SWEETS=EVIL

So sweets are definitely my biggest weekness.  Although I've been doing better than I have in the past, I need to find a way to limit myself.  Just one sweet thing per day seems impossible!  That is so sad!  I just get horrible cravings for sugary stuff...anything really.  Hmmm, I'll have to work on it.

The good thing is that I ate decently well today:

• Breafast: Bran Flakes with skim milk
• Snack: Cheezits and BBQ Lays
• Lunch: Smoothie with Protien
• Dinner: 6 Chicken Nuggets and a whole bunch of green beans
• Snack: 1 Chocolate chip cookie and some Mike and Ikes

Actually I did worse that I thought...hmmm...but I did do alot of working out today....I rode my bike up a mountain (60mins and 6 miles of straight up hill...then 10 minutes of downhill which doesn't count 'cause I wasn't doing anything)...then I also went to Water Polo practice, which was like a good 50 min of swimming around.

Today's Weight: 167.2....down 0.2!

I'm Back!

So I thought I would finally come back on here and update!  I weigh more!  Yay!  Not so much.  I had a really great summer in Bellingham, WA...I didn't worry about my weight very much there and it was a nice break...but now I'm back and ready to lose this weight before I graduate.  I am doing pretty good so far....my all time high of the summer was 175.0 ...YIKES!  Currently I am 167.4...so I've lost a little over 7 pounds since then.  I'm eating lots of veggies and trying to eat just healthy in general...not worrying so much about calorie count and stuff...If I get stuck, I'll start with the calorie counting.  I am exercising though...running like 4 days a week for at least 30 minutes and riding my bike when it's nice enough!

I came up with some goals where I give myself presents when I get there!  I even printed out pictures and wrote the goal weight on the pics so I can motivate myself real quick without even looking on the computer!

To sum it up:

Current weight: 167.4

Goal #1 : Under 165

I get new running shoes and a running jacket (It's getting cold here, and I run in the AM)

Goal #2 : Under 160

Two new shirts I've been drooling over...they are way cute

Goal #3 : Under 155

A new outfit...we'll see how much money I have...but I'm thinking the whole shabang..shoes, purse, bottom, top...

Goal #4 : Under 150

Really nice hair cut and color...I've never really gone to a "good" place, and I've never had professional highlights or color or anything!

Goal #5 : Under 145

Getting my belly button pierced...I've wanted to get this done since I was 16 when my friends did it...I always felt too fat to do it.  At this point I will be at an all time low...I don't remember ever being 145, not even in high school (I'm a senior in college right now)...I know I might be too old for this, but I just want to do it and feel sexy with it...and maybe if I have a boyfriend then he will like it?  Or maybe he'll hate it.  I don't know...this is more of just a meaningful one to me.

Goal #6 : Under 140

A IPOD video...or something equivalent...

I would love to be 140 by graduation on December 15th...but we'll see how this goes!

I hope all of you are doing well...I've been reading about you in my daily Xanga email!

Well, it's been awhile since I've been on here....And alot has happened.   I had my finals for school (which, with one more grade to come in, I have all A's...yay!), I moved out of my house at school back to my parents house, and I have gotten everything ready to leave for Washington.  I'm honestly really scared to go to Washinton.  I have never lived in another state before, and I've never been away from my parents for that long.  Yes I know that I am like 21 and this should be okay, but I'm really scared.  It isn't like college where you are going to a place where you are certain to find friends, or at least people to hang out with....this is like going to a place where I know absolutely no-one.  I really don't know why I'm so nervous though...I dunno, I just am.

Another thing...My weight this morning was 158.8!  The reason for this is that I have had a nasty sinus infection since friday night, so I haven't really been eating anything of major substance.  And I've been skipping meals, just because I haven't been hungry at all to eat.  So yeah...and I haven't been exercising due to the finals/sickness...but I think that will start up really soon.  I have 2 full days of driving to do, but the hotels we are staying at have exercise equipment, so maybe during the trip.  Also, after my sister flys home I will probably be really stinking bored and will go to the gym in my apartment complex to go workout all the time to keep myself busy...or at least that is my thought so far.  So yeah...and I don't know what the internet situation will be like up there, so it may be awhile before I post again...so yeah!  Hopefully I won't eat too much junk on the trip up there!

Hey....I did pretty well today!  I didn't really binge, or eat way too much of anything...moderation is the key!!  Also, I was down to 162.0 this morning...YAY!  That means I'm going back down again, finally.  I also ran for 42 minutes today (I was running with a friend, so I didn't do my dorky run around the block until it is an even 45 thing today).  She showed me an awesome trail that I will have to do the whole thing of (we only did part as my friend wasn't feeling well).  It is like mega uphill...great for butt and such.  Tomorrow morning I plan to go for another run in the early AM (like 6am).  I will save the uphill trail for Friday or Saturday to give my legs a chance to recover.

Ya know...you girls/women are awesome and I really appreciate all your comments and your Xangas.  I love having a place where I can be brutally honest and not worry about if I sound stupid or if I'm bragging or being overly emotional.

Hello all!  Guess what!  It is May already.  Holy Cow.  I leave for Washington in like 10 days!  Yikes.  Too bad I have finals between now and then.  In fact...I should be studying for the final I have tomorrow, but instead I am here! 

I saw the Ex boyfriend while walking to class today....twice.  I hadn't actually seen him in about 3 weeks.  And it was wierd...it was like saying hi to someone you met through someone else, so you aren't really friends, but you feel like you should say hi.  Weird seeing how he was my best friend 3 weeks ago.  Hmmmf.  Oh well I guess.  I'm going to Washington in 10 days!

And the weight loss thing.  I have been stuck at about 163.6 for the past week.  I haven't really been helping myself though, so at least I haven't gained.  But, this week it all changes.  I really really want to be in the 150's by the 9th when I see my old highschool friends.  I haven't seen them basically since I graduated from Highschool 3 years ago, and if I am in the 150's I will be 5 pounds give or take from the weight I was in highschool.  I just don't want to be the girl where people go "oh dear she has gained so much weight."  But I hope I get to see them more often in the fall semester...when I am skinny.  I know that I can do this, like today...I did so well.  I didn't count calories, but I didn't binge on anything, and I ate pretty healthy things.  I also weight lifted and did 1 hour on the elliptical.  So...May 1 will be the official new beginning.  The months of May, June, July and August are now official diet months.  Just 4 months of moderation.  While in Washington I will eat lots of Lean Cusines, and pack healthy lunches and eat healthy breakfasts, and take healthy snacks to work.  I am going to exercise regularly, because I'm pretty sure I am going to be bored, and my apartment complex has a weight room.  Instead of watching TV I'm going to take a book to the weight room, or maybe there is a TV there.  I just hope it is a nice weight room...otherwise I'm going to go get a gym membership for the 3 months I'm there (maybe one with a lap pool).  I also want to do some triathlons while there.  I've done 1 triathlon before, and I loved it...but the pictures I got back from it were disgusting...I looked huge!  I think other people thought I was fat too because they were all suprised when I kicked their skinny little butts (I got 17th out of 135 girls in my age group and 125th out of 2,500 women overall).  Anyways...yes...I am way motivated to lose weight right now.......To bad I'm not that motivated to study!