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| i know it's a day late, but mom sent me this picture that must be shared. when i think of halloween's past, this is the one that always comes to mind. best costumes ever...
and i had a sweet bowl cut. | | |
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Girls Just Want to Have Fun
By Sarah Jessica Parker, Lee Montgomery, Helen Hunt, Morgan Woodward, Ed Lauter, Jonathan Silverman, Holly Gagnier, Margaret Howell, Terence McGovern, Shannen Doherty, Biff Yeager, Kristi Somers, Ian Giatti, Richard Blade, Lee Arnone, Shaun Bryant, Charene Cathleen, Mark Caso, Deanna Shapiro, Candice Daly
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lately it seems that i'm always out of funny stories, profound insights, and life updates, but they say a picture is worth a thousand words. so here's a new 4000+ word entry for you. what better picture of my life at the moment than for you to meet my office, the place that i spend most of my time and use up most of my energy. yes, i know you're thinking how messy it is, but didn't someone once say that pure creative genious emerges out of pure chaos....or maybe that was just me. welcome to my world.
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To Catch a Thief
By Cary Grant, Grace Kelly, Georgette Anys, Brigitte Auber, Ren? Blancard, Jean H?bey, Jeanne Lafayette, Jessie Royce Landis, Donald Lawton, Jean Martinelli, Barry Norton, George Paris, Leonard Penn, Albert Pollet, Cosmo Sardo, Adele St. Mauer, Philip Van Zandt, Charles Vanel, John Williams (II)
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cary grant...i just haven't been able to get enough of his movies this summer. so charming. so witty. so suave. he always gets the girl and everything turns out exactly as planned, even if it takes a few twists and turns to get there.
twists and turns...i haven't been able to get enough of those this summer either. i've felt as if life is one big string of dominoes. one thing topples into another and then another, with no end in sight. and now it's august. for about 5 minutes this morning i thought the dominos had all fallen, but then the toppling continued. one big project or change or crisis just leads to another. it hasn't been all bad....just exhausting. the summer has been a massive dose of learning and living all rolled into one. being under pressure exposes the truth about a lot of things because there's no time to keep them hidden. passions, value of others, integrity, focus, lack of servant-heartedness, impatience. it's not so much about the twists and the turns, but more about the things exposed along the way. those are the real life projects and changes, the things that i never saw coming. at some points i've been proud for having lived up to who i've said that i am, and at others disappointed for so badly missing the mark. the beauty of exposure is that you can see things much more clearly, which then leaves no excuse for not making the needed changes.
speaking of changes....did you know that mr. grant changed his name. he was born archibald leach. i'd probably change my name, too. | | |
| toad suck this weekend...what what. it will make for some great stories. i'm sure of it. | | |
| 10 years ago today.
my scar and i have existed together for 10 years. it's a strange thing to have a scar on your chest that peaks out of the top of your shirts and bathing suit. the most fun we have together is what i refer to as "talking to the scar." it's when i'm having a conversation with someone and they can't stop looking at it. they get so distracted that they walk away without any idea what we've just talked about. the funny part is that it's not even an ugly scar, just a nice pink line.
10 years ago today i had open heart surgery to repair a hole that was in my heart. i was 16 and it was a big deal at the time, but today i might have forgotten if my mom hadn't called to tell me "happy anniversary." 16...such a different version of me. my life was soccer, making the best grades, barely making it into first hour on time, being yearbook editor, and living too intimidated by people to even begin to be their friend. and going to church. that was the year i realized what it was to really need God in your life...to need the relationship, not the church attendance or other Christians, or even my family, so much as i needed Him. knowing Him became much more than the decision that i made as a kid. there were 6 months between the time the surgery was scheduled and the actual surgery. i've never been able to describe to other people what His peace was like during that time or how much my trust in Him HAD to increase. i wish i could say that i prayed because that's what "good Christians" do, but i prayed because i didn't know what else to do. i kind of fell into it and came back out a different girl.
i wonder what i'd be like now at 26 had those things never happened. back then i would never have guessed how it would ripple into the rest of my life. every once in a while someone asks about my scar or they'll try to be nice by saying that you can't really notice it. and most days i forget i have it until i look in the mirror. today i'm glad i have it. it may be seen as a blemish to some, but to me it's an everyday reminder of who true beauty comes from. | | |
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