you love me not...

i guess this will be my last entry, so i'll make it a good one.

went to homecoming this weekend with John. was amazing. had a blast. kinda feel wierd now about it though. i want to be friends, but i also get the feeling he want's to be more. and i sometimes get the same feeling... but i'm probably too much for him.

tore the shit outta my lip today third hour. have a hole in my lip. fainted in the bathroom at school. broke down and cried durring lunch. had to take stupid Plan test today. firmly decided to leave NE. and i don't care if i stay the rest of the year.

that's all.

goodbye nobody.

welp, i think i'm leaving. no one comments, so i think i'm just gonna leave. if you want me to say comment me. if you don't that's fine, i don't give a fuck anymore. i don't really need xanga anyway.

Currently Listening Life on the Murder Scene By My Chemical Romance see related

not that anyone cares, but i'll write anyway.

this week has been hell.

i seriously think i'm going fail science. i do. no matter how hard i study, nothing ever sticks into my head. and he is just way to...picky and organized that i can't keep up. x.x

i had a brake down yesterday and today in science. yesterday i actually fainted. i was getting up last night and i walked into the kitchen because i was hungry, and all of a sudden i woke up and i was on the floor and my thumb was bleeding profusely (i had a knife in my hand to cut some mellon and when i fell it must have cut me) and i have had a headach for about seven hours today and no pills are helping. >.<

my mom is going in tomorow to set up a time for her surgery.

i guess that's all.

bye bye.

i'm tired.

i had a busy weekend.

me and my mom went to P.F. Chang's. that was yummy. then we went to Borders and i got a bunch of new manga, Shojo Beat My Chemical Romance's My Life on the Murder Scene. it came with two DVD's (which includes three of their music videos) and a live CD. it rocks hard ass.

had an awsome kick ass dream last night. made me feel really happy... and i can't escape that feeling...it's driving me insane.

my mom is having surgary again on the same knee. i'm extreamly worried, she didn't do very well last surgary and the med. that they gave her is doing shit. i'm really worried, she's in constant pain and idk what to do to make her feel better...

welp, i think i'm gonna go to bed. night night

hmm...

intresting feeling...

i'm happy, yet sad all at the same time.

it's wierd.

but call me this weekend, i will be bored outta my mind. i don't have anything too do.

cell#: 519-2076 (i'm almost outta minutes, though so if you call and i don't answer, i'll probably call you back from the home phone)

dad#: 682-7086

PLEASE CALL!!!!!!!