| Now that I realize everyone do something for a purpose...the purpose for their own good...
I put my effort, time, and my heart out to help when she needed...
Afterall, they are just lies which does not required any of that..
When trouble comes, I'll be the best guy in her world..
Once troubles are gone, I am the nobody in nobody's world..
And afterall, I am just her friend..i have no obligation to do all those...i did it because I cared..
Once, twice, 3 times.....how many times do I have to face such situation...
Why can't people treasure ..when there's still someone willing to put his heart out to treat them..
I think I have the right to say.....It's a little disappointed in this world and people nowadays...
Maybe all along you just wanted to teach me a lesson...to be selfish and not caring about others as long as it doesn't concern my own well being.. or i'll be the one that get hurt...
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| That's why
Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
* REPEAT CHORUS
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore
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| 20082008 seems like really not a good year for me....
Today I got 1st midterm of the year back...didn't fail it..but below class avg...
haven't had such feeling since gr10...from top of the class..now at the bottom...that feeling ain't good..
but who's to blame..i know i didn't study or even learn well...cuz i spent all my time partying drinking and having "fun" move on to love...now dating is like playing mind game...perhaps..hide and seek!? I always try to know and find what the other is hiding from me...in conclusion...no trust..no faith.. the only thing that keeps me feel real secure is to handcuff her to me.. what's the point of dating then!? failing a relationship and school is sad enough...but i also fail to manage my own money now....spending too much to get "happiness" i guess?! geez...what am i becoming to now?!
how I wish that i can cry it out now....but there just isnt any tears to squeeze out....im tired of this game...when is it gonna to end?
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| meIt's so hard to be someone else!! When will these come to an end!???
I just want to go back to who I was..and get back the lifestyle I had! How much can I pay to get back all these!? Why is it so hard to adjust to new life...
I laugh with tears dripping...i have things that other people wanted but also the most emptiness feeling..
If you give me one wish..you can either bring me back to 4 years ago...or bring me out of this transition period..
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| Feb.22.200822nd ...a number that I've loved and hated...
22nd ...a day had brought me happiness and pain..
Last night was the 22nd on a Friday, the 40th 22nd I've been through since that day..
I stayed at home and reflect on my past...
I know there is only one path for me to go...
I know it's over... and everything is just the memory..
I don't know what happen to my confidence...my great goals and my way of doing things..
School marks this term....shit...
I don't even know what am I doing...
weekend activities now...clubbing...drinking....hea....
no point...no goal.....feel like shit...n being shit..
"the sunny sky is just the reflection on the water"
I just hope my hard work and effort I have put on her...is worth it
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