im gone.

hey. well.. the news... i finally moved off Guam... yea amazing huh?! i really miss it. :( i now use myspace a hacka lot. :P so im not using this anymore.. kk?! shoot!

heres my myspace url: http://www.myspace.com/x_confus3d_4_lov3_x  kk?! bye!!

jules.

IS THIS TO ME? OR WAT?

Hey Guys......  Man....... Shit's fucked up for me today........ I just feel so fuckin bummed out...... at the begining of the day everything was fine..... Everything was fine.......  But while we were at "Top of the Mar" during the bomb scare was when things got fucked up....... Timi got stung by a bee...... Jeremiah stepped in something....... As For Me......  A *freind* of mine who I used to have a crush on kept asking me all these questions about who she should go out with...... And It Just..... Reminded me how I felt when I had a crush on her and she would tell me, "Oh, this guys So Fucking Hot!!!" Everytime she said that...... I remember feeling..... Like Shit....... And I remember how much I wished to be someone else.......      It just brought back really bad memories and...... I don't have any hard feelings with her...... We're still freinds, I guess.......Well, That's what's on my mind right now....... I really don't feel like typing anymore so........

This goes out to the guy in im life at the moment

Anyways... Hey there... Sorry its been so long since i've wrote on this thing... I've been really bz.... Like with homework and cheerleading... *sigh* Im freaking failing 3 classes... 3 CLASSES! I cant beleive i am but... i am... lol... but rite now im working really hard to pick my grades up... Rite now i got done with my LA homework. i havent done any hw for that class since the first week...  yea... lol... My dad says i should put me and Daniel's relationship on hold until i get my grades up... i dont want to do it... but if it gets worse then i guess i have to... grr... Lots of drama has been going on in cheerleading... but its only with this one girl named Jonna... I hate her... Well i actually extremely dislike her... grr... she makes me sooooo mad! *ahh* lol... but yea.. i wanna jump her. and mess with her so badly that shes ugh! grr... Okie... enough of that bfore i start cussing... Hmm... Wat else to write about? Well... Daniel... okie... umm... me and Daniel have been going out for a week and 2 days... yay... Its been good so far. No complaints... happy and proud to be with Dan Dan... :P *sigh* i cant beleive im going out with him but things happen for a reason... rite? rite? yea... Well i think thats it for now... ttyl.

Much luv,
Julie Ann Espino Pastones
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TO SERENA

FR JULIE

Would you care?
If I died?
If I’m already dead would you forget?
The memories we shared
The connection we made
The friendship we created
Would you forgive?
And forget?
Would you miss me?
Do you want?
What you miss the most?
Do you want it back?
Every time you see this
You think and forget
Really really stop and think
Would you care?
Think about it for a moment
What are grudges?
What is hate?
What is love?
We only create these things…
Don’t hate
Don’t be sad...
Don’t be anything,
Love is a powerful word
But it's the same meaning as hate spelled differently...
Would you smile again if I told you I cared...
Yeah cause I do
I took time to write this down
Because I give a damn about you!
Do you really care about someone?
Tell them.
I may not talk to you now
but everybody is alright in there own way.
I lost you
I lost the one I loved the most out of all my friends...
Im lost myself...
I think Im better off saying that everyone cares for something, someone...
Even just a little bit
Why don't you show it?
Stop faking your smiles
If you’re sad be sad...
If you’re happy be happy
*Sighs*
I just want to say
I don’t know anymore.
I don’t know wat to do anymore.
I tried my hardest to fix it.
But trying only led to an argument.
Im tired of trying but losing even more.
My friend.
The one I lost.
Im sorry.
Even if  “Sorry doesn’t cut it this time.”
I love you.
And I never meant this to happen.
I hope u can forgive me.

Im sorry.