Hi! Welcome to my xanga site. This is what actually goes through my mind on a daily basis.

I am Shanny. I am an American living in Germany. I am a mother, wife, believer, friend and observer. I find that I am often at odds with other belief structures and systems. I tend to think beneath the surface and search for higher meanings and purposes. I am not satisfied with emotional experiences and I want the real thing, all the time. Chit chat is about the only thing I cannot tolerate. I love a real person, even in all their flaws or perfections... its beautiful. I have a bleeding heart for the broken, hurting, lost, and lonely. Only Christ in me can be something that makes an odd person like me, hopeful that "all will be good". He is my life, and all the rubbish that is attatched to His name falsely, I will spend my life trying to free myself and others from, so they can find the beauty in His wonderful love, in its pure entire form. . I like music, movies, art, the goth/industrial culture, and Europe.