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Sunday, July 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:30:17 GMT

Back from Honduras. I'll write a few of my journal entries.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:03:11 GMT

So I'm starting my 3rd week. at Lion's Camp. I had a really tough first 2 weeks. I think the first week was hard mainly because I didn't know what was going on. I hadn't been trained in camp stuffs and handicaps. Now I'm much more acquainted with my job.

I think the problem was that I walked in the door and I hear "and that must be Chris K. He will be sleeping here."
I knew enough to speak up: "But that's where the wing leader sleeps!"
Chris H: "And he will be our wing leader!"

I think things didnt start looking up until I got the hang of how the week goes and what kind of paperwork i was in charge of exactly. Now that it's all sorted out in my mind the weeks are pretty standard. Oh except that I had 12 kids in my wing last week. I think they were the worst campers possible to have together. Don't get me wrong, they are wonderful kids. I've never met a really bad kid, but you know how you can't put some kids in the same room? Let me put it this way. This is the first time I've had a child run himself over with someone's electric wheelchair and break the chair. Last week was crazy. And therefore now, I'm burnt out for this week. But... things can only look up from here. some time off, some rest -- things will be peachy.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 12:40:01 GMT

So today finishes my first week at Lion's Camp. Things have gone well. I'll write more later. I'm off!

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Sat, 31 May 2008 04:25:38 GMT

I don't want to be so... vague and illusive to my xanga. Especially in times of facebook, people seem so flakish and shallow, but in reality, I've done a bit of growing. I don't share here because it's not for everyone to read. There is a place and a time, and also I censor my life story but do my best not to exchange it for pointless crap.

So today, I wanted to share about an experience I've been having. The only problem is that a few are too personal. RECweek, though personal, it is well. I'm excited about next year. You should be too!

People are worried. I think the biggest concern is that we're not fake. I care about people. People in general, yes. But that does not negate that i care about the person! The biggest issue with NSO is that it comes off as not caring for the person? No! that's why... that's where AFC proves how different it really is. Is it one of two religious organizations in good standing with Baylor? Lets not stop caring.

Lastly, before I part with some vague vagueness that I always do:
I enjoy bike riding with my friends. It helps my imagination. Bike gangs, and hideouts. That's what I'm all about.

[Edit11:30AM] If this makes no sense, note the timestamp. It's just that people are scared that the plan AFC has will facilitate nothing but "organization" when we're really about caring for the individual. I guess I could have said it in 2 sentences the other one being "I'm excited!"

Monday, May 26, 2008

Mon, 26 May 2008 12:30:44 GMT

So back in January I ordered an m1330. My old computer had a 20.1" monitor hooked up to it. Going from a 20" monitor to a new 13" toy isn't too bad. But 5 months later going from a 13" toy back to a 20" monitor on the toy... it's weird. I feel like I'm looking out a window instead of into a box.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Sat, 24 May 2008 01:24:01 GMT

I'm here. I just don't want to write when I'm down. This week has been good. RECweek has been good. Oh. I've loved every moment since finishing finals. Beforehand things were crazy. God's been good. Hopefully I understand what's to come in light of his grace and mercy.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Mon, 12 May 2008 13:42:34 GMT

So, I'm halfway done with finals. Yes, only halfway. But to be honest I started on Saturday, 2 days later than everyone else, and I also finish today. So, yeah.

This year's been good. I wish I had done better but I succeeded in getting a 3.5... I think, hopefully. I probably just jinxed myself (though i don't believe in any superstition, God could be after my pride).

I miss writing about things. Music has been on my mind along with Traveling to Europe, dreading Spanish, loving hispanics, money problems, and oh yeah -- the dream I had. It was a wacky dream. I don't know if I told you, my main xanga listeners. Actually, I know I haven't. I think it will have to stay that way for about another week too. Enough procrastination! I must prepare for final 3 and 4.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Sun, 04 May 2008 17:44:09 GMT

There are a few things I don't understand about my self after this semester.

...Like why I can prep for my paper 2 weeks in advance and still think about writing it in 24 hours. At least it should be easy.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:48:16 GMT

So today... Yesterday... Whenever it happened I'm feeling a little better. I been reflecting plenty on Plato's Republic. Socrates divides the person into 3 parts -- spiritual, physical, and mental. I think it's incredible the way I've been learning that even though they may be three ideas, we are still one person. And that being said, God created us as an incredible individual. God created us wholly. Each three part is integral to who we are. We are the integrity of these three parts. The self influences them regardless and they influence the self-perception.

What I mean by all that, simply put: emotions these past two weeks have run high. It's important to be prepared spiritually to address these and dangerous to think of them as separate entities. Emotional problems can afflict my walk with God. Just like a good friend of mine's physical lack of energy and mental stamina affects her walk.

I think sleeping so much earlier this week was me knowing to reboot... hit the reset button. I'm lucky to have needed it on just about the only week I could.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 02:14:44 GMT

I've been running dangerously low on... different things.
Self-esteem, energy, strength, for starters.
It's like something just sucked the life out of me about a week and a half ago.

Sleep... low on sleep is normal... but sleeping 23/48 hours is not normal to catch up. I think I have sleep troubles. I'm pretty sure actually. I just don't sleep right. It's an excuse to get me back in shape though. More exercise equals better sleep. Better sleep equals more energy. More energy equals better time spent.

I think I'm decently aware on the spiritual realm but these things can cut into the way I think. These things did cut in last week... Life is tough.