| | Usefulness....Useful...
Cars, computers, stoves, paper, pens.... They are the things we use on a daily basis to help us in some way. What happens when something is no longer useful? Well... we stop using it. Maybe we leave it on a shelf and let dust accumulate on top of it. Maybe we throw it away... there are many different options of how we handle things that are no longer useful to use. The main thing is that we no longer use them. Something could have been used soooo many times, but it's just not the same as it used to be.
I have this computer. It's the one I'm typing on right now actually. It's been dropped and pounded on soooo many times. There are dents in the front, and at one time, the cd player would not eject cds from it. The screen is virtually unusable, and therefore I use the giant tv to get on the internet etc. My battery no longer charges a charge more than 5 minutes. However, I still use it. It's a very dilapidated computer, and I think most people would have thrown it away or waited for it to be repaired.
I see potential in this vastly damaged piece of machinery. It doesn't work the exact way I would like it to, but it is still useful to me.
Ever feel like you are like my computer? Your screen is broke, your battery doesn't quiet charge all the way, and sometimes things don't come out of you the way they are supposed to? I sure have, and I do particularly right now. My talents seem so dispersed as if they could not possibly be used in a coherent way. However, I know God sees me as still useful. Sometimes, just like my computer, some of the most useful and valuable things in life are damaged and seemingly useless.
I'm ready to be used by God more. I don't know how. Maybe it's with those Indian guys I played tennis with the other day. I spend far too much time being selfish, and far little time thinking about how I can show people God's love. That's what I feel like I'm good at. I can love people. Satan tries to take that away from me by telling me how much of a hassle it is to meet new people and to stay a part of their lives. it sure is a hassle. lol It honestly is. I want to serve when i have 'free' time, and when I'm not stressed out. God, could you make that happen? Oh... and I would like a raise so I could finally start tithing? Logical... no.... comfortable... definitely.
Nothing changes in life when it's comfortable. When you work out... it sucks. It hurts... so what... you deal with it. When you meet new people... it can be awkward... so what.... it's not always about you. Be comfortable being.... uncomfortable. I have to remind myself of that sometimes.
It is soooo easy to just live life selfishly. Do people remember who you are or admire your selfishness? I'm going to go out on a limb and say no. God's love.... it doesn't require payment.... reason.... or deserving.
Lord... show me ways to get out of my comfort zone... still take care of my responsibilities.... and be able to serve you to my utmost. Give me opportunities.... speak through me to others.... let me live the life I was created for. Amen...
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| | Posted 9/11/2007 9:39 PM - 3 comments
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