my last entry i said how i was so ready to go to college and i hadnt even graduated yet.  well i just got back from being on campus for a week (for the second time) with the team and some of my incomming freshies (heart you).  now i am mos def ready to get out of this small town and go to another. 

i wrote this song while i was there.....yes it is corny but im proud of it.

I lay awake thinking

You’re always on my mind

What if you were gone?

Would my life still have meaning?

(Chorus)

This wasn’t supposed to happen

It wasn’t supposed to last

You were just convenient

It all happened so fast

It was just a rebound fling

Not more than a week

All I wanted was free ice cream

I got my dream computer geek

(Chorus)

Outro

I got my punk rock boy

He’s got his punk rock girl

im out for now...ill talk to yall later

i am so ready for college.  i just got back from my messiah visit and i am so amped to go.  the only thing i will miss about this town are my friends and of corse the best thing that ever happened to me BRANDON!  the visit was a blast.  i saw people that i havent seen since a few summers ago at YFC summer camp (james, becky...)  im also so ready to play for the field hockey team.  they are soooooooo freakin good.  they've also asked me to coach at their summer camps.  yay.    i just cant stop smiling.  woo hoo for future plans and knowing what comes next. 

on a sadder note, we put my dog to sleep yesterday morning.  lance was my 17 year old puppy.  i dont remember ever not having him .  now i will have to get used to life without my "attack dog".  tear. 

thats it for now....Renee

its a snow day so i thought i would update.  well, brandon is not allowed to c me for a week.  life is boreing right now cuz i cant do anything without missing him.  im not even allowed to call him.  . 

im going to messiah for a visit thursday and friday.  boub and i are going to meet with coach trapp about playing for her and money and stuff.  its going to be a good time.  i think were even going to be sittin in on some college classes. 

but the plan for tonight is to pick up the ring brandon got me for valentines day!.  im so excited i finally get it back and get to wear it around and show it off.  yay for me. 

i love field hockey, dont get me wrong, it gets me through many days.  im just sick of all the baggage that goes along with it.  i even love all my teamates, as hard as it may be to believe, i love them all.  i've just warn myself out trying so hard for so long.  it seems like no matter what i do its never good enough for one person or another.  im excited about my sport.  im even excited that im playing next year in college, Go Messiah College Falcons.  i love the sport that drives me crazy.  haha.  i guess im just phsyco.  oh well, ill get over it. 

life is good.  i've got great friends, family and the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for.  thanks everyone for being there when im grouchy or irratible.  i know im not the nicest person to be around after a loss, but thank you for being there anyway.  MWFH forever .

as of wednesday night at 720 pm the Blue Mustangs won the SPORTS ZONE CHAMPIONSHIP.