Hello everybody. It's been a long time.

It's been 9 months since the last entry. A lot happened since then. I got my first child. Hahahaha just kidding.  But it's such a cool thing to say.

I logged on to xanga to see if anybody still uses it and I only saw two people using it. Hahaha.  So I decided to write an entry which can be my last xanga entry ever. How sad.

Before I start, I have to brag to Cakalusa cause he's probably the only one who reads this anyway. This following paragraph is for you Chris.

I visited my HS last year and I met my 2-time math teacher, Mr. Basil. I was surprised that he still remembers my squential 3 math regents grade, which was 100!!! The best part was that the next day he told his students that his "FAVORITE" student visited and he described me as "The person who got 100 on sequential 3 math regents without using a calculator". Muhahaha. And I should also mention that I was the first one to finish it too. Muhahaha He said "favorite" Chris!! Not you, not Ricky, but ME!! Muhaha

Anyway, college is not as fun anymore. I don't dorm anymore so I've been commuting. Also many of my friends graduated and I'm little too old to make new friends. Sometimes, I find myself eating by myself in the middle of a big foodcourt. Very depressing.  Well, only 7 more credits. I think I can survive.

I don't think I have much of social life anymore. It's always school, work, poker, and drinking. I even thought about trying the online dating. I was only a few clicks away from registering before I realized how sad it is to sign up.

Why am I so desperate to find a mate? It's because when I was young, I always thought I'll be married by mid 20. Well, I'm not so young anymore, am I? I'm turning 24 this year. It feels like I turned 20 last year. Many people say "You go to college, graduate, get a job, get married, have kids....." STOP! right there! graduate, get a job, get married. I'll be graduating soon and probably get a job right after. Then what's my next step? Yes, get married. I'm telling you people, it's around the corner for all of us, Unless you are still in junior high or already married.

So Tommy, what are you gonna do when you graduate? I applied for an internship at Estee Lauder for next semester. If I get accepted into that, it'll be a very big step towards my career. I'll get a good experience and they might even offer me a job after, which is what I'm really hoping for.

Almost every night, I drive to a nearby 7 Eleven to pick up some beers. Every night-shift worker knows me. It's like knowing me is a part of the trainning. When I come in, they always say something like, "Hey my friend. How are you?", "No (debit) card today?", "Oh you are buying expensive beer today", "Wow you are buying a lot today", "Do you drink every day? By youself?"...  It's probably bad if the 7 eleven cashier worries about you.

I used to envy people who says, "No, I got this. I get paid more than you." Now that I make some money, I started to say that. The problem is, it's such a good reason that noone rejects my offer. I end up spending too much money on other people.

Well, enough about me. Who cares. Haha. I know you guys are here to read my random thoughts anyway.

You know when you take a hard class and look back at it after, it seems easier? That happens to me a lot. While I'm taking it, it seems impossible but when I look back maybe a year later, it makes more sense and you start to wonder why you got C+ in that class.

So I was thinking, why don't we teach college level from elementary school and keep on teaching the same thing each year? First grade will be hell but it'll get better each year, even though it's exactly the same material.

Adam's apple... why is it Adam's apple. Eve ate it too.

Girls can get in shape by just losing weight. Guys can't be fat, can't be skinny. They need to work out on top of  the diet and running. Maybe that's why a lot of guys don't even try.

You know what? I can't think of anymore random stuff and I already wrote too much anyway. So I'm just gonna sum it up now. You thought I was gonna let you get away without casino and poker talk, didn't you? I can't do that. It's a big part of my life. But it's very boring so I'll leave it at the very end of the entry. Read it if you have too much time to waste.

Thank you for reading my entries and in case I never come back, have a great life and you guys have been a great audience. Always think creatively and try to make the best out of what you got. Take care of yourself. Goodbye.

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It is my dream to become a professional poker player and I'm not gonna give up without a fight. So I'm in a process of trainning myself for the WSOP and/or WPT. Many people who plays poker with me on regular basis tells me that I improved greatly over the year and that I'm a good player. But that's not enough for me. I need to succeed among the pros, not the amateurs. Anyway long story short, I played many tournaments in Atlantic City and I've been doing good. I even won a tournament with over 70 people and cashed out more than $1000. I know I can't stop now. I need to swim in a bigger pool to get better. Next week, I'm entering one of the 16 events at the World Poker Tour Borgata Winter Open. I don't think I can win or even go close to it. But I know I need this experience to prepare and make myself a better player. Wish me luck, even though the luck is only a small part of it.

Hello world. And when I say world I mean 13 of you who still use xanga.

How are you? It's been a while. I'm not even sure if anyone is still subscribed to my xanga.Then why am I taking my time to write this? I guess it's for my own record and memory. It's pretty fun to re-read my own entry after a year or so.

Let me update you guys with my last 5 months. A lot of work and gambling. Little bit of school.

I probably went to casino more than 15 times over the last 5 months. How did I do? I think I'm about even. The most of the time, I went to atlantic city, especially the Borgata. When I go to a casino, I spend the most of my time and money on poker. When I play poker at a casino, I don't drink. I take it seriously.

