Changachu says:
i just had an epiphany
Adam says:
oh yeah? and what would that be?
Changachu says:
i'm going through and deleting everything thing that reminds me of kenji. pictures, xanga posts etc
Changachu says:
i wasted 4 years of my life with an arrogant asshole who treated me like an object
Changachu says:
and i put up with it.
Changachu says:
the more i think about it. the more i realize that i hate him.
Changachu says:
and i hope he burns in hell
Adam says:
*sigh of content*
Adam says:
you don't know how glad I am to hear that
Changachu says:
and i also realized that i was never happy with him the way i said i was
Changachu says:
i never was in love with him.
Changachu says:
i only said that just to keep him around. which knowing what i know now, i can't remember why.
Changachu says:
and now, i couldn't care less
Adam says:
It was never my place to tell you to stop talking to him.  That was for you to do.
Changachu says:
well i did stop talking to him for while.
Adam says:
I would never have asked you to do it either, because then I would be no better than him.
Changachu says:
and the last time i talked to him, which i mentioned to you, i just wanted some questions answered before i completely cut him out of my life
Changachu says:
and he never said he was sorry.
Changachu says:
i was never happy with him. or in love with him.
Changachu says:
and i wasted 4 years.
Changachu says:
no, i didn't waste
Adam says:
it wasn't a waste.....
Changachu says:
i just spent 4 years in a completely miserable relationship.
Changachu says:
and i couldn't be happier for what it taught me
Adam says:
or as dane cook would call it.. a "relationshit" =P
Changachu says:
haha
Changachu says:
it certainly was.
Changachu says:
he didn't make me happy the way you do. he didn't even give a damn about what i had to say.
Changachu says:
it was all about him the entire time
Changachu says:
and now, he has nothing
Changachu says:
he lost the best damn thing that ever happened to him, and he'll never get it back
Adam says:
now I have it^^
Adam says:
teehee
Changachu says:
hehe
Changachu says:
yes you do.
Adam says:
because I certainly think you are the best thing to happen to me in a long time.
Adam says:
=)
Changachu says:
=)
Changachu says:
you are too.
Changachu says:
and i'm genuinely happy with you.
Changachu says:
and i couldn't ask for anything more.
Adam says:
cept diamond earrings and a matching necklace. and maybe a ring =P
Changachu says:
haha
Changachu says:
well, those are optional
Adam says:
hehe
Adam says:
okay
Changachu says:
*happily deleting xanga posts*
Adam says:
=)

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Above was a Window's Live conversation with my wonderful bofriend. And I meant everything that I said.

“Death for Love”

    In the darkness of the night I could see him staggering through the bushes. The crimson ribbon flowing from him was soaking into and intertwining with every last fiber of his shirt. Maybe it was the icy gaze with those glistening, gorgeous, blue eyes that made me shiver, or maybe it was the bitterness of his heavy breaths. Whatever it was, it made me fall in love with him even more. As he caressed my cheek with his deathly cold hands, and swiped his thumb to rid the salty sparkle in my eye, he whispered in his low raspy voice, his breath warmly grazing my ear, “He’s gone sweetheart.” For the longest time, I thought those words would give me the ultimate satisfaction. Alas, I wanted more. I wanted him; though I could see in his eyes he did not love me back.

    As I ran my hands along his body, I felt a break in his skin. A small circle of where metal fire pierced his gorgeous chest right through to where my heart lies, in his. Minutes seemed like hours as he held me close, nuzzled against the crook of his neck. His scent would have sent any girl running towards him; it shot me straight up to heaven. It was divine; so pure and sweet.

    When I looked up he fell limply to the ground. No, this can’t be! Salty streams came flowing from my eyes. I laid my ear against his chest, listening to the rhythm of his life draining away. ‘Lub,’ I need to tell him. ‘Dub,’ I have to tell him. ‘Lub,’ is this all worth it? ‘Dub,’ or is this all for nothing? I cupped his cheek in my hand and looked into those glimmering, ice blue eyes. “I love you.”

    As he exhaled his last warm breath of life, stammering as if he wanted to prolong this moment, he parted his lips and all the sound that came from his beautiful voice was, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”


    4:21 A.M. Flat line.

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Wow, I haven't written like that in a long time.

Grace Chang has a new title of Battalion Executive Officer.
For those who don't know military terms, that's third in command of everything.
However, she does have seniority over second in command, so technically, she is second in command.

And even after a year of absence, she still has respect.

Damn, I'm good.