome.  if any of u know phillip, aka www.xanga.com/the_fractured_poet , u prolly saw pictures of me as a club kid.  yes thats right, move over michael alig, the boys are back in town.  

fast forward>>>>

fast forward>>>>

fast forward>>>>

ok, thanksgiving, BLAHfuckingBLAH.  well, actually the turkey was awesome, and who doesnt love spending time with the family. the weird thing about thanksgiving is, i spent it with an old friend, alex, u might have heard of him from previous blogs.  it wasnt weird or ackward like i thought it would be either. 

random trips to random states is always a good experience.  i guess me and dee dee will really never know what the veiw looks like from Mt. woodall.  but, the A&W, yum!!!

christmas fever has yet to begin

again.  i truly do love the holiday

days.  but, doesnt it just make u sick

when corporate assholes wear it

out before it even get here.  

maybe its just me, but christmas

seems to start earlier and earlier every year.

well, im out, and hopefully, maybe

the next blog wont be a month away.

stay fly

whats up bitch's?!?!  ok, so i havent posted in a while. i know, i know, lazy, right?

i miss my phil baby so much.  phil, i love u.  incase no one knew, me and phil are getting married, wheter he wants to or not. 

this weekend should be fun. well, lets hope so.  i dont know what i am worried about,  good times with friends, always a blast!!! 

oh, yeah, candace, just to let u know, u r loved by so many ppl. we r all praying for u.  dont worry about anything.

cody, this is for u, i left u out of the last one. i love u too.

well, bye skanks

mr. gloria

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
And you know you're never sure
But your sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

i know phillip was expecting someting else for a post, but this song and lyrics spoke to me. i just had to put it up.