I try to drink after playing poker. But free heinekens are soooo tempting.... One thing that pisses me off about AC is that they got 7-Eleven on every block but none of them can sell beer. What the hell is the point of 7-Eleven if you can't buy beer 24/7.

I've won many times in a casino but whether I win or lose, I always realize that the most definite and secure way to win money is by working. So you might ask why I gamble so much. It's because I work too much. I don't do anything for fun. I don't really expect to win when I go to casino. I think of it as a vacation. Ever since I stopped drinking and driving, my social life ended.

How's work? It's still the same. Babysitting... No, my job is not babysitting. I'm the coordinator of IKEA Food Service, Bistro, to be specific. But I think of it as babysitting because I work with a bunch of teenagers and they can be so dumb and immature.

Ikea has a slogan for their employees. "IKEA. It's more than just a job. It's a life." It's pretty scary to think that my only life is IKEA. I better go out more no matter how tired I am.

My life felt like it's going in a circle. I wanted to see some kind of progress in my life. So I decided to grow something. I cut a pepper, took the seeds out, and planted it. I was very surprised to see that it actually worked. I started to call myself Dr. Pepper. That nickname died in 2 weeks along with my pepper plants.

Well anyway, What's the fun of my entry without my random thoughts? So here are my random thoughts.

Tostitos has a new kind of dip and it's a spinach dip. I tried it and I liked it. I hope they don't discontinue it like they did with the Salsa Verde flavor Pringles and Burger King's jalapeno poppers. I would pay more than triple the price to get those pringles and poppers back.

Does a doctor need a doctor's note to be excused from work?

When we watch an old movie, we can tell that it's old by the quality of the film. In the future, lets say in the year 2100, would people be able to distinguish the movie made in 2020 and in 2090?

I love the snooze buttone. I think it's one of the greatest invention ever. I wonder who invented it. I wonder if the inventor was a morning person. I wonder how it was when the idea was first introduced.

I can picture a guy in an office. He was always late to work and noone liked him. Everyday the boss would yell at him for being late and he would say "I accidently turned off my alarm clock...". I can picture him telling his idea in front of his boss saying, "...and this way, people can get that extra 7 minutes of sleep."  I bet it wasn't a beautiful site.

I hate the drive thru. Most of the time, the menu is located at the same spot where you order. As soon as you get to the menu, you hear "Welcome to McDonalds. May I take your order?" Now you are left with only two choice. Order the same thing that you order everytime or take your time and choose. I'm the one who orders the number 2 everytime. I can't handle the pressure because I know the car behind me is waiting as the cashier inside the building is also waiting.

But sometimes what I order is not available. That's when I get nervous and the anxiety kicks in. The pictures from the menu fly all over my mind and I can't settle with one. I always end up ordering some stuff that I hate and end up throwing them out.

Good thing the Subway restaurant don't have a drive thru because I would always end up with a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

That's all everyone. You've been a great audience. Take care and enjoy your life because the life is way too short.

WARNING: This program contains language that is not suitable for young readers. Parental discretion is advised.

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Hello everyone~!!! Wow it's seems like it's been forever since I last updated. I know a lot of you missed my updates. Actually just 3 of you. Hahaha. Well here it is. Let me warn you right now that I'm gonna write A LOT because I won't update after this for a while.

I always dreamed about becoming a standup comedian but never tried to become one. A friend of mine told me that the best thing to do when you are depressed is to try something really new. Well, I decided to pursue my dream of becoming a stand-up comedian. Actually I decided it like 2 months ago but I didn't do jack shit about it. I know only like 2 of you will actually read the whole thing but whoever does, can you rate my standup comedy skill in scale of 10. But don't rate it if you don't read the whole thing because some materials are good and some are not. Thanks.

So, what did I do for the last two months or so? Well, I worked and went to school but mostly I drank and slept a lot.

I've noticed that I have very weird sleeping habits. In my freshman year, I fell off from my bunk bed once and ever since then, I stick to the wall when I sleep. But recently, I noticed more weird stuff. Many days I wake up and see that my blanket is turned 90 or 180 degrees. Well, you might say that's not so weird but once it was turned inside out. It's not only the blanket rotation that worries me. Some mornings I wake up with cuts and bruises. It's really weird because I'm a very light sleeper.

Enough about my sleeping habits. Nobody cares anyway. Hahaha. I've been watching the tv a lot recently. Usually, I just tune into the Comedy Central and watch standup comedies, mad tv or something like that. Have you guys ever watched comedy central in the 4 in the morning? Every other commercial that they show is the "Girls Gone Wild". They play it so much that I know which girl's gonna come out on each clip. Have you guys ever thought about how girls would feel when they see these commercials?? Well I think I know how they would feel. Once I saw a commercial for "Guys Gone Wild". It was very disturbing in many ways.

