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wow..its been forever

i cant remember the last time i was 132 hah

so to recap: 

lost weight down to 120(about a year ago)

got into meth and down to 107   

stopped, back up to cw:121

started college. not lovin it.

     how are you girls?

i miss everyone here.

im sorry i havent been comented on updating, ive just been busy with school and stuff.

things arent great, but they arent horrible either. im realizing even tho sometimes i get incredibly depressed, its not every single day. and thats a start.

cw: 132?

muscle mass though. its soccer season. and yes, with my freshly dyed black hair and marlyn lip piercing..im going to play. varsity, of coarse.

im determined to get skinny. its not even an option, i hate food. its kinda disgusting.

 MODELS ARE HOT!!

send me some love..

 Ri

ps- thumbs up to oxycotton

The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthrone in your heart. This you will build your life by, and this you will become.- james lane allen

CW: 129 too much, but i feel thinner.

[so i havent updated/commented/.
i hope all of you or doing well tho]

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cocaine/meth + bi polar + obbsession with weight= bad? yes.

"I cant eat
I cant sleep.
I cant sleep
I cant dream..

Like drinking poison, like eating glass"

edit:

As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
then I feel pretty blissfully.

If life's not beautiful without the pain,
well I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again.

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