sometimes i'm kinda terrifying......i think of death/ smashing / killing / bleeding.......as BB said, Berserk.....there's another 'Me'.....inside.....evil one........i guess everybody has its extreme side......well.......people judge according to our visible behaviours, all depends on wt we do.......my imagination is horrible and brutal....imagination calms me down......so tat i wont be violent outside......Think tat i'm crazy???..........yes indeed, my life is full of contradiction n moot points.......btw conservatism and innovation.....the closer, the more dangerous, more painful....watch out!