When you watch the tv that late at night, you get to see a lot of infomercials. You know, those long as commercial that tries to sell you something that you don't need. But you gotta be careful. They are very convincing. "Wow, A flash light that never dies. I can carry that everywhere I go and use it everytime I want without worrying about the battery running out." Like you gonna carry a flash light anywhere you go. "Mr. Lee what's that thing in your pants?", "Uhm... flash light..."

If you keep watching those commercial they brainwash you into buying one. If you don't need it, you better change the channel right away because they will get you. "If you call now, we'll double double this offer and throw in shipping and handling for absolutely free. That's $75 value for free. So what Are you waiting for???" "Yeah Why am I waiting for?? I should really buy this." But then you sober up for a second and realize that you don't need a super vacuum because you don't have home. But here is the most dangerous part that they do to make you stop from thinking. "But wait, if you call within 5 minutes, we'll give you a MacGyver's pocket knife for absolutely free." They put a time limit so you don't have the time to think whether you need it or not.

They always say it like you HAVE to call within that time. They say it like the phoneline only opens for that ten minutes. It's fucking 4 in the morning. If that's true, think about the poor operators who come to work 4 AM just to work for 10 minutes and wait till the next commercial. You know those time limit don't mean shit. When's the last time they didn't throw in an extra merchandise. "You'll never get a deal like this ever" My ass. They've been saying that everyday for the last 5 years or more.

In case you guys are wondering, I still sell hot dogs at Ikea. Hahaha. But I'm the second in charge now. So it's not that bad. I don't have to see the customers. I hate customers. "Oh why don't you have Sauerkrauts??", "Oh why don't you have cream for the coffee." "Well ma'am... it's because.. uhmm... IKEA IS A FUCKING FURNITURE STORE!!!!" Gosh they complain so much. You are buying a hot dog for 50 cents. You should be happy that we provide you with ketchup, mustard, and napkins.

All of us have an experience of dropping a food at a restaurant. At burger places, they stack up the fries and sometime they fall off the tray. I understand that it's the employee's fault. Customer deserves another one. I don't understand how I give a customer ONE fucking hot dog and they drop it on the way to the table. Why the fuck should I give you another one? Matter of fact, you should pay us for giving us more shit to clean off the floor.

How's school? It's great. 12 credits. No pressure. I have a test once a month. Very relaxing. People tell me "Tommy, you never study but get good grades." Well first of all, buddy, I don't get good grades. That was only my first semester in college. Secondly, I do study. It's just that I know how to study effectively. Many people go online and say stuff like "Ohh I really have to study but I can concentrate" or "I'm too tired to study." Alright here is the secret. DON'T STUDY WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT. You might say, "I NEVER EVER feel like studying." I disagree. Every time I have an exam coming up, I just relax and wait till I feel like studying. Usually the change of mind don't happen until the day before the test. While you are watching the tv or something, you hear a small voice inside of you saying "I'M FUCKED....." Then all of sudden you feel like studying, wishing you had more time to study. You'll get an incredible energy that will give you a superhuman studying skill. It's like the adrenaline that animal gets when they feel endangered. Maybe it is the adrenaline.

I drink a lot. People who drinks a lot knows that it's a problem but they still continues to drink a lot. But they just look for a reason to drink. I drink when I'm happy, sad, depressed, nervous, worried, or bored. When you think about it, that's everyday. Everyday you feel one of them. Therefore I drink everyday.

Few weeks ago, The day light saving time ended. We all got one extra hour of sleep. I thought it's kind nice. It's like putting money into the bank and taking it out when you need it. You take an hour of many boring hours in the summer and get it back when you are busy with school and work. I wish I can save like a day from the summer and get it back when I need it.

Well, That's all folks. I wonder how many of you actually read the whole thing. I hope you enjoyed reading it. And I hope I didn't waste your valuable time with my boring stories. Well Thank you all for reading and Have a great life~!!!!

Hey everyone.

Finally, the school started. I love it. I love everything about it. All of my classes seems easy and I have plenty of friends in each one of those classes. I'm only taking 12 credits. My single room is beautiful. I brought my 2003 civic to school. I'm really looking forward to this academic year.

Instead of giving you guys the usual nonsense, I'll tell you about my new classes. The first class is "Intermediate Korean". The first day of that class, I had to fake my korean skill because I didn't want her to think that I'm too good for that class and kick me out. So I pretended like I don't speak korean well. I was actually surprised how little of grammar and spelling I knew.

Then the next class is "Classical Mythology". I know at least 10 people in that class so I don't think I really need to go to that class. Hahahaha.

Next is "Inorganic Chemistry". This is the only hard class that I'm taking this semester. Well the first class wasn't that bad. You might say that all the first classes are easy. Well, no. When I took Physical chemistry, I was lost from the first 5 minutes and stayed lost throughout the whole year. My professor is not a fat guy. You can even say he's skinny. But his belly is huuuuge. He literally looks pregnant.

My last class is "Introduction to korean culture". The professor speaks very soft and his english isn't that great. Good thing about that class is that a good friend of mine is the TA.

Quote of the week: "Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the difficult may become easy." -Bill Blackman

Well that's all folks. I'll update you guys more next week. Have a great week.