I try to live in the moment, but sometimes it doesn't work. I'm just a young woman, trying to figure out who I am and what I want. Waiting for the right person for me to come along. I can be random, but a lot of times randomness is a way for me to release unrelated thoughts from my head. I'm deep and thoughtful, but I'm also quite carefree at times. There's so much about me you'll never know. Some of my story is captured here at Xanga...for the last 4 1/2 years I've shared myself here. Come, have a cup of coffee with me =]

i'm 20. i dream, i dance, i desire. i'm falling in love. it feels crazy. i'm not used to being like this. i talk too much. i listen well. i observe. i want to do something productive with my life but i'm lazy as hell. i love lying in bed under three blankets with the sexiest man i know and adore. i like to lick things...random things. things that aren't meant to be licked. i like to bite. i like being bitten, i like...to live. and i live the same way i drive. fast. i'm just slightly insane and i don't give a fuck about what most people have to say about me. i won't change. i am who i am and if you can't handle it, then you're a fucking pussy!

“Growing up sucks. Not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations, but there are those times when everything, I mean.. love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible.”

Anorexia is an addiction I struggle with on a daily basis. I have an obscene obsession with the protrusion of bones, its beautiful. My fragility when I'm skinny is breathtaking, but its never enough.