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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 04:26:33 GMT

I was ten..maybe 11 i don't know, but i'm sure know that i was in Korea, and i was with her. i can still remember her face. Sometimes, i hate studying so much that i kinda (?) ran away from home and stayed in the play ground the whole day. i don't know what i was thinking, i mean, i was little and it's too early to think about those stuffs. anyway, while i was lay down or playing toys in the play ground, a girl just came to me and say "hey jinsu, do u wanna come to my birthday party?". okay, well, first of all, how did she know my name and second, how do i even know her well enough to get invited to her birthday party? it was so random that i couldn't even say anything but "uhhh....uh......". then she looked kinda upset because i didn't say anything, and then she left me by myself. later that night, when i came back from the playground, of course, i got yelled by my parents, then i went to my room, sat in the chair, put my arms on the desk and thinking..."WHO WAS IT? "...i was thinking so hard that i sat in the chair for an hour and half min.. i never ever sat in the chair for more than a half min. it was.. miracle to me. miracle to everyone who knows me. anyway..next day, i went to the school, i was having fun with my friends as usual and guess what? nothing happened..well, then later that night, i went to the playground just in case if she was there or not, and yes she was, she was sitting in the bench and crying......i was kinda scared so i ran away...after a few weeks later , i found out that her mom died by a car accident that night she was crying. so..i figured she was crying because her mom died...or she was crying because.. i didn't go to her birthday party. and now, i realized that she knew me all the time in the school, my friends told me that she liked me..and because of my stupidity, i didn't realize she was around me...it was like air around me which i can't feel it, and now i realized how much air was important to me, just like she was important......so you know, Somewhere, there is someone who dreams of your smile and finds in your pressence that life is worthwhile. So when you are lonely, remember it's true; somebody, somewhere is thinking of you....anyway, that was my story, a piece of my life...

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:44:39 GMT

someday i will become an engineer and working with a bunch of smart people, and someday, i will get married with a girl who can trust me more than anyone else in the world, and someday, i will have my children who will look up to me and say "we need money to buy cars". and someday, i will be sitting on the chair and looking back all the memories i have spent with my friends, family. and someday, i will realize that how important and necessary to live this life, and how miserable would my life be without any problems, happiness, terrible happenings...the truth is..at the moment you are having problems with your life, you obviously aren't happy, but..when you look back and think about those moments after years later, you might realize that those moments are something that build your life continuously. we can't have just happiness in our life, we need to have problems, sadness. Just like to make a healthy tree, not only sunshine but it needs rain, wind, and snow to be grown up...that's same as our lives. we can't have just happiness in our lives..we may have problems... ...

-Jinsu's thoughts-....oh by the way...happy birthday Jinsu....

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 22:06:28 GMT

People start to blame on God because He didn't give what you asked for...but the truth is..He already gave you a "Life"....that's a gift no one can give you except Him

sometimes, I don't thank to God when I'm doing well, but i look for God when i need his help...yes, that who we are, humans...and that could be the one reason why i hate to be a human being.

-Jinsu's thoughts-

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 11:08:45 GMT

paraphrasing what Senator John Kerry said : "Anyone whose out there fighting for our nation is an idiot. And we, homies, who don't even know how to use a gun are intelligent...".....very interesting comment by Mr. Kerry.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 23:24:47 GMT

self-respect..yes that's what i need. I'm a coward..well. i'm not really scared of any object but..i'm scared of being an asshole...i always try to go to an easy way, try not to make people mad, try not to complain anything to anybody(i even don't complain to a cook if there is a bug on my food..hate to get complicated)..try not to make any trouble......some people say it's good that i have a GOOD PERSONALITY, but i think that is the weakness of me. like..how am i going to survive out there at the different environment, society if i don't want to argue with anybody? my mom always had told that i have a lack of self-respect..i couldn't say anything back to her because...it's right......it's sooo true that..i had to look at her eyes for a long time.....that is all i have to say today..

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 16:14:40 GMT

now, i need to take some new classes for next semester. and i either want to take "World Religion" or "Philosophy:Persons, moral values, and good life" for the elective...i don't know which one will be good for me..need some advice, humans.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 18:41:57 GMT

Life is like an onion, you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep. -Carl Sandburg-

Sometimes, i hated my life so bad that i hitted on the wall with my fist as hard as i could, of course, i get blood on my hand. sometimes i hated my life so bad that i had to take a nap for hours to relax myself. it seems like i have a serious problem but it's so true that i can hate my life that bad. My life never was easy. Today is the day that i felt like that i'm thinking about 50 millions thingg at the same time. If God wants to give me one of superpowers, i would like to ask him to give me wisdom....the smartest man alive....i call that a super power. yeah..you think i'm an idiot....

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 15:01:38 GMT

i hated to study something when i was in high school, so, i never studied for anything except, Mr.Barrick's physics class. honestly, i never studied for my calculus exam when i was in high school..

now, studying is one of my priorites. i have to study for every classes that i'm taking, not because i'm in the "college", but because i need to understand the concepts . you see, i didn't really need to study to understand all that junks from high school classes, but now, it's different..totally...but on the other hand, i kinda like to study what i'm interested in.

my freshman year in college was a disaster. I can even make a chart that numbers of parties versus number of GPA, it was an indirect relationship between them, the more you drink, GPA will be decreasing. so, GPA for my freshman year was terrible, and now, i realized something that i didn't think of off my head last year. i'm going to spend 4 years in a college, and i'm going to spend about 60 years outside the college. And those 60 years, i won't be able to study since my brain got tired, but i can drink, have party, smoke shits in those 60 years. So, why don't i concentrate on studying in these 4 years of a college, and do "good stuff" after those years? so i tried not to go to many parties as possible as i can. i give up a little amount of time to get more than a half of my life to enjoy myself...my theory does make sense.....

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 22:22:37 GMT

I'm like a falling star who has finally found her place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever. -Amy Tan-

Good quote from Amy Tan....That's all i have to say for today......

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 16:14:42 GMT

Things changed. I did not wish them to be changed, but they did , just like the color of leaves on the tree in each season of the year. I have been gone thru so many problems between family, friends. sometimes i had to lose sometimes they had to give up but all these problems that ihad to face with changed me...in good ways....i started to think alot about people around me even people i don't even know....

i was thinking about the length of our lives...averagely it's only 70 years. earth is now about 4.57 Billion years old. now, question is.....is it worth of trying to make something better for our world during this short period of time just like Albert Eistien or Thomas Edison?...or..does it have to be better? ...Adolf Hitler was a bad guy, but the truth is...everyone knows him and remembers hiim as a "Leader"....now, i believe He might be a better person than a person who does nothing but being as the dishwasher for entire his life..........